The late drive out of Seoul started quietly. The kind of late where the city slowly stopped pretending to be alive. Streetlights stretched across the windshield in long golden streaks while soft music played low enough that neither of us bothered acknowledging it properly. Beside me, Ryujin sat with one leg tucked beneath herself while scrolling through her phone with the dangerous calmness of somebody who had already emotionally committed to causing problems several hours ago.
“You’re thinking too loudly,” she muttered without looking up.
“That sentence makes absolutely no medical sense.”
“You still understood it.”
Fair. I glanced briefly toward her afterward before returning my attention to the road again.
“You know normal people usually ask before abducting somebody in front of a crowd.”
“You got into the car voluntarily.” Ryujin snorted softly beside me.
“That feels legally debatable.”
“You’re being dramatic again.”
“You stole my keys earlier.”
“Yet you’re the one driving.”
The silence settled comfortably again afterward. Not the softer kind I shared with Yeji. Different. Sharper. Like both of us were constantly waiting to see who would provoke the other first. That dynamic somehow suited Ryujin disturbingly well.
A few minutes later her eyes shifted away from the phone briefly toward me again.
“…So how many houses do you actually own?”
“That sounded financially judgmental.”
“That sounded like avoidance.”
“That sounded invasive.”
“That sounded correct.” I sighed softly afterward.
“Enough that I don’t actively think about it anymore.”
Ryujin slowly lowered her phone now.
“…That’s the most rich person answer you’ve ever given me.”
“In my defense, you people profile me constantly.”
“Because you act suspiciously wealthy.”
“I literally accepted minimum wage from JYPE.”
“You bought an entire floor.”
“That was emotional support architecture.”
“Nope, that sentence still sounds fake.”
Another quieter silence settled between us afterward while the city lights slowly gave way to darker roads and quieter neighborhoods. “Why this house?” I kept one hand against the steering wheel while answering honestly “Closest one”.
“That somehow concerns me more.” The corner of Ryujin’s mouth twitched slightly afterward before she leaned her head back comfortably against the seat again. For somebody who spent most of her life constantly observed by cameras, fans, staff, and schedules— she looked strangely relaxed disappearing into the dark like this.
By the time we finally arrived, the neighborhood itself had already gone almost completely silent. Ryujin stared openly out the window while I pulled into the driveway. Then paused.
“…Ben.”
“That sounded like another comment.”
“What the hell is this?”
“That sounds judgmental towards the architect who designed the place.”
“This is a rich villain house.”
“I feel like villains usually have more sinister lighting.”
“You absolutely have hidden wine cellars in here.”
“That’s ridiculous.”
A pause.
“…There IS a wine cellar though.”
“Oh my god.” Ryujin immediately folded forward laughing against the dashboard.
“In my defense, it came with the house.”
The inside of the house felt significantly colder than the Top Floor. Less lived in. Expensive in the way old money usually tried pretending it wasn’t. Ryujin noticed immediately. “You don’t stay here much”. More observation “…Not really.”
“Why?”
I set the car keys down near the kitchen counter before answering honestly.
“It’s too quiet.”
That earned a glance from her. A smaller one this time. Less teasing. Then eventually she walked farther into the living room area before dropping onto the couch casually while kicking her shoes off without asking permission. At this point I respected the consistency.
“Alright emotional support manager,” she muttered while looking around the house afterward.
“Where’s the alcohol?”
“There’s something deeply concerning about how comfortable you are saying that title now.”
“You made it your whole personality.”
“That feels unfair.”
“But is it inaccurate?”
Unfortunately? She’s right. I grabbed two glasses afterward while Ryujin wandered toward the massive windows overlooking the dark city lights below “…It’s weird”. I glanced toward her briefly “What is?”. Ryujin folded her arms loosely while still staring out the glass “You. You’re ridiculously rich. You could literally disappear and never work again if you wanted to.” She glanced back toward me afterward. “But instead you willingly spend your days getting yelled at by five emotionally unstable women.”
“That description feels incredibly biased.”
“It’s also true.”
I handed her a glass afterward before leaning back lightly against the kitchen counter “You’re all worth the headache”. There it was. The smallest shift. But noticeable. Because Ryujin looked away first afterward.
Ryujin eventually wandered back toward the kitchen island afterward before taking a slower sip from the glass in her hand. Then she narrowed her eyes slightly.
“…You know what bothers me?”
“You have never used that sentence on me with good intentions.”
“Well that’s cause you answer questions like a politician.”
“That feels professionally offensive.”
“You dodge everything.” I took a slower sip from my own drink afterward.
“That’s because you ask questions like an interrogator.”
“Because you act suspicious constantly.”
“I manage idols for a living. Suspicion is survival.”
Ryujin pointed at me immediately. “See? That.” She leaned lightly against the counter afterward. “Normal people don’t say things like that.”
“Normal people also don’t survive entertainment companies.”
“That sounded deeply experienced.”
Ryujin studied me quietly for another moment afterward before continuing “So what’s the actual story with you?” Dangerous question. Invasively a very dangerous question.
I already knew “actual story” could mean family, money, education, why I took the job, or why I seemed emotionally exhausted at thirty despite technically being successful enough to disappear from society permanently.
The problem with observant people was that they eventually noticed the shape of the things you avoided. Ryujin especially.
“You’re gonna need to narrow that down significantly.”
“Nope.” She took another sip casually. “I want all of it.”
“That sounds emotionally greedy.”
“That sounds correct.”
Then she started counting lazily with one finger.
“Why are you rich?”
“Why psychology?”
“Why do you look emotionally tired all the time?”
“Why tattoos?”
“Why do you care so much about wellbeing?”
“Why are you weirdly good at reading people?”
“And why do I feel like half your personality is professionally curated damage control?”
Silence. An interesting sequence of observations. I stared at her slowly afterward. “…You’re alarmingly perceptive after alcohol.” Ryujin grinned slightly “You’re alarmingly avoidant while sober”. Another unfortunately correct observation.
I leaned lightly back against the counter afterward while debating internally how much honesty I was willing to survive tonight. Then eventually I decided to partake. “My mother.” Ryujin blinked once. She probably didn’t expect an actual answer that quickly. I rotated the glass once slowly in my hand afterward before continuing. “She worked herself into the ground most of her life.” I shrugged lightly afterward. “Smartest person I knew. Also the worst at resting.” The teasing atmosphere softened slightly. “She died younger than she should’ve”.
The room went quieter afterward. No pity from Ryujin. No dramatic reaction. Which honestly made it easier to keep talking. “I spent a long time realizing most people don’t collapse all at once.” I looked down briefly at the amber liquid in the glass afterward “Usually it happens slowly enough that nobody notices until they stop functioning”.
Ryujin stayed quiet. Actually quiet. Very rare for her. “So now,” I continued more lightly afterward, “I annoy emotionally exhausted celebrities professionally.”
“That sounds like emotional deflection.”
“Still an accurate description.”
The corner of Ryujin’s mouth twitched slightly again afterward. But this time the teasing didn’t fully return. Instead, she leaned lightly against the opposite side of the counter while looking at me differently now. Not softer. Just understanding something new. “That’s why you bought the floor.” Not question. Observation. I exhaled quietly through my nose afterward “Partially why”. Ryujin stared at me another second before taking another sip. “Okay now I feel slightly bad for bullying you financially.”
“That implies you’re stopping.”
“I’m absolutely not stopping.”
Well, she’s back. Psychological stability restored. I laughed softly under my breath afterward while Ryujin walked around the island counter closer now before casually stealing the bottle directly out of my hand.
Then she leaned beside me against the counter afterward while pouring herself another drink with visible satisfaction. Only to suddenly pause. Ryujin slowly tilted the bottle slightly afterward before narrowing her eyes at something attached near the bottom corner “…Hold on”.
“You left the price tag on this.”
“In my defense, I genuinely forgot.”
“That sentence already scares me.”
Ryujin turned the bottle fully now. Then immediately froze. It was a very expensive silence.
“You look like you’ve seen JYPE naked or something.”
“What the actual fuck is THIS price?”
I glanced briefly toward the bottle. Ah, right. That one.
“Honestly don’t let it worry you, that’s not the most expensive bottle I have.”
“That is NOT an answer.”
“It’s alcohol.”
“That costs more than my first car.”
“That feels emotionally exaggerated.”
Ryujin immediately shoved the bottle directly toward my face afterward.
“THIS is a down payment.”
She stared at the bottle another few seconds afterward like it personally offended her upbringing before slowly looking back toward me.
“…And you’re just casually drinking this?”
“I mean…” I shrugged lightly. “It’s open already.”
Ryujin blinked once. Then twice. She was close to a psychological collapse over liquor pricing.
“You know normal rich people usually save things like this for special occasions.”
“I don’t really care about objects that much.”
“That sentence sounded illegally wealthy.”
I took the bottle gently from her afterward before pouring another small amount into both glasses anyway. Ryujin watched the liquid hit the glass with visible emotional distress.
“You poured that way too confidently.”
“That sounds judgmental towards my hand stability.”
“You’re drinking liquid rent money.”
“That feels economically subjective.”
Ryujin stared at me another second before suddenly laughing into one hand. Not mocking. Genuinely entertained.
“You are actually insane.”
“That feels medically unverified.”
“No seriously.” She shook her head slowly afterward while still smiling. “You buy buildings when traffic annoys you. You drink alcohol worth more than motorcycles. You accepted minimum wage because apparently money stopped mattering to you years ago.” Then she narrowed her eyes slightly. “And somehow you still act like the most exhausted man I’ve ever met.”
An interesting observation. Because unfortunately that one landed cleaner than expected. I leaned lightly back against the counter afterward before answering honestly. “Money’s useful.” I rotated the glass once slowly in my hand. “But eventually it stops solving the important things.” Ryujin stayed quiet afterward. Actually quiet.
“That sounded depressing.”
“And you sounded psychologically observant.”
“And you sound like a cry for help hidden behind expensive liquor.”
The corner of my mouth twitched slightly afterward while Ryujin took another sip from the glass before visibly relaxing into the counter beside me again. The atmosphere between us had shifted somewhere along the way tonight. But now there was something else underneath it too. Understanding. Which honestly felt significantly more dangerous than flirting ever could. Ryujin took another slower sip afterward before pointing lightly at the glass in my hand.
“You know what’s funny?”
“That sentence continues to threaten my wellbeing consistently.”
“You’re ridiculously easy to psychoanalyze when alcohol gets involved.”
“That feels targeted.”
“It is.”
I shook my head quietly afterward while Ryujin wandered away from the kitchen counter again, this time dropping sideways onto the massive couch while holding the expensive liquor like she personally won it in a custody battle. I respected the confidence.
“You gonna stand there looking emotionally burdened all night?” she asked casually.
“That depends. Are you gonna keep financially assaulting me over alcohol pricing?”
“Yes.”
“Understandable.”
I eventually walked over too before sitting at the opposite end of the couch while Ryujin tucked one leg beneath herself comfortably. The house stayed quiet around us. Too quiet honestly. No upstairs noise. No Yuna screaming over snacks. No Chaeryeong half-asleep somewhere. No Lia quietly observing everybody like an emotionally intelligent cryptid. It was just me and Ryujin.
Ryujin took another slower sip afterward before lazily stretching one arm across the back of the couch “…It’s weird without Yeji unnie around”. I glanced toward her briefly.
“That sounded almost emotionally healthy.”
“Don’t make it weird.”
“Too late.”
Ryujin rolled her eyes lightly afterward before staring toward the windows again. “The floor feels different when she’s gone.” She was right, though. Yeji had somehow become the emotional center gravity of the entire ecosystem upstairs. Very dangerous emotional stability.
“She talks too much,” Ryujin muttered casually.
“That’s objectively false.”
“She sends too many messages.”
“That’s still objectively false.”
“She threatened me emotionally because I forgot dinner yesterday.”
“That one sounds believable.”
The corner of Ryujin’s mouth twitched slightly afterward “She worries about everybody constantly”. I leaned back slightly into the couch afterward while rotating the glass once slowly in my hand. “She’s used to carrying things herself and that’s the problem.” Ryujin looked toward me again afterward.
“And you make it worse sometimes.”
“That sounded accusatory.”
“You keep making it easier for her to carry everyone.”
I blinked once slowly “…That might be the first time anyone’s criticized me for helping people.”
“Because you’re helping wrong.” That earned an actual laugh out of me. Ryujin immediately pointed afterward.
“There. That.”
“What?”
“You only laugh like that around us now.”
That was an intriguing observation. I looked down briefly toward the glass in my hand afterward. The room quieted again for a moment afterward. Then eventually Ryujin leaned slightly farther into the couch while looking at me more carefully now.
“You changed too.”
“That feels dramatically vague.”
“You used to act like this was temporary. But now you act like you belong there.”
I exhaled softly through my nose afterward while Ryujin continued watching me from the opposite side of the couch. The alcohol wasn’t making her emotional, it was removing the filter. Which honestly felt significantly more dangerous. Then eventually she spoke again.
“You know what I think is funny?”
“That sentence continues to threaten my wellbeing consistently.”
“You still think nobody notices things.”
I tilted my head slightly “That sounds ominous.”
Ryujin rotated the glass once slowly between her fingers afterward before continuing.
“The way Yeji looks at you.”
“The way Lia suddenly finds you hilarious.”
“The fact that Yuna practically lives on your floor now.”
“The way Chaeryeong calms down around you.”
One after another. Measured. Precise. Problematic girl. Very problematic observational skills.
“And you,” she added afterward while looking directly at me now. “You keep acting surprised every single time somebody gets attached to you.”
I leaned slightly farther back into the couch afterward while trying very hard not to acknowledge how dangerously close this conversation was getting to several professionally catastrophic truths. Ryujin noticed that too. Of course she did.
“There.” She pointed lightly toward me with her glass. “That look again.”
“What look?”
“The one where you start thinking about consequences before anything’s even happened yet.”
“That sounds emotionally responsible.”
“That sounds exhausting.”
Eventually Ryujin spoke again. Quieter now. “But honestly?” She shrugged lightly. “I think you’re full of shit sometimes.” I looked toward her slowly.
“That feels aggressive.”
“You act like you’re above basic human thoughts.”
“That sounds vaguely insulting.”
“You know exactly what I mean.”
I did. Ryujin leaned slightly forward afterward, one arm resting against her knee while she watched me carefully now. “You’re surrounded by five ridiculously attractive women constantly emotionally attached to you.” She tilted her head slightly. “And you still act like you’re some emotionally detached saint managing us professionally.” The floor finally cracking beneath the conversation. I rubbed lightly at my jaw afterward before answering carefully. “I never said that.” Ryujin blinked once. Because that clearly wasn’t the answer she expected.
“You didn’t deny it either.”
“Because denying that you’re all attractive would make me either dishonest or legally blind.”
That immediately made Ryujin laugh softly beneath her breath. “There he is,” she muttered. “I’m deeply concerned by how happy that response made you.”
“Because it was honest.”
Then eventually the corner of Ryujin’s mouth curved slightly again afterward while she leaned farther back into the couch.
“I bet you just want to fuck us silly sometimes, don’t you?”
The worst part? She wasn’t wrong. Ryujin watched me carefully from the opposite side of the couch while slowly taking another sip from her drink. Waiting. I leaned back slightly farther into the couch afterward before answering honestly. “You say that like it’s some horrifying revelation.” Ryujin blinked once. Then immediately laughed. Actually laughed.
“Oh my god.”
“That sounded judgmental.”
“No seriously,” she muttered while shaking her head slightly. “You admitted that WAY too calmly.”
“You’re all objectively attractive people.” I shrugged lightly afterward. “What psychopath would look at ITZY and go ‘absolutely nothing happening there physically’? I might not say it outright but it’s what I believe in.”
“That’s fair honestly.”
“Thank you.”
“But also emotionally devastating to hear out loud.”
Ryujin snorted softly again before pointing her glass toward me afterward. “See? THIS is what I mean.” She narrowed her eyes slightly. “You act emotionally responsible ninety percent of the time then suddenly say something catastrophically honest like it’s normal.”
I rotated the glass once slowly in my hand afterward before continuing more seriously this time. “But that’s not why I took the job.” That shifted the atmosphere slightly. Ryujin immediately noticed the difference in tone. Of course she did. “I know, if it was, then none the others would have trusted you.” she answered surprisingly quickly. I glanced toward her briefly afterward.
“You say that with a concerning amount of confidence.”
“Because I’m not stupid.”
Ryujin leaned slightly farther back afterward while looking at me carefully now. “You care too much for this to just be about attraction.” She shrugged lightly. “That’s why this whole thing is messy.” The alcohol hit differently now. Not enough to blur judgment. Just enough to stop sanding down honesty. I exhaled softly through my nose afterward.
“That sounds ominous.”
“That sounds accurate.”
Then eventually Ryujin tilted her head slightly while studying me again. “But honestly?” The corner of her mouth curved faintly afterward. “I think the funniest part is you still act like you’re the only person trying to control themselves.” I stayed quiet— and that was answer enough too. Ryujin noticed immediately. Of course she did. Then slowly— she sat her glass down onto the table nearby before looking directly at me now. No teasing this time.
“What if I told you that what I want is for you to fuck me silly?”
The room went quiet again afterward. Dangerously aware now. Ryujin didn’t look away after saying it either. I stared at her for another second afterward before exhaling softly through my nose.
“That feels like an unbelievably reckless sentence to say to your manager.”
“That sounds like avoidance.”
“It’s professional self-preservation.”
Ryujin rolled her eyes lightly. “You know what I mean.”
Unfortunately? I did. That was the problem. I leaned forward slightly afterward, resting my elbows against my knees while looking toward the floor briefly.
“You’re drunk.”
“That’s a horrible defense.” Ryujin immediately pointed toward her glass. “I’m buzzed at best.”
“And honestly?” she continued more casually afterward, “you already admitted the attraction exists.”
“That does not automatically make this a psychologically reasonable idea.”
“Neither does buying an entire floor for five emotionally unstable women.”
“That feels aggressively targeted.”
“And it’s well deserved.”
Also fair. I laughed quietly under my breath afterward before rubbing lightly at my forehead. This entire conversation was becoming professionally catastrophic at alarming speed. And the worst part? Ryujin looked completely calm. No emotional spiraling. No vulnerability. No hidden panic. Nothing but deliberate escalation. Then eventually she stood from the couch. I looked up slowly as Ryujin wandered closer now before stopping directly in front of where I sat.
“You think too much,” she muttered.
“That sounds hypocritical coming from you.”
“No.” Ryujin tilted her head slightly afterward. “I just decide things faster.”
I looked up toward her quietly afterward. “And this is one of those decisions?”
Ryujin shrugged lightly. “I know what I’m asking for.”
That landed harder than expected. Because there was no hesitation in her voice. And honestly? That somehow made the situation significantly more dangerous. I leaned farther back slightly afterward while Ryujin stayed standing between my knees now, still watching me carefully.
“You really enjoy making my life difficult, don’t you Ryujin?”
“You enjoy pretending you don’t want things.”
The alcohol wasn’t helping anymore. Not because it blurred judgment. Because it made honesty easier to stop being filtered. Then eventually Ryujin folded her arms loosely before speaking again.
“You know what the funniest part is?”
“That sentence never stops to destroy me mentally.”
“You still think this would somehow make me emotionally fragile.”
I narrowed my eyes slightly. “That’s not what I think.”
“It absolutely is.” Ryujin scoffed softly afterward. “Ben, I’m not gonna collapse because I slept with somebody attractive.”
“That wording feels emotionally insane.”
“That wording is honest. Ignoring it would make me either dishonest or legally blind.”
She used my own words against me. Then finally— she leaned slightly closer afterward. Not enough to touch. Just enough that the tension stopped pretending not to exist anymore.
“And if we’re being honest?” Ryujin muttered quietly. “I think you want me to stop giving you chances to walk away.”
She was right again. I stayed still for another second afterward while Ryujin remained standing directly in front of me. Close now, too close.
The alcohol settled warm beneath my skin in the worst possible way, not enough to cloud judgment— just enough to stop hiding from it. Ryujin tilted her head slightly afterward when I still didn’t answer.
“There’s that look again.”
“That sentence is becoming mentally exhausting.”
“And you stalling is mentally exhausting for me, Ben.”
I exhaled quietly through my nose afterward before finally looking up at her properly. “You really don’t know when to stop.” The corner of Ryujin’s mouth curved faintly again afterward “That sounds like you’re still hoping I will”.
There wasn’t a hint of softness or affection. Only the look of victory. Which honestly suited her significantly too well. Then finally she stepped closer. Close enough now that my knees brushed lightly against her thighs.
“You know what your issue is?” she muttered quietly.
“I feel like I’m about to get psychoanalyzed against my will.”
“You keep trying to act morally responsible after the line’s already gone.”
That landed harder than expected. Because unfortunately? She was right again. I looked up toward her slowly afterward while Ryujin watched me with entirely too much awareness now. “You think if you hesitate long enough,” she continued quietly, “it somehow changes the fact that we both know exactly where this is going.” Then finally— she reached down. Just enough for her fingers to lightly catch beneath my jaw before tilting my head upward slightly toward her.
“Still thinking?” she muttered softly. I let out a quieter laugh beneath my breath afterward. “That sounds incredibly smug for somebody currently propositioning their manager.” Ryujin shrugged lightly. “You admitted you wanted honesty.”
“That feels weaponized.”
“Deserved weaponization, mind you.”
The tension between us stopped feeling theoretical somewhere several minutes ago. Now it just felt heavy. Ryujin’s thumb brushed lightly once against my jaw afterward before her eyes flicked briefly toward my mouth. “Last chance,” she murmured quietly. That wasn’t a warning or hesitation. Just letting me acknowledge it. That somehow made it significantly harder to pretend this wasn’t inevitable anymore.
The silence in the room didn't just linger; it pressed against my chest, heavy and suffocating. Ryujin stood there, a challenge wrapped in skin and stubbornness, her eyes locked onto mine with a clarity that stripped away every professional excuse I had left. The "manager" in me was screaming about boundaries and contracts, but the man in me had already surrendered. I stopped thinking. I stopped calculating the fallout. I simply reached out and grabbed her.
Ryujin didn't wait for a gentle transition. She lunged, her body colliding with mine as she bent forward, capturing my mouth in a kiss that felt less like an invitation and more like an invasion. There was no tentative exploration, no soft brushing of lips. It was a collision. Her tongue forced its way past my teeth immediately, claiming the space with a hunger that mirrored my own suppressed desperation. She tasted of the expensive whiskey we’d been drinking and something uniquely her—something sharp and electric. She groaned into my mouth, a low, guttural sound, and her hands didn't just touch me; they seized me. She grabbed my wrists and dragged my hands down, shoving them onto her hips and forcing me to grip her. I dug my fingers into her flesh, my nails probably leaving marks, but she only pushed harder against me, her body molding to mine as if she wanted to merge our skeletons.
Ryujin pulled back just an inch, her breath hot and erratic against my lips. Her eyes were dark, the pupils blown wide, swallowing the iris. "Stop pretending you're the bigger person, Ben," she breathed, her voice a jagged edge. "Just fuck me."
The last thread of my restraint snapped. I didn't answer with words. I backed her up against the nearest piece of furniture, the sound of a lamp rattling as it hit the wall. Ryujin didn't flinch. Instead, she stepped back, her hands moving to the hem of her shirt. In one fluid, defiant motion, she ripped the garment over her head and flung it across the room. I watched her, my heart hammering against my ribs like a trapped bird. She stood there in just her bra and lace underwear, her skin glowing under the dim lights of the house. She didn't look shy; she looked like a predator who had finally cornered its prey. "Your turn," she commanded, a smug little smirk tugging at the corner of her mouth.
I stripped with a frantic energy I didn't know I possessed. My shirt followed hers, then my trousers, until I stood before her in only my boxers. Ryujin’s gaze traveled slowly up my body, lingering on the hard lines of my chest and the ink that sprawled across my skin. She reached out, her fingertips grazing one of the tattoos on my arm, her touch light but searing. "I always wondered if you were hiding something under those suits," she whispered, her voice dripping with a new kind of heat. "The ink makes you look... dangerous. It makes me want it even more." Her eyes dropped lower, focusing on the prominent bulge straining against the fabric of my boxers. A flicker of genuine surprise crossed her face. She didn't hesitate. She reached out, her small hand wrapping around the length of me through the cloth, squeezing firmly. "Jesus," she breathed, her voice dropping an octave. She hooked her finger into the waistband and pulled the boxers down in one swift motion.
My cock sprung free, fully erect and pulsing with a heavy, aching throb. Ryujin froze for a second, her eyes widening as she stared at me. She reached out, her fingers tracing the head of my cock, feeling the bead of pre-cum that had already leaked out. "I've had toys," she murmured, almost to herself, her gaze fixed on the girth of me. "But this... this is something else entirely. You've been hiding this the whole time?" "You wanted the truth, Ryujin," I rasped, my voice sounding like gravel. "Here it is." She didn't waste another second. She didn't want romance, and she certainly didn't want a slow build-up. She grabbed my hand and shoved me back toward the sofa, pushing me down until I was lying flat.
Before I could even catch my breath, she was straddling me, her lace underwear already discarded on the floor. She didn't ask for foreplay. She didn't want a gentle introduction. She gripped the base of my cock, guided the head to her entrance, and slammed herself down in one violent, decisive motion. I let out a choked gasp, my back arching off the sofa. The heat was instantaneous and overwhelming. Ryujin was soaking wet, her pussy clamping around me with a tightness that felt like it was trying to pull the soul right out of my body. The friction was intense, the sensation of my skin sliding against her slick walls creating a wet, squelching sound that filled the quiet room. Ryujin threw her head back, a loud, unrestrained moan escaping her throat. She didn't start slow. She began to bounce, her hips moving in a frantic, competitive rhythm.
It wasn't a dance; it was a battle. She was trying to see how much she could take, how hard she could push me, and I met her energy with everything I had. "Is this... what you wanted?" I groaned, my hands gripping her waist, my fingers digging into the soft curve of her hips to drive her down harder. "More," she gasped, her voice strained. "Don't you dare... hold back now, Ben. Give me... everything." The sound of our bodies colliding—the slap of her thighs against my legs, the rhythmic sounds of my cock sliding in and out of her drenched pussy became the only thing that existed. Ryujin was aggressive, her movements impulsive and raw. She leaned forward, her breasts brushing against my chest, her nipples hard and grazing my skin. She was fighting for control, trying to set the pace, her eyes locked on mine with a defiant, lust-filled glare.
I felt the pressure building in my gut, a tidal wave of release threatening to crash. As I neared the peak, my thrusts became more erratic, more powerful. But just as I felt the first spasm of orgasm hit, Ryujin gripped my hips and slid herself off me with a sudden, jarring movement. I let out a frustrated groan, my cock twitching in the open air, the sudden loss of heat leaving me reeling. I looked up at her, breathless and shaking. Ryujin stood over me, her chest heaving, a triumphant, smug expression on her face as she looked down at my leaking tip. "Not yet," she whispered, her voice playful and cruel.
She didn't give me time to argue. She grabbed my hand and pulled me toward the bedroom, her movements urgent. She wanted more, but she wanted it on her terms. Once we hit the mattress, the power struggle intensified. Ryujin immediately climbed on top of me again, her skin flushed a deep pink, sweat making her glow in the moonlight filtering through the curtains. She began to ride me again, her movements slower now, more deliberate, teasing the head of my cock against her clit before sliding down fully. "You're so frustrated," she taunted, a small, knowing smile on her lips. "I can feel it. You're practically vibrating."
"Shut up and move," I growled, my hands sliding up to her breasts, squeezing them firmly. She laughed, a breathless, airy sound, and increased the pace. The sex was a collision of wills. Every time I tried to flip her over, every time I tried to take the lead and dictate the rhythm, she fought me. She would shift her weight, pin my arms for a second, or change the angle to keep me guessing. It was a game of physical chess, and for the first two rounds, Ryujin won every single exchange. The friction was incredible. The smell of her musk, and the sweet scent of her arousal—filled the room. I could feel the inside of her walls pulsing around me, her own orgasms hitting her in waves. She was loud, her moans turning into high-pitched cries that echoed off the walls. But every time I reached the edge, every time I felt the surge of cum ready to explode, she would pull back or shift the angle, denying me the full release of coming inside her.
By the third round, the atmosphere shifted. The competitive energy was still there, but the physical toll began to mount. Ryujin’s movements slowed. Her breathing became heavy, labored. The sheer intensity of the stimulation—the size of me filling her to the brim and the relentless pace we'd kept—started to wear her down. She eventually collapsed onto my chest, her skin slick with sweat, her heart hammering against mine. Her guard dropped. The smugness vanished, replaced by a look of pure, exhausted bliss. She was spent, her body trembling from the back-to-back orgasms.
I felt it then. The shift in the air. The moment where the power balance tipped. I didn't give her time to recover. While she was still reeling from her last peak, I gripped her waist and flipped her over with one powerful motion. Ryujin let out a surprised yelp, her eyes snapping open. She tried to push back, tried to regain the dominant pacing she'd held all night, but her muscles were like jelly. She was too overstimulated, too physically drained to fight me. "My turn," I whispered, my voice low and dangerous. I grabbed both of her wrists in one hand and pinned them brutally above her head, slamming them into the mattress. The sudden restriction made her gasp, her body arching instinctively.
I didn't go slow. I entered her with a forceful, deep thrust that buried me to the hilt, hitting her cervix with a bluntness that made her eyes roll back in her head. "Ben!" she screamed, the sound raw and loud. "You've had your fun, Ryujin," I groaned, my hips slamming into hers with a rhythmic, punishing force. "Now you're going to take exactly what I give you." This wasn't the push-and-pull of before. This was total domination. I stopped caring about the pace she wanted and started imposing my own. I drove into her with a relentless, heavy intensity, each thrust accompanied by the loud, wet slap of my skin ramming her. The sound was visceral, a rhythmic squelch that signaled just how deep I was sinking into her.
Ryujin wasn't fighting me anymore. She was sobbing into the pillow, her voice a mixture of pleasure and desperation. The feeling of being overpowered, of finally meeting someone who could not only match her intensity but crush it, was overloading her. I released her wrists and grabbed her hair, winding the strands around my fist and pulling her head back. I shifted her, flipping her onto all fours in a jagged motion. I pushed her chest down against the mattress and guided her toward the large mirror leaning against the bedroom wall.
"Look," I commanded, my voice a guttural rasp. Ryujin looked. She saw herself in the reflection—her back arched, her face flushed and ecstatic, her eyes glazed with a level of pleasure that bordered on pain. She saw me behind her, my muscular frame looming over her, my cock disappearing entirely into her soaking wet pussy with every brutal drive. I leaned down, my chest pressing against her back, and delivered a sharp, stinging spank to her right butt cheek. The sound cracked through the room like a whip. Ryujin let out a piercing moan, her entire body shuddering. The shock of the pain combined with the depth of the penetration triggered something in her. Her internal muscles clamped down on me with a violence that nearly brought me to my knees. "Oh god, yes! Harder! Fuck me harder!" she wailed, her voice completely broken, stripped of all its previous smugness. I obliged. I hammered into her, my movements instinctive and rough. I could feel her coming again, a massive, rolling orgasm that made her hips shake uncontrollably. She was loud, her moans turning into guttural screams of satisfaction.
She had spent the whole night trying to control the experience, and now, in the total surrender of her control, she was finding a pleasure that was earth-shattering. I felt the pressure in my loins reaching a critical mass. I didn't want to pull out this time. I didn't want the game— I wanted the mark. I gripped her hips and flipped her back onto her back, pulling her legs up over my shoulders. I wanted to see her face. I wanted to see the exact moment she broke.
As I drove into her one last time, the depth was absolute. I felt the heat of her pussy enveloping me, the walls pulsing in a desperate rhythm. "I'm coming inside you, Ryujin," I growled, my voice thick with lust. "And you're not moving an inch." "No... wait..." she gasped, a ghost of her previous resistance flickering in her eyes. But her body told a different story. Her hips were bucking upward, begging for the impact, her pussy gripping me with a needy, starving intensity. She was faking the protest, her voice trembling with a desire she could no longer hide. "I don't care what you say," I rasped, slamming my weight down on her. "You're taking all of it." I let out a roar as the orgasm finally ripped through me. It was an explosion of heat and pressure. I felt my cock pulse violently inside her, pumping thick, hot jets of cum deep against her cervix. The sensation was overwhelming, a blinding white light of pleasure that made my entire body shake.
Ryujin screamed, her own orgasm hitting simultaneously. She clamped down on me, I could feel her internal muscles milking me dry, her face twisted in a mask of pure, unadulterated ecstasy. I didn't pull out. I stayed buried deep inside her, my chest heaving, my skin slick with sweat. I leaned down and captured her mouth in a kiss that was possessive and heavy, our tongues tangling in a messy exchange of saliva and breath. It was a seal, a silent declaration that the power struggle was over. But the fire hadn't completely died. Even as I lay there, I could feel the lingering thrum of desire. Ryujin was beneath me, completely broken and fulfilled, her breath coming in shallow hitches.
I started to move again. Slowly at first, then with a renewed, steady intensity. "Ben... I can't... I'm too sensitive..." she moaned, her voice a fragile thread. "Too bad," I whispered, my voice possessive. I continued to fuck her, the friction now almost too much for her to bear. Every slide of my cock felt like an electric shock to her overstimulated nerves. She was crying out, her voice hoarse, her body arching and twisting under me. She was caught in a loop of pleasure, unable to escape the sensation of me filling her. "Please... oh god, please don't stop..." she whimpered, her hands clutching at my arms. I kept going, driving her further and further into a state of sensory overload.
I watched her face—the way her eyes rolled back, the way her mouth stayed open in a silent scream of pleasure. I was the only thing she could feel, the only thing that mattered. Finally, after what felt like hours of relentless movement, I felt another surge building. It wasn't as explosive as the first, but it was heavy and inevitable.
I pulled out of her with a wet, sucking sound, the air hitting my slick skin. Ryujin let out a whimper of loss, her legs still trembling. I gripped her thighs, pulling her toward the edge of the bed. With one final, powerful thrust of my hips, I erupted across her stomach and breasts. The hot, white cream splattered across her golden skin, marking her in the dim light. Ryujin gasped, her eyes fluttering shut as she looked down at the mess I'd made of her. She didn't look disgusted; she looked conquered. She looked complete.
I collapsed beside her, the silence of the room returning, but this time it wasn't heavy. It was light, airy, and filled with the scent of our shared exhaustion. I reached out, my hand instinctively finding the small of her back, pulling her close. Ryujin sighed, a long, shaky sound, and curled into my side. The fire had burned out, leaving behind a smoldering heat that felt more honest than any professional boundary we had ever tried to maintain. "You're a menace," she whispered, her voice barely audible. "You started it," I replied, kissing her forehead. She let out a soft, genuine laugh, the sound of someone who had finally found a match.
The haze of sleep didn't lift so much as it was ripped away. I felt it before I saw her—a sudden, searing heat enveloping the head of my cock, followed by the rhythmic, wet suction of a mouth that knew exactly what it wanted. My eyes snapped open to find Ryujin hovering over me, her hair messy, her eyes locked onto mine with a predatory glint. She wasn't just waking me up; she was claiming the day.
The sensation was staggering. She used her tongue to swirl around the rim of my glans before sliding down, taking me deep into the warmth of her throat. I let out a low, guttural groan, my hips instinctively bucking upward. She didn't flinch. She leaned into it, her cheeks hollowing as she created a vacuum that felt like it was pulling the marrow from my bones. The sound was a constant, wet with the noise of saliva mixing with the friction of her lips against my shaft.
She looked up at me, her eyes narrowing, a smug little smirk playing on her lips even as she worked. She knew the power she held in this moment. I reached down, my fingers tangling in her hair, not to pull her away, but to anchor her as I began to thrust my hips into her mouth. She let out a muffled sound, a small, nasal whine of protest that only served to heighten the intensity. She took me deeper, pushing past her gag reflex, her throat tightening around me in a way that made my vision blur.
The pressure built with a violent speed. I could feel the pre-cum leaking, lubricating the path as she accelerated her pace. Her tongue flicked against the underside of my cock, hitting the nerve endings with precision. I gripped her hair tighter, my breath coming in jagged hitches. "Ryujin," I rasped, my voice a wreck. She didn't stop. She doubled down, her suction becoming frantic, her mouth molding to every ridge of my length.
When the orgasm finally hit, it felt like a physical blow. I surged upward, my body shuddering as I pumped thick, hot jets of cum deep into her throat. She didn't pull away. She stayed clamped on, determined to take every single drop. I felt the pulses of my cock hitting the back of her throat, the volume of the release clearly catching her off guard. She tried to swallow, her throat working hard, but the sheer amount was too much.
A thin, white string of cum leaked from the corner of her mouth, dripping onto her chin. She pulled back slowly, a wet pop echoing in the quiet room. She licked her lips, savoring the taste of my seed, and gave me that same, insufferable grin.
"You're a lot louder when you're not thinking about your contract, Ben."
"You're a menace."
"And you love it." She slid off me with a slow, deliberate friction that left me twitching.
I eventually leaned back against the headboard afterward while trying to regulate my breathing again. Ryujin looked significantly too pleased with herself. “You look emotionally compromised,” she muttered casually while wiping lightly at the corner of her mouth afterward.
“That feels aggressively judgmental considering the circumstances.”
“Usually people treat that as a reward for a good job.”
I rubbed lightly at my forehead afterward before finally looking toward her properly “…You woke me up like a starved nymphomaniac.”
Ryujin snorted softly. “You weren’t complaining.”
“That feels legally unusable against me.”
“That sounds like surrender.”
“Absolutely not.”
The grin she gave me afterward suggested she interpreted that as complete victory anyway. Then eventually Ryujin shifted slightly closer across the bed afterward before speaking again. “By the way,” she muttered casually, “don’t start giving me that boyfriend treatment now.” I narrowed my eyes slightly. “That sounds vaguely threatening.”
“That sounds preventative.” Ryujin leaned lightly back against the pillows afterward while looking at me directly now. “I like you, Ben.” She shrugged casually. “Obviously, I don’t think anyone could give it to me the way that you did.” Then immediately afterward “But I don’t want whatever you and Yeji have.” A dangerous sentence that she said so casually. No bitterness. No jealousy. No hesitation. I stared at her another second afterward “…You know.” Ryujin immediately rolled her eyes. “Please.” She let out a quiet laugh afterward. “You two are terrible at hiding it.”
I exhaled softly through my nose afterward while Ryujin continued watching me with visible amusement now. “The way she looks at you alone already gives everything away,” she muttered. “And you act completely different around her.” Then eventually Ryujin tilted her head slightly afterward. “But honestly?” She shrugged. “I don’t really care about the details.”
“You say that surprisingly calmly.” I looked toward her quietly. “Because I’m not trying to replace her.” That landed cleaner than expected. Ryujin stretched one arm lazily above her head afterward before continuing casually. “I’m just being honest about what I want.” Her eyes shifted back toward me again afterward. “And after last night?” The corner of her mouth curved faintly. “I definitely want more of that.” I rubbed lightly at my jaw afterward while Ryujin watched the reaction with visible satisfaction now. “I don’t want the soft aftercare princess treatment,” she muttered. “I don’t need the emotional reassurance speeches.” Her expression shifted slightly afterward. Less teasing now. More deliberate. “You fucked me silly last night, for the first time— I was actually fucked silly and I loved it.” Ryujin held eye contact anyway. “I expect you to fuck me hard when I want you to,” she continued casually afterward. “And honestly?” Her eyes flicked briefly downward before returning to mine again. “I expect you to fuck me until I’m a mess when you want to.”
An hour later, the bathroom was a sanctuary of white tile and blinding steam. The hot water hammered against the walls, creating a humid fog that clung to our skin. I stood under the spray, the heat loosening the tension in my shoulders, until Ryujin stepped in. She didn't say a word. She just walked into my space, her wet skin sliding against mine, her eyes dark with a hunger that hadn't been sated by the morning's first round. I didn't give her the chance to tease. I grabbed her hips and lifted her in one fluid motion. Ryujin let out a sharp gasp, her legs immediately locking around my waist, her arms winding around my neck. The weight of her was perfect, her damp heat pressing against my groin.
I entered her with a single, deep drive. The sound was a loud, wet squelch as my cock slid into her drenched pussy, the lubrication of the soap and her own arousal making the entry effortless. Ryujin threw her head back, a loud moan echoing off the tiles, her body arching against mine. "God, you're so tight," I groaned into her ear. "Stop talking," she breathed, her voice a jagged edge. "Just... don't stop." I began to move, the rhythm steady and punishing. I walked her back against the shower wall, the cold tile a stark contrast to the searing heat of our bodies. Each thrust was deep, a rhythmic thud. We kissed with a desperation that felt like we were trying to breathe for each other, our tongues tangling, saliva exchanging in a messy, frantic blur. The friction was incredible. The water cascaded over us, but it couldn't cool the fire. I could feel the internal walls of her pussy pulsing around me, clamping down with every slide. Ryujin's breathing became a series of broken whimpers, her nails digging into my shoulders. I shifted my angle, driving my cock upward to hit her g-spot with every ram.
"Ben... please... right there..." I didn't let up. I accelerated the pace, my movements becoming more instinctive, more rough. I wanted to feel her break. I wanted to see that confidence dissolve into pure, unadulterated need. I felt the build-up in my gut, the tidal wave of release crashing over me. At the same moment, Ryujin's body began to shudder. She tightened around me, her internal muscles milking me with a violence that forced a roar from my chest. I slammed into her one last time, burying myself to the hilt. I pumped my cum deep inside her, the volume of the release filling her to the brim. The sensation of the hot fluid ffilling her womb triggered something primal in Ryujin. She broke the kiss, her mouth falling open as she let out a guttural, soul-shaking moan that drowned out the sound of the shower.
We stayed like that for a long minute, the water rinsing the salt and sweat from our skin. As I slowly lowered her to her feet, Ryujin didn't pull away. Instead, her hand wandered down, her fingers curling around my softening cock, squeezing it with a lingering possessiveness "Still not enough," she whispered. I looked at her—flushed, dripping, and completely insatiable. I reached down and delivered a sharp, stinging slap to her ass. The sound cracked through the steam. Ryujin jumped, a small gasp escaping her, but she didn't move her hand. I kept my grip on her hip, sliding two fingers deep into her dripping pussy, hooking them upward to toy with her clit. "You're going to be a mess by the time we leave this house," I muttered. "That's the plan, manager."
The house felt cavernous and too quiet, which only made the sounds of our breathing seem louder. Since the kitchen was barren, we ordered food, the wait time giving us a reprieve that neither of us actually wanted. We wandered the halls in nothing but our underwear—me in my boxers, Ryujin in a pair of black lace panties that left nothing to the imagination. The atmosphere was a strange mix of domesticity and raw electricity. We ate on the counter, the conversation casual, almost normal, but the way Ryujin’s eyes kept tracking the movement of my throat when I drank water told a different story.
"I'll do the dishes," she offered, leaning back against the sink. "Consider it a thank you for the... hospitality." I watched her as she turned her back to me, the lace of her panties stretching over the curve of her ass. The invitation was silent, but it was deafening. I walked up behind her, wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her back against my chest. "I specifically asked you for none of that boyfriend treatment bullshit," Ryujin retorted, though she leaned her head back against my shoulder. "What is this?"
"A distraction," I whispered. I didn't wait for her to argue. I slid my hand down, pushing the lace aside and burying my fingers in her soaking wet heat. Ryujin let out a sharp, choked sound, her hands gripping the edge of the sink. I didn't go slow. I attacked her g-spot with a vigorous, rhythmic motion, my thumb grinding into her clit with a pressure that had her legs shaking.
"Ben... oh god... stop... no, don't stop..." She was on the verge, her breath coming in short, jagged gasps. I could feel the tension in her thighs, the way her pussy was clamping down on my fingers. Just as she reached the peak, just as the first wave of the orgasm began to roll through her, I ripped my fingers out. Ryujin let out a whimper of pure frustration, her body sagging. "You... you bastard..." I didn't give her a second to recover. I stepped closer, my cock already hard and pulsing, and rammed myself into her from behind in one violent motion. The impact was brutal. Ryujin screamed, the sound muffled by the quiet of the kitchen. She had been so preoccupied with the near-orgasm that she had no defense. I had full control now. I gripped her hair, pulling her head back so I could see the expression of shock and pleasure on her face in the reflection of the window. I began to fuck her with a relentless, heavy intensity. Every thrust was a statement. I slammed my hips into her, the sound of our bodies colliding—a rhythmic, wet slap—filling the room.
I delivered a sharp spank to her right cheek, the sound echoing, and she tightened around me instantly, her pussy gripping my shaft like a vice. "Look at you," I growled, leaning down to capture her lips in a deep, tongue-heavy kiss. "So loud now." I didn't stop the ramming, my cock sliding in and out of her with a visceral, squelching sound. Ryujin was lost. The struggle for control had vanished, replaced by a desperate, starving need. She began to sob into the kiss, her body bucking against me. The stimulation was too much; the combination of the rough penetration and the hair-pulling pushed her over the edge. She came with a violence that left her breathless, her juices spraying across the floor, dripping from the edge of the counter. I felt her internal muscles convulsing around me, milking me dry. I didn't pull out. I drove into her one last time, my body shuddering as I erupted across her back, the hot cum splattering against her skin.
Ryujin collapsed, her knees giving out as she slid to the floor. She lay there for a moment, chest heaving, her skin flushed a deep pink. Then, with a slow, deliberate movement, she turned and crawled back toward me. She didn't say anything. She just reached out and took my cock into her mouth, sucking the remaining cum out with a focused, expert intensity. "You... really do... like being a mess," I panted, looking down at her. Ryujin looked up at me, her eyes glazed, a bit of saliva trailing from her lip. "I like the way you make me one."
By the time the afternoon sun began to dip, we had lost count. The house had become a map of our encounters—the shower, the kitchen, the hallway. We were exhausted, our muscles aching, our skin hypersensitive, but the hunger remained. It was a cycle of escalation that neither of us knew how to break. I was sprawled on the couch, my head back, eyes closed, trying to find some semblance of peace. Then I felt it. Ryujin had knelt between my legs. She wasn't just sucking me off this time. She was practicing. She looked up at me, a challenge in her eyes, and then she opened her mouth wide. She slid down, taking me in, deeper than she ever had before. I felt the head of my cock hit the very back of her throat. She gagged, her eyes watering, but she didn't pull back. Instead, she used her hands to push herself further down, forcing my entire length into her.
The sensation was overwhelming. The tight, hot constriction of her throat wrapping around me was unlike anything else. I watched her, mesmerized, as she worked her way up and down, her movements slow and deliberate. She was learning the geometry of my body, finding the exact angle that made me groan. The sound of her swallowing, the wet, rhythmic suction—it was a symphony of surrender. I reached down, my hands gripping her shoulders, guiding her rhythm. I could see the effort in her eyes, the way she was fighting her own body to take more of me. The desperation in her expression was the most erotic thing I had ever seen.
"You're... actually doing it," I rasped. She didn't answer, her mouth too full. She just looked up at me, her pupils blown wide, and accelerated the pace. The friction of her throat was too much. I felt the pressure build, a sudden, sharp spike of need. "Ryujin, I'm—"
She didn't pull away. She wanted it. She wanted the evidence of my release. I surged upward, my body arching as I came. I pulled out at the last second, the force of the orgasm sending thick, white ropes of cum flying across her face. It splattered across her cheeks, her forehead, and a heavy dollop landed right on her lower lip. Ryujin stayed there, frozen, blinking through the white streaks of cum. She looked like a painting of absolute ruin. I looked down at her, my breath returning, and a small, genuine smile touched my lips. "You know," I whispered, reaching out to brush a bit of cum from her cheek. "You look perfect drenched in my cum." Ryujin wiped her mouth with the back of her hand, tasting herself and me. She looked at me, and for the first time all day, there was no smugness. No challenge. Just a raw, honest satisfaction. "Shut up, Ben," she muttered, though she leaned into my touch. "Just... make sure you can do that again before we go home."
Ryujin eventually disappeared into the bathroom afterward to clean up properly while I remained sprawled across the couch trying to remember what psychological stability felt like before this weekend happened, unsuccessfully. The house itself had gone quieter now. The air still carried traces of steam, sweat, expensive liquor, and several catastrophically irresponsible decisions. Somewhere in the bathroom, I could hear Ryujin humming faintly to herself with entirely too much satisfaction for somebody who had spent the last twenty-four hours destroying my remaining professional boundaries.
I leaned my head farther back into the couch afterward before closing my eyes briefly. Then eventually “…You alive out there?” I answered toward the bathroom afterward “Physically? Debatable”. Ryujin laughed softly somewhere behind the partially open door.
“That sounds like a skill issue.”
“That sounds medically concerning after everything that happened.”
“That sounds deserved.”
A few minutes later she finally wandered back out wearing one of my oversized shirts and a pair of shorts she had apparently stolen from somewhere in the house without permission. At this point I respected the consistency.
Her hair was still slightly damp from the shower, her face softer now without the constant smugness she weaponized ninety percent of the time. I immediately pointed toward her.
“You’re stealing clothes now.”
“You’re rich. Recover emotionally.”
“That sentence continues to financially threaten me consistently.”
Ryujin ignored me entirely before dropping sideways onto the couch beside me with visible exhaustion now finally beginning to catch up to her.
“We should probably go home before they start filing missing person reports.”
“That sounds responsible.” I glanced toward her briefly.
“Who are you and what have you done with Ryujin?”
“Shut up.”
The corner of my mouth twitched slightly afterward while Ryujin rested her head briefly against the back cushions. Then after another quieter moment “We should stop by a pharmacy first.” I blinked once slowly. I tilted my head slightly afterward “That sounded ominously specific.” Ryujin looked at me like I’d asked something deeply stupid. “I’m not risking pregnancy, Ben.” I stayed quiet another second afterward while Ryujin continued casually scrolling through her phone now like she hadn’t just dropped a life-altering logistical statement into the room.
“You planned that surprisingly fast.”
“I plan a lot of things fast.”
Then finally she glanced toward me again.
“I intend to keep letting you finish inside me when we do this.”
“So I’d rather trust medication than luck.”
Because somehow the blunt practicality of the statement felt significantly more intimate than the sex itself had. Ryujin immediately noticed the look on my face afterward too.
“There’s that look again.”
“That sentence is becoming psychologically exhausting.”
“You’re overthinking again.”
“That’s because you say things like that horrifyingly casually.”
“That sounds like a you problem.”
About an hour later, the drive back toward the Top Floor felt significantly different from the drive leaving it. Not because of awkwardness. There wasn’t any. Ryujin sat comfortably in the passenger seat wearing a cap low enough to hide most of her face while lazily tapping through music on her phone. Meanwhile I was actively trying not to think about the fact that we had spent nearly an entire day having sex, she had already normalized the arrangement psychologically, and somehow I still had to return home pretending my life hadn’t become professionally catastrophic.
Excellent. Fantastic even. Then eventually Ryujin spoke again without looking up.
“You know what’s gonna happen the second we walk in there, right?”
“That sounds threatening.”
“That sounds accurate.”
Because the moment the elevator finally opened onto the Top Floor later that afternoon— all four of them were already there. It was an ambush. Yuna looked up first from the couch almost immediately.
“There they are!”
“That sounded accusatory already.”
Chaeryeong narrowed her eyes slightly afterward while looking between the two of us.
“You were gone for like… an entire day.”
“That sounds emotionally investigative.”
“That’s because it IS emotionally investigative,” Yuna immediately added.
Meanwhile Lia remained seated near the kitchen island quietly sipping coffee while observing us with entirely too much awareness. And then finally— Yeji looked up too. Because unlike the others Yeji didn’t look confused and somehow that felt significantly scarier.
The silence lasted maybe two seconds. “…Why do both of you look exhausted?” Yuna asked suspiciously. “That feels medically invasive.” Ryujin answered casually while walking past me entirely unbothered. “That feels deserved”. Chaeryeong looked between the two of us afterward before narrowing her eyes slightly “…Did you two even sleep?” I immediately pointed toward her.
“That sounds accusatory for somebody currently unemployed from detective work.”
“That’s not a denial,” Yuna gasped dramatically from the couch.
Ryujin immediately wandered toward the kitchen afterward like she owned the floor before opening the fridge casually, without even looking back— “Ben snores”. The room immediately exploded. “YOU SLEPT OVER?!” Yuna nearly folded sideways laughing. “That sounds significantly worse out loud,” I muttered while rubbing lightly at my forehead. Meanwhile Chaeryeong looked genuinely scandalized now.
“You disappeared for an entire day!”
“That sounds emotionally clingy.”
“That’s because we WERE worried!” Chaeryeong protested immediately afterward.
Then finally Lia spoke for the first time “…Did you at least eat properly?” Lia wasn’t asking ‘where were you?’ She was watching behavior. Ryujin immediately glanced toward her afterward before smirking slightly “We ate”. That somehow made the atmosphere worse. Yuna immediately pointed toward both of us afterward.
Ryujin meanwhile looked entirely too relaxed while leaning against the kitchen counter now drinking directly from a juice bottle she absolutely didn’t buy herself “…Yeji unnie already told us where you guys went.” I slowly looked toward Yeji afterward. She had a very dangerous eye contact. Because Yeji was watching me carefully now. Not upset or angry. She was just reading me. That somehow felt significantly more terrifying. Then finally Yuna narrowed her eyes dramatically afterward.
“…Wait.”
“Why are BOTH of you blushing now?”
“I’m not blushing,” I answered immediately.
“You answered too fast,” Ryujin added helpfully.
Yuna gasped loudly afterward like she’d uncovered state secrets.
“Oh my god SOMETHING happened.”
“That sounds emotionally speculative.”
“That sounds CORRECT.”
Meanwhile Lia quietly took another sip of coffee while visibly trying not to smile now. Then eventually Chaeryeong tilted her head slightly while looking toward Ryujin “…Why do you look so happy?” Because Ryujin actually paused for half a second. Then slowly— the corner of her mouth curved faintly upward afterward “Maybe I just had a good weekend”. And then before I could psychologically prepare myself— Ryujin casually walked past me afterward and pressed a quick kiss against my cheek.
The entire room froze. Professionally devastating even. I stared at her slowly afterward. “…What the hell was that?” Ryujin shrugged casually while walking toward the hallway.
“Emotional support.”
“You are a horrible person.”
“That sounds emotionally biased.”
Behind us? Yuna was losing her entire mind. Chaeryeong looked seconds away from spontaneous collapse. Lia looked deeply unsurprised. And Yeji? She didn’t react with jealousy. Instead she looked directly at Ryujin and Ryujin looked back. One second. Maybe two. No hostility or competition. And somehow? That felt significantly more dangerous than if they had argued.
Later that night, the Top Floor had finally gone quiet again. Mostly. Somewhere farther down the hallway, Yuna was still loudly accusing Ryujin of “emotionally traumatizing the group” while Chaeryeong tried unsuccessfully to restore order. Meanwhile Lia had long since stopped pretending she didn’t know more than she was saying.
Wonderful environment to professionally survive in.
I leaned farther back into the couch inside my room afterward while staring blankly at the ceiling. The exhaustion finally settling properly now. Not just physical. Mental too. Because somehow over the course of one weekend Ryujin had completely destroyed the remaining illusion of emotional distance, Yeji silently acknowledged it, Lia was becoming increasingly dangerous, and the ecosystem upstairs was now evolving faster than I could realistically control anymore.
Then eventually— my phone buzzed once beside me. Ryujin. Of course. I opened the message immediately “You survived” I stared at it for another second afterward before snorting quietly beneath my breath. Then another message arrived immediately after “Congrats”. I was still shaking my head lightly when the phone buzzed again a few moments later. Different name this time. Yeji.
The message itself was short. Simple. I’m coming to your room later.
YJ: Don’t fall asleep first :)
Somehow that message affected me significantly more than it probably should have. And honestly? That realization alone was psychologically concerning enough already.
Outside my room, I could still faintly hear Yuna yelling accusations at Ryujin somewhere down the hallway while Chaeryeong desperately attempted damage control. Meanwhile, somewhere in the middle of all that chaos— Yeji was still choosing me quietly. That felt like the most dangerous part of all.
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The problem with ominous foreshadowing is that sometimes it actually arrives exactly the way you expected it to. Which unfortunately explained why three days later I was standing inside one of JYPE’s empty practice room hallways holding two iced coffees while Yeji looked significantly less concerned about this situation than I was.
YJ: You’re overthinking.
B: I say this with complete sincerity, your group frightens me.
YJ: That’s dramatic.
B: One of them sent me a shark emoji as a threat.
YJ: That wasn’t a threat.
B: That somehow concerns me more.
Yeji laughed quietly beneath her breath afterward before reaching over to steal the drink out of my hand like she had already done this enough times for it to become muscle memory. Then the practice room door suddenly opened before either of us could continue the conversation. And there she was. Ryujin leaned casually against the doorway first before immediately narrowing her eyes toward me like she was assessing a suspiciously intelligent stray animal— the shark emoji suddenly made psychological sense now. “So this is him.” Ah, great start already. Yeji immediately sighed beside me. “Ryujin.”
“What?” Ryujin stepped farther into the hallway afterward without taking her eyes off me yet. “I’m observing.”
“That wording sounds predatory.”
“That’s because it is,” she answered instantly. Excellent. Very normal interaction. I extended the remaining iced coffee toward her anyway.
“Peace offering” Ryujin looked down toward the drink briefly first before slowly accepting it.
“…You think bribery works on me?”
“No.” I shrugged lightly. “But people are usually less hostile with caffeine.”
“That’s emotionally manipulative.”
“That’s called basic psychology.”
Ryujin stared at me for maybe two seconds longer afterward. “…Oh I get it now.” I narrowed my eyes slightly. That sentence psychologically threatened me. “She likes you because you fight back.” Yeji nearly choked on her drink beside me “RYUJIN.” Ryujin looked entirely unbothered afterward “What? You’ve been smiling at your phone like an emotionally compromised idiot for weeks. Silence “…Weeks?” I repeated carefully. Yeji looked ready to commit actual violence now. Ryujin looked delighted. They had an interesting ecosystem already. Then finally she took another sip from the iced coffee before speaking again. “Hm” another pause “You’re calmer than I expected.”
B: That sounded vaguely disappointing.
RJ: I was expecting at least one visible panic response by now.
B: I’m choosing survival.
RJ: That’s less fun.
Yeji rubbed lightly at her forehead afterward while I started understanding exactly why this woman probably exhausted everybody around her psychologically. Not maliciously. Just professionally committed to being a problem. Then suddenly another voice came from somewhere inside the practice room “Did Ryujin finally scare him away?” Ah. More of them, excellent.
Yuna appeared next almost immediately afterward before stopping mid-step once she noticed me properly standing there. Then without hesitation “Oh wow he’s actually handsome.”
YJ: YUNA.
YN: What? I support women’s rights and women’s wrongs.
YJ: That sentence didn’t even apply here.
YN: It applies spiritually.
B: How are YOU the leader here?
RJ: That’s what I’ve been asking too
That finally Yuna stepped closer afterward before looking me up and down with absolutely zero subtlety whatsoever “So did you really manage Yeji unnie’s solo schedules?” I gave Yuna a nod and she followed up with “And does she like-like you?” I could feel Yeji giving their maknae a death glare. “What? I’m gathering information.” Yeji already had my fingers on the bridge of my nose “That’s not how normal people gather information, you know.” Yuna ignored her like a pro. Then eventually she pointed toward me directly. “You don’t look stressed enough to work here.”
B: That’s because panic is inefficient.
RJ: That’s actually of annoying.
B: Thank you
RJ: That wasn’t a compliment.
B: Spiritually it was.
Yeji physically lowered her head afterward like she was reconsidering every decision that led her to this hallway. Honestly, watching her fight back laughter while trying to maintain leader dignity was becoming one of my favorite hobbies alarmingly quick.
Then before the conversation inside the practice hall could deteriorate any farther, the practice room door opened again. Lia stepped out first while fixing one sleeve of her hoodie absentmindedly before immediately slowing once she noticed me standing there. Unlike Ryujin and Yuna, her reaction wasn’t loud— just observant. Then a soft voice came from her “Oh… You’re actually here” She blinked out of surprise. “That sounded vaguely accusatory.” Lia laughed quietly beneath her breath after hearing my comment “No. No. I just thought Ryujin was exaggerating dramatically again.”
“I NEVER exaggerate.” Every single person in the practice hall looked towards Ryujin immediately. “Wow,” Yuna muttered “That was probably the biggest lie spoken inside this building today”. Betrayed from every direction honestly. Then finally as Chaeryeong arrived, she paused almost immediately once she noticed me there too. And unlike everybody else so far— she looked directly towards Yeji first. Then eventually her eyes shifted back toward me afterward “… So you’re the manager that unnie keeps smiling at her phone about.” Absolute silence. Yeji looked like she was about to cry from embarrassment. Ryujin looked fulfilled. And Yuna physically collapsed on the floor laughing.
“I KNEW IT” Ryujin pointed aggressively toward Yeji “I told you she had that look.”
“You people are genuinely terrible for my mental health” Yeji muttered while covering part of her face with one hand. “Counterpoint,” Yuna answered immediately “This is the most entertaining week we’ve had in months”. Then Lia looked toward me again afterward while offering a small polite smile “Sorry in advance by the way.” I looked at her curiously “For what?” She glanced briefly toward the other members around her first “…Them”.
Reasonable concern honestly. Then before the conversation could continue farther, another staff member stepped out from inside the practice room. “ITZY?” the coordinator called carefully “The meeting’s about to start”. That finally shifted the atmosphere slightly afterward. Less chaotic, more curious. The members slowly started moving out of the empty practice room while I stayed farther behind instinctively out of habit. “Aren’t you coming in?” I looked up the voice, Yeji stood near the doorway watching me expectantly while the others slowly settled inside already.
B: That sounded like a trap
YJ: It’s a meeting
B: That doesn’t make it less dangerous
“It definitely becomes MORE dangerous actually.” Ryujin immediately leaned sideways from inside the room. “Thank you, Ryujin.” Lia sighed softly. I eventually stepped inside anyway and the room itself looked surprisingly normal compared to the psychological hazards occupying it. Practice schedules covered one side of the wall, concept drafts, timeline boards, and preliminary comeback planning materials. It was an early preparation. Smart, honestly very smart.
The members slowly settled around the table while staff members arranged papers and tablets nearby. Then finally one of the division heads cleared his throat lightly before beginning the meeting properly. “As everybody already knows, preparations for the next comeback cycle will begin earlier than usual this time.” This cause immediate reactions from everyone around the room, mostly surprise— no resistance. A good sign. “We’re restructuring scheduling priorities to reduce unnecessary fatigue accumulation during comeback preparations.” They actually read my report based on my time managing the preparations for Yeji’s solo debut.
I could physically feel Ryujin looking at me already, then the division head continued calmly “This approach was heavily recommended after the success of Yeji’s solo preparation management”. Great, now everybody was looking at me openly. “In addition, due to the successful management techniques of Mr. Sung Benjamin— effective immediately he is to officially work as your personal manager and wellness coordinator moving forward.”
Silence, deafening silence at that “… Wellness coordinator?” Yuna repeated carefully “That sounds emotionally expensive.” I answered honestly. “Yeah, that title makes me feel concerned.” Ryujin looking too entertained now. Meanwhile Lia looked more thoughtful than surprised. And Chaeryeong? Still quietly observing everything, first at Yeji, then me, and the space between us. This girl has piqued my interest, she was very observant and not in a good way.
The division head continued speaking afterward while presentation slides changed quietly across the screen behind him. “With comeback preparation beginning earlier than previous cycles, the company’s priority moving forward is sustainability.” That alone almost made me laugh honestly— not because it was wrong, because hearing a corporation discover human beings require recovery after years of overworking idols sounded borderline revolutionary. Still, better late than never. “We’ll be implementing adjusted rehearsal pacing, structured recovery periods, nutritional monitoring, and revised travel management.”
“By any chance… are we dying?” Yuna slowly raised one hand while asking. “No” the division head answered patiently. “Then why does this sound like a hospital reform plan?” Yeji sighed beside me, “That’s enough” Ryujin leaned back in her chair afterward while looking toward me instead of the screen.
RJ: So this is your fault?
B: That sounded accusatory.
RJ: You made the company discover empathy.
B: Allegedly.
RJ: That’s terrifying.
Eventually another slide appeared onscreen— Travel Restructuring, Preparation Timelines, Rotational Rest Days. That was good progress for the company to give to the girls. The biggest issue with idols and their schedules wasn’t even the workload, it was accumulation. Too many consecutive days without decompression eventually turned exhaustion into personality and unfortunately people normalized that way too easily. “Wait,” I looked up to Lia who was looking at the screen “… We’re getting actual off-days during preparation?” The room unexpectedly quieted after. Because the question itself said enough. The division head nodded calmly “Mandatory ones, yes”. Silence again, not in a dramatic sense… more of unfamiliarity.
Lia leaned back afterward while looking strangely thoughtful now. That reaction bothered me more than complaints would’ve. Because it meant rest had become surprising, that should never happen to somebody. Then suddenly Ryujin pointed toward me again.
RJ: I’m blaming him for this too.
B: Why are you acting like I committed corporate espionage?
RJ: You kind of did.
B: That’s not how my job works.
RJ: Doesn’t sound convincing to me.
Yeji physically lowered her head into one hand beside me again. Meanwhile Yuna looked increasingly invested in this entire situation. “Wait so if he’s our personal manager now…” she tilted her head slightly afterward. “Does that mean he’s going to start bossing us around?” I answered immediately “Not in that way”. That made Ryujin narrow her eyes “That answer sounded suspiciously fast.” I didn’t even look at her “Because I value survival”. This warranted a grin within her. Then eventually Chaeryeong spoke again for the first time in the meeting “What exactly CAN you control then?”
Ah. That was a good question. The division head answered first “Schedule adjustments related to wellbeing, fatigue management, travel concerns, dietary recommendations, recovery prioritization, and emergency intervention authority if necessary.” A brief silence loomed aver until Yuna broke the silence “…Emergency intervention authority?” she repeated carefully. “That sounds vaguely threatening” Ryujin added. “It means if you’re overworked to the point of physical or psychological risk, I am allowed to override schedules temporarily.” I explained.
The room quieted again after that. Less playful this time with everyone processing what I just said. Then eventually Ryujin leaned sideways against one arm while looking directly at me.
RJ: You can actually do that?
B: Yes
RJ: That’s kind of insane.
B: That’s because most industries don’t let people sleep.
RJ: That sound personal.
B: It was.
YN: WAIT. Does that mean he can let us go home early?
LA: I already like this arrangement.
RJ: Alright, I’m onboard with that.
B: NOT LIKE THAT.
Then finally the division head spoke again “Additionally, Mr. Sung requested earlier visibility into future schedules to reduce last-minute stress buildup.” Now THAT got reaction. Because all five members looked up immediately. “You asked for that?” Yeji asked beside me. “Well that should’ve already existed honestly.” Yuna leaned forward slightly “You specifically asked for that?” I shrugged lightly. “People handle stress better when they can prepare for it mentally”.
“That actually makes a lot of sense.” Lia admitted first. And the way she said it sounded less surprised than relieved. Ryujin looked toward me again afterward, before narrowing her eyes slightly. “You’re annoyingly competent”. I looked at her with a grin “Thank you”. She sighed in defeat “That wasn’t a compliment”. That finally earned another round of laughter around the room again. And for the first time since entering the building— the atmosphere around the table no longer felt like managers and idols. Just people slowly getting comfortable with each other.
The moment the official meeting ended, the staff members slowly began filtering out of the room one by one. Papers gathered. Schedules discussed. Managers coordinating outside the hallway again. Normal company atmosphere. Unfortunately for me though— the five women across the table were still sitting exactly where they were. Which immediately felt threatening. I slowly narrowed my eyes.
B: Why does this suddenly feel like an intervention?
RJ: We’re processing.
B: That wording has never led to anything positive.
YN: Correct.
Yeji looked significantly less amused now though as the others slowly shifted their attention toward me instead. And truthfully, the expression on Ryujin’s face specifically look like she just discovered gold, then Lia spoke first “So you’re really managing us now”. Shrugging my shoulder, “You sound disappointed” I told her. “Oh no,” Lia laughed softly beneath her breath “More like surprised.” I admitted the same. “Wow, that’s somehow less reassuring.” Ryujin muttered. “Well transparency builds trust” I reminded Ryujin. “That sounded manipulative”. Yeji sighed quietly beside me afterward while Chaeryeong kept watching the entire interaction unfold like she was mentally building a conspiracy board in real time.
“Wait one minute.” Yuna looked at me curiously. “If you’re doing all this extra work now…” she narrowed her eyes at me “How much are they even paying you?”. I immediately answered “The legally required minimum.” Silence filled the room. Then all four of them simultaneously looked at me like I was some sort of madman. Yeji was already staying out of this leaving me to fend the sharks alone.
RJ: No, seriously.
B: I am serious.
RJ: That’s stupid.
B: That’s efficient.
YN: NOT FOR YOU.
B: The job interested me, money didn’t.
That silenced the room once more. Then “That’s not a normal sentence.” Chaeryeong tilted her head towards me. “THANK YOU” Yuna pointed aggressively toward me. Then Yeji finally stepped in to save me from this, “He literally wouldn’t take the position unless they lowered the compensation.” More silence, then everybody turned toward her. “…You knew that already?” Lia asked carefully. An interesting shift immediately happened, Yeji forze for maybe half a second too long, a small yet noticeable delay. Especially now that Ryujin noticed the delay, she’s sharper than I thought she was. “…He mentioned it before.” Yeji tried to regain her composure— technically true.
“Ok wait wait wait wait,” Yuna leaned forward now pointing directly at me. “You’re telling me you asked the company to pay you LOWER THAN WHAT THEY OFFERED for this job?”
B: Yes…
YN: That either means you’re absolutely crazy or insanely rich.
RJ: He could be both.
LA: You really don’t care about the money?
B: No
B: This wasn’t even that much of an impressive sacrifice from my perspective, money stopped feeling emotionally real a long time ago.
YN: Ohhh, he’s RICH-rich!
B: I’m choosing not to participate in this conversation.
RJ: That means “yes”
CR: Wait… What kind of car do you drive?
B: No, absolutely not. You stop that.
RJ: That is not an answer.
B: I am choosing self-preservation.
RJ: OH MY GOD, he’s hiding billionaire lore.
B: I am not a secret billionaire.
CR: That honestly sounds like something a secret billionaire would say.
Yeji physically covered part of her face after hearing that while quietly laughing beneath her breath. No help whatsoever. Then eventually Yuna suddenly stood up dramatically afterward. “Well” she nodded firmly. “Since our emotionally concerning rich manager is apparently taking care of us now—” I DID NOT LIKE WHERE THIS WAS GOING “— you should treat us to lunch.”
B: Ahhh. Corporate extortion. Excellent.
B: That sounded less like a suggestion and more like a ransom demand.
RJ: It’s team bonding.
B: So your idea of team bonding is to financially exploit your poor minimum wage manager?
CR: Mr. Sung oppa, you are bad at acting.
B: Fair— but please, drop the honorifics. “Ben” is fine.
YJ: He likes it when you call him—
B: YEJI DON’T YOU DARE.
LA: I was always curious where rich people usually eat.
B: Even the polite one is ganging up on me.
YN: You did say recovery and wellbeing mattered.
Oh that was evil. But they had me at checkmate. “Fine.” I gave up fighting, it was more efficient to take the loss.
The next several weeks disappeared significantly faster than expected. Which honestly meant one of two things. Either everybody was adjusting well to the new preparation system— or we were all collectively too exhausted to properly perceive time anymore. Could’ve gone either way. Still, the earlier comeback planning surprisingly worked. Less last-minute panic, less schedule compressing, and more breathing room between rehearsals. It wasn’t completely healthy. But noticeably healthier.
Which unfortunately meant I was now driving to the building almost every single day. And the Seoul traffic was beginning to radicalize me. “You look irritated.” Ryujin pointed out the obvious one afternoon while sitting cross-legged on the practice room floor.
B: Well I lost ninety minutes of my life in traffic today.
RJ: Sounds dramatic.
B: I could’ve completed three meetings, reorganized two rehearsal schedules, and consumed caffeine peacefully in that amount of time.
RJ: Aside being a secret billionaire, are you secretly forty years old too?
B: The polite term is “Spiritually Exhausted” and no, I am not a secret billionaire.
Yeji laughed quietly somewhere beside me while stretching near the mirrors afterwards. Meanwhile Yuna looked up from her phone afterward “…Wait how long do you actually drive here?” Thinking about it thoroughly “Sometimes less than an hour, sometimes almost 90 minutes. Depends on traffic.” Then Lia chimed in “You really are constantly here in despite being paid next to nothing.” Ok that was just mean. But that phrasing was interesting— not ‘working constantly’, but ‘here constantly’… that was a subtle difference, harsh nonetheless.
Suddenly Chaeryeong glanced up from where she’d been quietly reorganizing practice notes. “Why don’t you just move closer?” I answered immediately “Nope”. This caused Ryujin to glare at me with suspicion.
RJ: That was too fast of an answer.
B: Because all of you are psychologically a danger to my peace of mind.
RJ: Liar
YN: Oh my God, he thinks we’d invade his personal space.
B: That’s not the issue, the issue is when you would.
YJ: We absolutely would.
RJ: Within the week if you’re lucky.
B: That sounds more like a threat.
Eventually I leaned back against the mirrored wall afterward while rubbing lightly at my forehead “Traffic is still inefficient though.”
RJ: That sounded like a wind up for something.
YJ: That sentence concerns me, Ben…
B: That sounded accusatory
YJ: What did you do?
B: I solved the commute issue
-silence-
YN: Nuh uh.
B: I did.
LA: What scares me the confidence in how he says it.
RJ: What exactly does “solved” mean in this context?
B: It means renovations finished today…
CR: …Renovations…
YN: You were renovating something?
B: That’s how renovations work.
LA: You’re making it sound worse.
I eventually let my phone down and reached for my car keys on the nearby table “Come on, it’s better I show you” yet nobody moved from the table. “If we get murdered, I want everybody to know I was suspicious from the beginning.” Ryujin said standing up first. “Oh my God, are we actually going somewhere?” Yuna followed suit. “Why am I being pinned as a psychotic murderer?” Lia laughed on that statement “So you would prefer ‘Secret Billionaire’ then?” This made Yeji cover part of her face to laugh “I refuse to comment on that.” I looked back to them before walking to the van.
A few minutes later we were all inside the company-issued van driving towards their residential building while the members continued trying unsuccessfully to interrogate me along the wary. “Wait, why are you even driving the company van?” a curious inquiry from Yuna. “All of us won’t fit in my personal car.” that wasn’t wrong but not the real reason I took the van. Ryujin broke the silence after my statement “Oh my God, that’s what rich people would totally say.” Yuna was backing Ryujin up “Rich people LOVE pretending to be normal by using company things”. Lia looked increasingly amused “I actually kind of see it now”. Great, even the polite one is against me on this “What are you on? I am literally using the company van for work.”
“They’re not going to let this go anymore, Ben.” Yeji laughed under her breath. “I noticed. Anyways were here”. The members realized that we were in their residential building. “Wait why are we here? Are you letting us go home early?” Yuna was looking around while we all headed to the elevator. I pressed on the button to the top floor. “What’s on the top floor? None of us live there, Ben.” Yeji pondered before the realization hit her “BEN THERE IS NO WAY”. I gave Yeji a quick look “We’re going there because that’s where the renovations are at”. All of them were looking at me now.
RJ: No…
B: Yes
YN: Nuh uh…
B: Again, yes.
YJ: BEN, I TOLD YOU THIS WAS INSANE
YN: Yeji unnie, YOU KNEW ABOUT THIS?
YJ: I knew he was working on fixing that traffic issue.
Then the elevator doors finally opened on the top floor. There was a tinted door right in front of them. I took out my security card to scan the door open. And what they saw left them speechless— but to me it looked good enough to pass. It was an entire floor redesigned to mirror a luxury wellness facility, minus a few adjustments that catered to optimizing the recovery of exhausted idols. Warm Lighting, Private Lounge Spaces, Glass-panel Training Room, Sound-proof Resting Areas, Security Access Points, Recovery Facilities, and a fully renovated shared kitchen. And at the very center— a massive common space that somehow felt weirdly comfortable instead of overly luxurious.
At first, it was absolute silence. Then Ryujin broke the tension “What the actual fuck?” she was still staring at me. Yuna looked like she was about to enter cardiac arrest. Lia physical froze at the entrance. Chaeryeong looked like she was trying to manually process the financial implications in real time. Meanwhile Yeji just slowly covered her face with both hands afterwards.
YJ: You actually did this.
B: I solved the problem.
YN: YOU BOUGHT AN ENTIRE FLOOR?!
B: For efficiency purposes.
RJ: This is rich-rich, like evil villain rich.
B: Now that feels judgmental.
RJ: YOU BUILT AN IDOL RECOVERY FORTRESS
B: Not what it is, but that does sound cool.
YJ: I told you he was rich.
RJ: No, you implied he was rich. THIS IS “BATMAN BEHAVIOR” RICH
B: Now that was excessive
CR: Says the person who bought an entire floor.
YJ: Wait, did you talk to Jihyo unnie about this?
B: Uhmmmm.
RJ: You will be missed, Mr. Sung Benjamin oppa.
YN: Wait, wait, wait. Didn’t John mention about Ben being richer than basically everyone except Mina unnie?
B: There it is.
YJ: Ignore that. John said that if Ben “pooled” all his resources… he could technically buy majority of JYPE.
Complete silence “…WHAT?” Yuna screamed so loudly it echoed across the entire floor. Ryujin physically folded onto the couch laughing like she lost control of her nervous system. Lia looked spiritually disconnected from reality. Chaeryeong just stared at me in complete silence now like she was rethinking every conversation we’d had over the past weeks. At this point I was starting to understand why people avoided discussing wealth entirely. “I need everyone here to understand something,” Yuna announced while pointing toward me like she’d uncovered government corruption. “I thought he was secretly rich in a normal way.” “That sentence has concerning implications,” I answered honestly. “No seriously,” she continued while pacing dramatically across the lounge now. “Like expensive watch rich. Maybe suspicious-investment rich.”
B: Those are both fake categories.
YN: NOT “can-buy-JYPE” rich!
YJ: I said “technically” most of JYPE.
LA: That correction somehow made it WORSE.
Meanwhile Ryujin was still collapsed sideways on the couch laughing intermittently like her body hadn’t fully recovered psychologically. “You know what the worst part is?” she wheezed eventually. “I’m frightened to ask.”
RJ: You don’t even ACT rich.
B: That sounded accusatory.
RJ: You drive in silence and complain about traffic like a divorced office worker.
B: That’s because traffic is emotionally disrespectful.
RJ: That’s not a normal sentence.
Then finally Lia slowly walked farther into the shared kitchen afterward before lightly touching one of the marble countertops like she still wasn’t fully convinced this place was real. “…This kitchen is bigger than our old dorm.” I looked at her in quite the disappointing shock “That feels structurally inefficient honestly.” Everybody immediately turned toward me “…WHAT DO YOU MEAN INEFFICIENT?” Yuna nearly screamed again. “If you’re feeding multiple people regularly, larger shared kitchen spacing improves movement efficiency.” Silence. Then quietly “…He talks like an evil architect,” Ryujin muttered from the couch. “That’s because he planned this,” Chaeryeong answered softly while still looking around carefully. Lia looked at the sharp girl “What do you mean?”. Chaeryeong pointed towards the facilities— then back to me “None of these feels random. I mean he tailored it to focus on our needs”. I guess Chaeryeong noticed it faster than anyone else, I leaned lightly against the kitchen island afterward “Stress reduction works netter when people naturally gravitate toward comfort instead of needing to consciously seek it”. Complete silence
RJ: I’m sorry, are you secretly building emotional support architecture?
B: That sounded fake when you say it like that
RJ: Because it should sound fake
YN: IS THAT A MASSAGE ROOM?
B: Yes
YN: WHY
B: Recovery
RJ: Morally ambiguous billionaire recruits emotionally damaged idols
B: That sounds weirdly target at me
RJ: It is
Meanwhile Lia had wandered toward the lounge area now while quietly observing the soft lighting around the common space. “…It’s really comfortable here”. And the way she said that hit harder than the screaming somehow. Because she sounded relieved. Yuna cut in to ask “What’s this room?” I pointed out to the room in question “It’s my private living quarters”. That gave everyone the same reaction— absolute shock. “OH MY GOD HE IS ACTUALLY MOVING INTO OUR BUILDING.” Yuna screamed. “You make it sound invasive.” I told her while she was still showing visible denial. “Because it IS” she pointed it out. “It’s efficient.” I corrected her.
Ryujin looked entirely too entertained now. “No no wait. This means he got annoyed by traffic and responded by purchasing vertical territory.” She pointed toward me again. “That is an emotionally hostile way to put it”. Then finally Yeji quietly walked farther into the lounge afterward, slowly sitting down on the center couch— and unlike everybody else, she wasn’t looking shocked anymore. “How long were you planning this?” she looked up towards me again. “About two weeks after becoming ITZY’s personal manager”.
YN: TWO WEEKS?!
B: I needed construction permits.
YN: THAT’S THE PART THAT BOTHERS YOU?
LA: So all of this was because you were worried about us getting exhausted? The traffic thing was just a cover up wasn’t it?
B: Brownie points for guessing it right.
B: Look, you are all already overexposed constantly. Cameras. Crowds. Schedules. Public Expectations. The least I can do is make sure there’s somewhere you can destress without worrying about the general public.
The realization kept everyone silent, by then I was reaching for my jacket pocket, pulling out a stack of black access cards. “What are these? Why do you have access cards?” Yuna asked. “Cause this is not a public space for everyone in the building. Entry requires access, and access requires access CARDS.” I pointed out the logic.
Eventually I started handing the cards out one by one. The reactions varied significantly. Yuna accepted hers like somebody receiving forbidden technology. Lia took hers carefully with both hands like I’d accidentally handed her partial ownership of the building. Chaeryeong stared at hers longer than everybody else. Meanwhile Ryujin immediately held hers up dramatically toward the ceiling. “Oh my god.” She looked genuinely delighted now. “He gave us villain headquarters clearance.” I pressed my hand on my face “That wording is becoming emotionally exhausting.” Then finally Yeji accepted hers quietly afterward while already looking suspicious again.
I gestured lightly around the floor afterward. “You all have twenty-four hour access here.” Silence. Then immediately: “…WHAT?” Yuna nearly folded in half again. “It’s easier if you can access recovery facilities whenever schedules allow it and in case I’m not around.” Ryujin looked at me “That sentence sounds TOO emotionally healthy”. I shrugged my shoulders “That’s because your industry normalizes suffering”. Ryujin immediately pointed toward me. “See? This is why he wins arguments.” Tiny pause. “He says things that sound annoyingly correct”.
Then eventually Lia looked down toward her keycard quietly again. “…Anytime?” Another small silence. “Yes.” and honestly? The way her shoulders relaxed slightly afterward told me everything I needed to know about how exhausted they actually were beneath the surface. Then finally Chaeryeong spoke again. “…Everywhere on this floor?” I pointed back to my private room “Mostly”. Ah. There it is. Everybody immediately looked up again. “Mostly?” Ryujin repeated slowly. “My living quarters remain private.” Yuna immediately gasped dramatically.
YN: Oh my god he DOES have a billionaire cave.
B: It’s my room, please stop making it sound illegal.
RJ: What are you HIDING in there?
B: My home.
RJ: That answer was disappointingly normal.
Then eventually I gestured lightly toward one section farther down the hallway. “The rest of the floor is open access.” Another pause. “…Wait,” Lia blinked once afterward. “Nobody else knows about this?” Another great observation “Correct”.
LA: Not even the company?
B: The company knows I purchased the property. They do not know the extent of the renovations.
YN: Oh we’re so getting fired.
B: That’s a little too dramatic.
YJ: Says the man who build a secret idol hideout
B: Again, hostile wording.
YJ: So who does know about this?
B: Me. All of you… and John
RJ: Oh God No
YN: WHY WOULD YOU TELL JOHN? HE IS THE WORST POSSIBLE PERSON TO TELL
B: Firstly, valid. Secondly, he asked around with all the construction workers walking in and out of the building.
YJ: Jihyo unnie is going to kill you.
Then eventually the atmosphere softened again slightly afterward while everyone slowly started wandering farther through the floor more comfortably now. Yuna had already discovered the media room and nearly screamed again. Ryujin was investigating the soundproof practice room like she planned on testing the laws of physics inside it later. Lia quietly lingered near the lounge spaces. Chaeryeong kept noticing tiny details in the layout that nobody else picked up on. Watching them slowly settle into the space felt weirdly satisfying in a way I probably shouldn’t examine too deeply psychologically. Then quietly beside me “You already knew they’d react like this, didn’t you?” I glanced to see Yeji standing beside me, giving me a warm smile while holding the keycard between her fingers. “I estimated about 70% of it was Yuna screaming”. That warranted a laugh from Yeji “Higher than expected?” I couldn’t help but laugh at my own joke too “Beyond expectations, surprisingly.”
Eventually when it was just me and Yeji at the sitting at the center couch while everyone was exploring the entire floor, I handed her one more access card. “What’s this one for?” she asked me. “That one is yours” Yeji gave me a confused look “You already gave me one” as she pointed to the one in her hand. “This one has direct access to my private quarters.” A small silence was between us as I looked down to see Yeji who was blushing beet red from hearing what I just said. “I-I meant in case you needed me” that only made her blush even harder and the fact Ryujin was giving me the eye meant she heard all of that. “I MEANT AS YOUR MANAGER”. Yeji looked directly at me afterward. That tiny smile forming afterward told me she knew exactly what the implications in-between professionalism meant.
Ryujin was still exploring the entire floor when Yuna suddenly pointed toward me again like she’d uncovered another conspiracy. “No but seriously. How does someone even GET this rich accidentally?” She narrowed her eyes suspiciously. Which was a fair criticism, but I left her to her imaginations— it was funnier that way. Meanwhile Lia had slowly settled onto one of the lounge chairs now while quietly looking around the floor again. And the more she relaxed visibly— the more I started understanding exactly why this entire idea stopped feeling excessive to me weeks ago “This place is quieter”. Everybody looked toward her briefly afterward. Not because the statement was dramatic. Because it sounded surprised— that bothered me more than the screaming somehow.
It slowly got quiet until eventually Chaeryeong looked toward one section farther down the hallway.
CR: …What’s over there?
B: Private practice room.
Ryujin immediately sat upright again. “You built a SECOND practice room?” I argued back “The company rooms become crowded during preparation periods.” She just gave up the will to fight against my logic “That’s not a normal reason to build a private one”. Then Yuna let out a sudden gasp as she violently raised her hand to ask me a question
YN: Does this place have food?
B: Of course?
YN: IT’S AN ACTUAL EMOTIONAL SUPPORT HABITAT FOR IDOLS
B: Can you not describe it like I’m keeping you as zoo animals?
RJ: We’re raiding the fridge. NOW.
B: Criminal behavior, Miss Shin Ryujin.
RJ: You gave us access cards, this is your fault.
She got me beat there “…You really weren’t joking when you said you solved the problem. But I am still deciding if I should be impressed or concerned.” Yeji finally leaned slightly closer afterward. “Both are acceptable” I leaned back towards her. That finally earned another small laugh out of her. Dangerous sound honestly. Very dangerous. Then eventually the others disappeared farther down the floor while continuing to argue loudly about whether wealthy people naturally evolved into supervillains over time.
Then suddenly from the kitchen “BEN WHY IS THE WATER DISPENSER SMART?” I closed my eyes briefly. “…That sentence psychologically exhausted me”. Yuna still kept on screaming “You bought TECHNOLOGY WATER.” Yeji was laughing right next to me. “That’s just a normal filtered dispenser.” and Yuna still kept on going as if it was on purpose now “IT TALKS”. Ryujin physically leaned against the kitchen doorway laughing again while Lia quietly apologized to me despite not being involved whatsoever. Then eventually Chaeryeong walked slowly back toward the lounge afterward before glancing toward me again “…You really expect us to use this place whenever we want?” I gave her a nod “It’d be pretty useless if you girls didn’t” I assured her. Another small silence followed afterward. Softer this time.
The following days settled into something dangerously close to routine afterward. Which honestly should’ve concerned me more than it did. Schedules. Meetings. Practice evaluations. Recovery pacing. Nutritional planning. Travel adjustments. Normal management responsibilities on paper. Except now those responsibilities somehow also included Ryujin randomly appearing beside me without warning. Yuna treating the entire floor like an amusement park. Lia quietly falling asleep in the lounge area twice already. Chaeryeong continuously noticing things I wished she wouldn’t. And Yeji— well Yeji had started existing around me with a level of casual familiarity that was becoming psychologically hazardous. Like she’d already unconsciously decided my space was somewhere she belonged comfortably now. Still— the floor worked exactly the way I intended it to.
The members stayed longer after practice. Stress levels dropped faster. Nobody looked as constantly exhausted anymore. Even the atmosphere between them felt lighter lately. Which unfortunately meant the investment had technically justified itself already.
Then eventually one evening I found myself sitting inside my private unit finishing another game of Apex Legends with John and Mina over on Discord. Watching Mina carry both of us mechanically while John contributed emotional support and questionable decision-making had become a disturbingly regular experience lately.
MN: John stop peeking that angle
J: I believe in pressuring and baiting
B: You believe in asking to get tapped in the head.
MN: OH MY GOD THERE IS ANOTHER TEAM TRYING TO THIRD PARTY US FROM THE REAR
John got downed— AGAIN. While Mina managed to aggro the entire enemy team alone giving me the ample opportunity to flank and rush. I managed to get a two down before being in danger myself but Mina managed to finish off that last person before anything critical could happen.
B: Crisis. Resolved.
MN: By ME
J: It was a team effort
MN: Not how that works, babe.
B: Tactical bait is technically a role.
Before John could ramble about my rudeness, there was a sudden voice from behind me. “Hi” that scared the shit out of me— I turn back to look, it was Yeji. How long has she been there watching me? Amazing stealth capabilities honestly. She sat comfortably near the far end of the couch now while loosely hugging one of the throw pillows against herself, more importantly— she didn’t disturb or interrupt me, just watched me do my thing. Then immediately through the headset “IS THAT YEJI?” John’s voice so loud even Yeji heard it “Yes it is, hi John.” A quick pause and it was back to more screaming.
J: OH MY GOD. WHY IS SHE IN YOUR PRIVATE QUARTERS ALREADY?
B: I gave her an access card, dumbass. For managerial purposes.
MN: Lies.
J: Absolute lies.
Yeji quietly laughed beside me afterward. God. That sound was becoming an actual issue now. Then eventually Mina spoke again. “…Anyway I’m getting off before John emotionally sabotages another ranked game— and don’t worry about John, I’ll make sure he doesn’t stay and pester.” I swore I heard a giggle from Mina before she left the call. After that debacle, I turned back to look at Yeji who still sat comfortably on the couch while absently playing with the keycard between her fingers “You’re good at games” she pointed out. “Sorry for coming in unannounced.” she shyly hid half her face on the pillow she was hugging.
“Don’t worry about it, that’s the whole reason I gave you an access card.” I tried to remind her. And something about her expression felt slightly different tonight. Not upset. Not distressed. Then eventually I leaned back slightly into the couch afterward “So… something bothering you?” I gave her my full attention. A tiny pause. Then immediately “No.” Another pause. “…Maybe a little”. I stayed quiet afterward. Not pushing. Not filling the silence immediately. Because Yeji had started doing something lately that honestly mattered more than she probably realized herself— she was beginning to approach difficult thoughts instead of hiding from them entirely.
Then eventually she shifted slightly farther into the couch afterward while still loosely holding the throw pillow against herself. “…Can I ask you something weird?” I scratched my head with genuine consideration “That sentence has historically led to psychological damage”. A small laugh escaped her again. “…As my manager—” Ah, a loophole. Clever girl.
B: That clarification sounded strategically prepared.
YJ: Technically it counts for my wellbeing.
B: Concerningly arguable.
YJ: You mentioned it before. Stress affects people physically… What about… sexually?
I leaned back slightly afterward while considering the question properly instead of reacting too quickly. That question was careful. Measured. Genuinely curious. Not flirtatious. “It absolutely can.” Yeji nodded once slowly afterward like she’d expected that answer already. “…Okay”. Yeji’s fingers lightly tightened around the edge of the pillow afterward “I wanted you to know… what happened last time. I’ve never felt anything like that.” I genuinely was shocked “Are you talking about an orgasm?”
“Yes.” Yeji stayed quiet afterward for a few more seconds before finally speaking again “I used to think it was exaggerated. Cause I have had a few experiences in the past, but I’ve never felt what they usually described it was.” I was stunned, speechless— then she continued “I used to think that there was something wrong with my body.” I stayed silent for maybe one second too long afterward. Because suddenly the phrasing, the question, the confusion, the curiosity? It all started aligning together psychologically in ways I really didn’t expect.
“…Yeji” I said slowly, watching for a reaction “Was that really your first time experiencing an orgasm?” She immediately looked nervous afterward. Not because I sounded upset. Because she realized I noticed something. I kept my voice gentle anyway “I’m going to ask a follow up question, what do you think was the trigger that made a difference from past experiences to last time?” I was wondering was there something related to the stress she endured prior to all of this. Then she quickly answered with full confidence. “You.”
Oh… OH! That hit significantly harder than expected. I stayed quiet for a second afterward. Not because I didn’t understand what she meant. Because suddenly a LOT of smaller things started rearranging themselves into a pattern that was professionally bad, but something that I didn’t particularly hate. Yeji looked away first afterward while absently adjusting the sleeve of her jacket covering part of her hand again. A habit. One I’d started recognizing whenever she felt exposed emotionally. “…I didn’t mean that weirdly,” she muttered quietly afterward. “That sentence usually means the conversation is already psychologically doomed.” A tiny laugh escaped her again.
Then eventually she exhaled softly through her nose before continuing. “…I just mean…” Another pause. “The way I felt with you was…” She struggled briefly for the wording afterward. “…Different enough that I started wondering if something was wrong with me before.” That sentence bothered me immediately, not clinically. Because that wasn’t vanity, or comparison. Nor was it performance anxiety. That sounded genuinely confused. I leaned slightly forward afterward while keeping my tone calm.
“…Wrong with you how?” Yeji looked embarrassed now. Not ashamed. Just vulnerable. “…I thought maybe people exaggerated things.” Interesting. Very interesting. “Things,” I repeated carefully. “You know.” She looked increasingly flustered now. “The whole…” Tiny gesture. “…mind going blank afterward thing.” Oh. Oh no. There it is. I physically leaned back slightly afterward before my brain could stop itself from processing the implications too quickly. Then carefully “…Yeji.” She immediately covered part of her face with the pillow afterward. “That reaction means you figured something out.”
Another small silence settled afterward. Then finally I asked the question as gently as possible. “…Have you genuinely never experienced that before?” The room went completely quiet. Then eventually Yeji lowered the pillow slightly afterward while avoiding eye contact entirely now. “…I thought I did.” That somehow made the entire thing worse. Because it meant nobody had ever slowed down enough for her to even recognize the difference properly. Interesting. Deeply frustrating too. “…Can I ask something else?” She pondered to herself “Of course you can.” That made her smile warmly at me, I was there to listen— not critique. “…Was that actually an orgasm?” I closed my eyes briefly afterward. Not because the question embarrassed me. Because the sheer sincerity behind it was genuinely upsetting.
“By definition, I am sure it was.” Yeji stayed completely still afterward. No immediate response. No dramatic reaction. Just… processing. After a long silence filled the room, “…That explains a lot actually” she sighed to herself. “That sentence psychologically concerns me.” I was visibly narrowing my eyes despite the room being dimly lit. “It’s not bad,” she answered quickly afterward. “Just…” Another pause. “…I genuinely thought people were exaggerating before.”
That almost made me angry. Not at her. At the idea that somebody like Yeji— someone constantly expected to perform, endure, succeed, and maintain control had apparently experienced intimacy the exact same way too. Like it was something to manage instead of feel. Then eventually I leaned slightly farther back afterward while speaking carefully. “…For the record, this is significantly more common than people think.” That finally made her look toward me again. “…Really?” I paused for a bit “Yes. Especially people who are used to disconnecting from themselves under stress.”
“…Oh.” She realized. Watching her slowly connect emotional exhaustion, and physical disconnect in real time felt strangely intimate in a way I wasn’t entirely prepared for. Then she said in a low voice “That’s kind of depressing.” I interrupted her train of thought “That depends on perspective.” She blinked once. “How is there another perspective?” I shrugged lightly. “It also means nothing was wrong with you”. Yeji looked down again afterward while smiling very faintly into the pillow she still held against herself. Yeji stayed quiet for a while afterward. Not uncomfortable. Just… thinking harder now. The room itself had gone softer sometime during the conversation without either of us noticing. The muted city lights outside. The low ambient hum from the air conditioning. The faint glow from the monitor still left on after the game. Everything felt strangely still.
The longer Yeji sat there hugging the pillow against herself while processing all of this, the more I realized how carefully she must’ve been carrying these thoughts around alone for the past several days. Then eventually she spoke again. Quietly. “…I almost asked Lia about it.” That caught me slightly off guard “…What stopped you?” Yeji laughed softly beneath her breath afterward “Imagine trying to explain that conversation”. Then eventually she looked down again afterward while lightly tracing the edge of the pillow with her fingers absentmindedly. “…I kept thinking maybe I was just overreacting.”
I leaned slightly farther back into the couch afterward. “You’re allowed to notice when something affects you significantly.” She looked down to her legs “I know… I’m still getting used to it”. That sentence hit harder than it probably should’ve. Because she said it so casually. Like somebody admitting they were still learning how to breathe properly again. Eventually Yeji looked toward me again afterward. More carefully this time. “…Can I ask one more thing?”
“That depends on how emotionally catastrophic it is.” A small laugh escaped her again. Then quietly “…Did you know?” Interesting question. Very interesting wording too. I considered it honestly before answering. “…That it was different for you specifically?” She nodded once slowly. I exhaled softly through my nose afterward. “Not immediately.” Yeji looked relieved by that for some reason. “But I knew something about the way you reacted felt…” I paused briefly searching for the right wording. “…new to you”. There it is again. That soft realization. Then after another pause “…That’s kind of embarrassing.”
“No it isn’t.” Yeji looked at me for maybe a second too long afterward. Something about the expression on her face there felt strangely fragile in a way I hadn’t seen often from her before. “I’ve been thinking about it a lot.” I stayed quiet afterward instead of interrupting. And Yeji noticed that too. Then eventually she shifted slightly closer into the couch corner afterward before continuing. “…I kept trying to compare it to everything else before and it just…” Tiny pause. “…doesn’t.” The room stayed quiet again. Then finally she looked down toward the keycard still resting loosely in her hand. “…And I think part of me keeps wondering if it only happened because of everything that night.” There was the real fear underneath all of that. Not sex or experience, but uncertainty. Then she murmured “…Like maybe it was just because I was emotionally overwhelmed already.” I watched her carefully afterward. Then eventually I answered honestly. “It probably intensified things.” Yeji nodded slowly.
“But,” I continued carefully afterward, “that doesn’t make the experience itself less real.” Silence again. “…Yeah.” Tiny answer. Very thoughtful. Then after another quieter pause “…I think I want to know for sure.” The way she said that nearly made my chest tighten immediately. Because there wasn’t manipulation in it, or seduction. Just careful honesty— like she hated admitting the thought out loud but trusted me enough to do it anyway.
The room stayed quiet after Yeji’s last sentence. Because both of us understood exactly what this conversation had slowly become somewhere along the way. Yeji still sat curled slightly into the bed corner while loosely holding the pillow against herself, though at some point during the conversation her grip against it had gradually loosened. Less defensive now. That somehow affected me significantly more than I was prepared for. Then softly afterward “…I know how this sounds.”
“That depends.” Yeji looked up carefully. “On what?” I exhaled quietly through my nose before answering. “Whether you think I’m misunderstanding you.” Yeji’s expression shifted because that moment she realized I knew exactly what she meant now. Very transparent sometimes despite trying not to be. Then eventually she lowered her eyes again afterward while laughing quietly beneath her breath once. “…Right.” Another pause. “…You’re annoyingly perceptive.” I gave her a smile “That sounded vaguely hostile.” I laughed. “It was meant affectionately.” Then eventually Yeji spoke again without looking up yet. “…I keep replaying it.”
“I tried not to at first because I thought maybe I was just emotionally overwhelmed after the solo debut.” Tiny pause. “But the more time passed…” She exhaled softly. “…the more I realized I wasn’t thinking about the situation.” Slowly now. Carefully. “…I was thinking about how it felt.” No hiding behind vague wording anymore. No loopholes. Just honesty. The sincerity in her voice there nearly made my chest tighten immediately. Because Yeji didn’t sound reckless. She sounded curious. Trusting. Vulnerable. Like somebody standing in front of a door they never realized existed before “And I think I want to know if it was real.”
I stayed still afterward for a second. Not because I needed clarification. Because I was very aware now of where this conversation could go. Who was sitting in front of me and the fact that Yeji was giving me the choice to either move closer or stop this entirely. Then eventually I spoke carefully. “…Yeji.” She looked up again immediately afterward. The way her expression softened slightly just from hearing her name in that tone nearly destroyed the last remaining fragments of my self-restraint psychologically. “You know this doesn’t have to be some kind of test, right?”
“I know.” I looked at Yeji, trying to get a read on her “Then why does it feel like one?” Tiny pause. Then finally she answered honestly. “Because I spent a long time thinking intimacy just…” She searched briefly for the wording. “…wasn’t something my body understood properly.” That sentence hit harder than expected. The clinical part of my brain already understood exactly why. But hearing Yeji say it aloud anyway still felt quietly devastating somehow. Then eventually she looked down again afterward while speaking softer this time. “…And then with you it suddenly wasn’t difficult anymore.”
Oh boy that was a dangerous sentence. With very dangerous wording. The room stayed quiet afterward. No distractions now. No jokes. No comfortable escape routes left. Just open honesty between us. At some point during the conversation, Yeji had unconsciously shifted farther toward the edge of the couch closest to me. Not dramatically. Just enough that I noticed it immediately. Then softly “If I’m crossing a line right now, you can tell me.”
That almost made me laugh quietly. Not because it was funny. Because somehow even now— while sitting inside my private room at night after deliberately using the one keycard connected directly to my quarters— Yeji was still trying to make sure I felt comfortable too. I leaned slightly forward afterward before answering honestly. “You crossed that line the moment you walked in here looking for this conversation specifically.” Tiny silence. “But for the record the line was crossed that night after your solo debut”. Then slowly— very slowly Yeji nodded once. That was probably the moment the remaining distance between us stopped feeling accidental. Because now both of us knew. Not implied. Not danced around.
The city lights outside continued glowing softly through the windows while the room itself stayed warm and quiet around us. Then eventually Yeji shifted again afterward before setting the pillow aside completely. Small action. Very dangerous consequence. Because suddenly there was nothing left between us or the conversation. “You know what the worst part is? I think I knew why I came here before I admitted it to myself.” That nearly snapped the last thread of restraint I still had left. I stayed still for maybe one second longer afterward before finally standing from the bed she was on. Not rushed. Not impulsive. Just… certain now. Yeji watched me carefully the entire time. And interestingly enough— she didn’t look nervous anymore. Just aware.
The opposite end of my bed sat only a short distance away from where she’d shifted during the conversation. And at some point— quietly, naturally— she’d already settled there instead of the corner without either of us acknowledging it aloud. I stepped closer afterward until I finally stopped near the edge of the bed while Yeji tilted her head slightly upward to meet my gaze again. No games now. No loopholes. Just the both of us fully understanding where this was about to go.
Close enough now that I could see the slight shift in Yeji’s breathing every time she looked up at me and then away again for half a second afterward. Because despite how honest this conversation had become— there was still something careful about her. Like she understood this mattered now in a way neither of us could pretend was casual anymore. The room itself felt smaller somehow.
The fact that Yeji didn’t look nervous anymore was probably affecting me more than if she had. Because now this wasn’t impulse. It was choice. And before I got lost in my train of thought “You’re thinking again.” I exhaled softly through my nose afterward. “That accusation has become emotionally weaponized.” A tiny smile pulled briefly at the corner of her mouth again. I leaned slightly closer afterward before resting one hand carefully against the edge of the mattress beside her instead of touching her immediately. Giving her room. Giving her choice. Important distinction. Yeji noticed that too. I could tell from the way her expression softened almost instantly afterward. Then eventually she looked down briefly before speaking quieter this time. “…You know what’s weird? I’m not embarrassed right now”.
“Should you be?” I asked her to look for any hint of her wanting to back out. “No.” Tiny pause. “…But normally I overthink things like this.” Yeji overthinking vulnerability felt almost inevitable considering the life she lived. But right now? She looked calmer than she had during most emotionally difficult conversations we’d had before. Then eventually she shifted slightly farther back onto the bed afterward while still keeping her eyes on me. “…I think that’s part of why I wanted to talk to you instead of just…” She made a small vague gesture. “…wondering about it alone.” I nodded slightly afterward. “Because uncertainty becomes louder when you isolate yourself with it.” Yeji blinked once. “…That was annoyingly accurate.” I leaned towards her “Occupational hazard.”
The atmosphere between us had changed completely now. Less tension. Less confusion. Just closeness. The kind built from being understood too carefully for too long. There it is. That feeling in my chest again. Genuine issue honestly. Then eventually the laughter softened away again while she looked at me quietly afterward. And this time— neither of us looked away first. “I think I trust you too much.” The honesty in that sentence nearly destroyed me. Because Yeji didn’t say it recklessly. She said it like someone acknowledging something important they already accepted. I moved slightly closer afterward almost instinctively now. Her eyes just stayed on mine while her breathing slowed slightly again. The longer I looked at her sitting there— comfortable, honest, wanting— the harder it became to remember why I’d been trying to resist this at all anymore.
YJ: You’re still thinking.
B: That sounds judgmental.
YJ: You get quieter when you’re trying to be careful.
I exhaled softly afterward before finally admitting the truth. “I’m trying very hard not to overwhelm you.” The way Yeji’s expression softened after hearing that nearly ended whatever restraint I had left entirely. Because for a second— she looked almost relieved “…Benjie”. I kept my gaze at her “Yeah, I still hate that nickname. But it’s not that bad hearing it from you”. That made her giggle and in a soft voice “I came here because I wanted you to stop being careful eventually.” That answer nearly destroyed the remaining distance between us immediately. Not because of the words themselves. Because of the way Yeji said them. Soft. Certain. Honest. Like she’d already spent days thinking herself through every possible hesitation before finally walking into this room tonight.
I stayed still for maybe another second afterward while looking at her lay there against the dim lighting of the room. Comfortable now. Aware. Waiting. The longer I looked at her, the more obvious it became that Yeji wasn’t asking for reassurance anymore. She was asking to be chosen back. “You make this incredibly difficult sometimes.” A tiny smile pulled at the corner of her mouth afterward.” Then eventually the smile softened away again while she looked up at me quietly afterward. And for a second— neither of us spoke. We didn’t need to anymore.
I moved closer again until I finally sat near the edge of the bed beside her. Yeji’s breathing shifted slightly again afterward “…Still trying to be careful?”. That somehow affected me significantly more than if she’d looked uncertain. “That depends on how much self-control I have left”. That finally made her laugh quietly again before the sound faded into something softer when I reached up instinctively to brush a loose strand of hair gently back away from her face. Yeji immediately leaned slightly into the touch before she could stop herself. “You know it’s unfair how calm you look right now”. That almost made me laugh “I’m significantly less calm than I appear”. Then eventually her fingers lightly curled against the edge of the blanket beside her while she kept looking at me with that same quiet openness that had been destroying me all night.
That was probably what finally broke whatever restraint I still had left. Because suddenly the distance between us felt ridiculous. I leaned closer slowly afterward. Enough that I watched Yeji’s breathing catch slightly in real time. Enough that her eyes softened immediately before flicking toward my lips again. And the closer I got— the more obvious it became that Yeji already knew exactly what was about to happen.
I got closer to Yeji, her breath hot and erratic against my ear. I lowered on to her as she lay in mattress, the springs groaning under our combined weight. Yeji looked up at me, her eyes wide, dark, and shimmering with a hunger that had been suppressed for far too long. The fabric of her shirt was clinging to her skin, but her jacket was a discarded heap on the floor. I shifted, moving between her thighs and pushing them wide. The air in the room felt thick, charged with the kind of electricity that precedes a storm. I didn't go for her lips this time. I slid down her body, my chest brushing against her breasts, until I reached the edge of her underwear. "Ben..." she whispered, her voice a fragile thread.
I didn't answer with words. I hooked my fingers into the elastic of her panties and slid them down her legs, tossing them aside. The scent hit me immediately—sweet, musky, and heavy with arousal. She was already drenched, her core glistening in the dim light. I leaned in, my breath ghosting over her inner thigh, making her jump and arch her back. My tongue moved to the shape of her slit, tasting the sweet tang of her desire.
Yeji let out a sharp, strangled gasp, her fingers digging into the bedsheets. I focused on her clit, swirling my tongue around the swollen nub with a deliberate, agonizing slowness. "Oh God," she whimpered, her hips beginning to stutter upward. I increased the pressure, sucking the small pearl into my mouth while my fingers slid inside her. She was tight, pulsing around me, the walls of her pussy clamping down in rhythmic waves. I could hear it now—the moans she produced in reaction to the movement of my tongue against her clit and the squelching of my fingers moving through her cream. I didn't let up. I matched the rhythm of her breathing, pushing her higher and higher, feeling the tension build in her thighs. Her breath hitched, then stopped. Her entire body went rigid, her toes curling into the mattress. A high pitched moan tore from her throat as the first orgasm crashed over her. She shook violently, the muscles of her pussy squeezing my fingers in a desperate, crushing grip.
I kept going, refusing to let the peak fade, driving her right back into the fire. I didn't stop the stimulation. I used a flicking motion with my tongue, faster now, more aggressive, while my other hand gripped her hip to hold her still. Yeji was sobbing now, a mixture of pleasure and shock. "I can't—Ben, please—" I pushed her over the edge a second time.
It was more violent than the first, a total systemic collapse. She screamed into the quiet of the room, her back arching so high only her head and heels touched the bed. The second orgasm ripped through her, leaving her limp and gasping, her chest heaving under the thin fabric of her top. I pulled back, watching her. She looked shattered in the best possible way, her eyes glazed, her lips parted.
"Was that..." she panted, her voice sounding distant.
"Was that normal? That... that actually happened twice."
I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand, looking at her with a small, knowing smile. "Completely normal, Yeji." She stared at the ceiling, a tear slipping from the corner of her eye. "I spent years thinking I was just... defective. That the stories were lies. But I felt it. I actually felt it."
She shifted then, her gaze sliding down to where I was positioned between her legs. My cock was straining, a hard, pulsing rod of meat that was leaking pre-cum onto the sheets. She looked back up at me, the realization hitting her face. "You didn't... you didn't even touch yourself," she whispered.
"Your pleasure was the priority," I told her, my voice rough. Yeji frowned, a spark of her usual leadership returning even through the haze of her climax.
"No. No way. I can't just... I'd feel guilty. I can't let you do all the work and get nothing."
"I'm fine, Yeji. Really."
"I don't care if you're fine," she countered, her voice gaining strength.
"I want to make you feel it too."
She reached down, her small hand wrapping around the shaft of my cock. Her grip was tentative, lacking experience, but the warmth of her palm sent a jolt of electricity straight to my gut. She started to move her hand up and down, her thumb rubbing over the sensitive head. I groaned, my head falling back as the friction began to build. As she worked her hand, she shifted her body, pressing her chest against my arm, her nipples hardening through the fabric of her top. The combination of her soft skin against me and the tight grip of her hand was almost too much. I reached up, grabbing her waist and pulling her closer, our bodies intertwining in a messy tangle of limbs and sweat.
The pace of her hand increased. She was getting the hang of it, her movements becoming more confident. I could feel the pressure building in me, the heat radiating. I let out a low moan as the climax approached, my hips involuntarily jerking upward. "Ben? Am I... is this right?" she asked, her voice breathless. "Yeah," I choked out. "Right there. Don't stop." I didn't have much time left.
With one final, forceful squeeze and a rapid slide of her hand, I snapped. I let out a loud, guttural shout as I came, the force of the ejaculation sending thick, white ropes of semen spraying across her stomach and thighs. It was a messy, visceral release, the hot liquid splattering against her skin in heavy bursts. Yeji gasped, looking down at the white streaks covering her body. She reached out, touching the warm fluid with her finger, looking fascinated. Then, she looked back at my cock. It hadn't gone soft. It was still standing, pulsing slightly, still fully erect.
"Wait," she whispered, her eyes widening. "You're still hard?"
"I'm a bit of an overachiever," I muttered, my breath still ragged.
Yeji’s expression shifted from surprise to a determined kind of curiosity. She sat up, the movement causing the semen on her stomach to smear. Without a word, she reached for the hem of her shirt and pulled it over her head in one fluid motion, tossing it across the room.
She was stunning. Her breasts were small but firm, her nipples dark and peaking in the cool air of the room. She climbed on top of me, straddling my lap, her bare skin warm against mine. She looked down at me, her face flushed, a small, nervous smile playing on her lips.
"I'm not... I've never really done this part," she admitted, her voice small.
"The part where I'm in charge."
"Just do whatever feels right," I told her, reaching up to cup her breasts.
Yeji lowered herself slowly, guiding the head of my cock to her opening. She let out a long, shaky exhale as she sank down, her tight walls stretching to accommodate my size. She gasped, her eyes fluttering shut as she seated herself fully, the wet sound of our bodies meeting echoing in the room. She started to move, a slow, tentative grind of her hips.
She was awkward at first, her balance off, but the feeling of her gripping me so tightly made my vision blur. I groaned, my hands sliding down to her ass, squeezing the firm cheeks and pulling her down harder against me. "Like this?" she asked, her voice trembling. "Yes. Exactly like that." As she found her rhythm, the movement became more vigorous. The sound of skin slapping against skin filled the room—a rhythmic, wet thudding. Her breasts bounced with every downward thrust, the tips brushing against the palm of my hand.
Yeji was beginning to enjoy it, her head tossing back, a series of short, sharp moans escaping her. I didn't stay passive for long. I gripped her hips and began to thrust upward, meeting her movements with my own. The friction was intense, the heat between us reaching a boiling point. I could feel her tightening around me again, the walls of her pussy pulsing in anticipation. "Ben! Oh god, it's— I’m coming again!"
I didn't slow down. I drove into her with everything I had, my thrusts becoming deeper and more frantic. Yeji was screaming now, her fingers clawing at my chest, her body shaking as she hit another peak. The feeling of her climaxing while I was buried inside her was almost enough to finish me. I felt the pressure building again, a second wave of heat crashing through my body. I knew I was close. As the sensation peaked, I gripped her waist and pulled her up, sliding out of her just as the first jet of semen erupted.
I came strongly, the white fluid hitting her stomach and chest with a loud, wet smack. It splattered across her skin, coating her in a second layer of heat. Yeji looked down at herself, breathless and covered in me, a look of utter disbelief on her face.
"You... you're actually..." she panted, leaning her forehead against mine.
"Most people... they usually just... one round and they're done. How are you still...?"
"Told you," I whispered, kissing her forehead.
"Overachiever."
Yeji looked at me, a mischievous glint appearing in her eyes. She slid off my lap, but she didn't move away. Instead, she knelt between my legs. She looked up at me, her body smeared with a bit of my cum, her expression determined.
"I want to try something," she murmured. She leaned forward, her lips brushing against the head of my cock. I stiffened, my breath catching in my throat. Yeji took me into her mouth, but she immediately struggled. She gagged slightly, her eyes watering. "Careful," I whispered, my hand resting on the back of her head. She didn't give up. She used her hand to guide me, focusing on the head, her tongue swirling around the rim before trying to slide deeper. The sound was incredibly wet—the squelch of saliva and the suction of her cheeks creating a vacuum that nearly drove me insane.
She was inexperienced, her technique unrefined, but the sheer effort she was putting in—the way she looked up at me with those determined eyes—was the most erotic thing I had ever experienced. I groaned, my fingers curling into her hair. The sensation of her warm mouth and the friction of her tongue was the final straw. I was still sensitive from earlier, so I felt the build-up happen almost instantly, a sudden, violent surge of pressure. "Yeji, I'm—" She didn't pull away. She leaned in further, taking as much of me as she could.
I let out a strangled cry as I finished, the semen erupting from my cock and filling her mouth and throat. She swallowed some of it, but the sheer volume was too much; the rest sprayed upward, coating her cheeks, her nose, and her forehead in thick, white streaks. She pulled back, gasping for air, a thin string of saliva and semen connecting her lip to my cock. She looked like a mess—covered in fluids, hair disheveled, skin flushed—and she had never looked more beautiful.
We stayed like that for a long time, the only sound the heavy thudding of our hearts and the distant hum of the city outside. Eventually, I reached down and pulled her up into my arms, kissing her deeply, tasting a bit of myself on her lips.
"Shower?" I whispered.
"Please," she breathed.
I carried her into the bathroom, the air quickly filling with steam as I turned the water on high. We stepped under the spray together, the hot water washing away the salt and the seed. The shower was a blur of tactile sensations—the smell of sandalwood soap mixing with the lingering scent of sex, the feeling of wet skin sliding against wet skin. I pressed her against the tiled wall, my hands roaming over her curves, scrubbing the soap into her skin with slow, deliberate movements. I couldn’t help myself, deciding to sneak a few kisses in while we showered. Though we didn't have sex again—we were both too exhausted—but the intimacy remained. I kept on kissing her, slow and unhurried now, stealing softer kisses beneath the falling water while my hands rested comfortably against her waist. Neither of us seemed interested in letting go yet. She stayed close against me, her head eventually settling against my shoulder while the steam curled quietly around us, my hands lingering on her breasts, while she clung to me, her head resting on my shoulder.
"Ben?" she whispered, the steam curling around us.
"Yeah?"
"I think... I think I'm starting to understand why you're so obsessed with wellbeing." I laughed softly, pulling her closer.
"Is that so?"
"Yeah," she murmured, a small, content smile on her face.
"I feel... quiet. For the first time in years, my head is actually quiet."
I held her there under the falling water, knowing that the bridge between us had been permanently crossed. We weren't just manager and idol anymore. We were something far more dangerous, and far more real.
We stayed there beneath the water a little while longer before eventually stepping out together, the warmth of the bathroom immediately replaced by the cooler air of the room outside. I reached for one of the towels first, wrapping it loosely around Yeji before drying her hair gently enough that she immediately narrowed her eyes at me suspiciously.
“…Why are you being so gentle?”
“I’m preserving company assets, professionally.”
“That sounds deeply unserious.”
“That’s because it is.”
Yeji laughed softly under her breath while I finished drying the ends of her hair before quickly drying myself afterward. Then she glanced down toward the scattered state of her clothes near the bathroom doorway. Those were absolutely beyond immediate reuse “…I think you murdered my shirt,” she muttered while picking it up carefully between two fingers.
“In my defense, there were a lot of emotionally charged variables involved.”
“That sentence sounds legally dangerous.”
“Correct.”
Another smaller laugh escaped her afterward while she tossed the clothes into the washer tucked near the laundry area before pulling one of the bath robes from the cabinet nearby. Meanwhile I just pulled on a pair of sweatpants before deciding shirts were currently an unnecessary societal expectation. Yeji stepped back into the living area afterward, the robe loosely tied around her waist while still drying bits of damp hair with a towel. Then immediately paused. Her eyes moved slowly downward.
“…You actually stayed shirtless.”
“That sounds judgmental.”
“You look like you belong on a cologne advertisement right now.”
“That somehow feels insulting.”
“It was complimentary.”
“Your delivery mechanism needs work.”
Yeji rolled her eyes before quietly walking closer again, stopping directly in front of me before lightly tugging me downward by the waistband just enough to steal another kiss.
By the time we finally left the room together, the apartment floor itself had gone mostly quiet. Late enough now that most people were either asleep— or pretending to be responsible adults. We made it about halfway toward the kitchen before Yeji suddenly spoke up casually. “I’m getting a snack.” Then louder afterward “Do you want anything, Benjie?” I opened my mouth immediately. “I’m actually pretty thirsty myself, what do we ha—” And stopped. Because standing near the kitchen counter holding a half-open refrigerator door was Lia.
Lia blinked once slowly. Her eyes moved from Yeji in a bath robe, to me standing shirtless beside her, then toward the very visible tattoos across my shoulders and arms. The realization happened almost instantly behind her eyes. Not shock. Not judgment. Just understanding. Yeji froze beside me too “…Oh,” Lia said softly. That somehow felt significantly more dangerous than screaming would’ve. I rubbed lightly at the back of my neck afterward. “Well this is unfortunate timing.” Yeji immediately covered her face “Oh my God”. Lia stared at both of us for another few seconds before unexpectedly letting out a quieter laugh beneath her breath.
“No wonder you’ve both been acting weird lately.”
“That feels accusatory,” I muttered.
“That’s because it is,” Yeji answered immediately beside me.
Lia finally closed the refrigerator door afterward before leaning lightly against the counter, still visibly processing things. She was handling this significantly better than expected. Then her eyes shifted back toward me again “…You’re surprisingly fit.” I looked down briefly toward myself. “That’s the second time I’ve heard that tonight. I’m beginning to feel profiled.” Lia laughed softly before gesturing vaguely toward my shoulders “And the tattoos too”. Yeji immediately pointed toward her. “RIGHT? I said the same thing earlier”. Excellent. Now they were unionizing against me. Lia tilted her head slightly afterward while studying one of the tattoos near my collarbone.
“You honestly look like the type to get something emotionally reckless tattooed eventually.”
“That sounds concerningly specific.”
Then suddenly— Yeji’s expression shifted. And immediately I knew exactly where this was going. Lia looked between both of us once before slowly narrowing her eyes.
LA: …Wait
“No,” I answered instantly.
LA: I didn’t even say anything yet. But you looked emotionally suspicious.
B: That’s not a real sentence.
LA: It should be.
Lia immediately started laughing again while Yeji completely lost composure beside me. Then finally Lia pointed toward Yeji directly. “You should get a portrait tattoo of Yeji somewhere, or at least her name written down.” I stared at Yeji. Yeji stared at me.
“Oh my god, YOU ALREADY TALKED ABOUT THAT?” Lia asked in disbelief.
“That sounds significantly worse when phrased like that,” I answered immediately.
Yeji was still hiding her face behind one hand while laughing uncontrollably now. Meanwhile Lia looked increasingly horrified and entertained simultaneously. Interesting emotional combination honestly.
The next several days settled into a rhythm surprisingly quickly. Morning meetings. Practice evaluations. Wardrobe fittings. Demo reviews. Recording adjustments, and somewhere in-between all of that the top floor quietly became part of ITZY’s daily life. Not officially, just… naturally.
At first it started small. Yuna using one of the lounge rooms to nap between schedules because “the couches up here are spiritually better.”
Chaeryeong occasionally hiding in the music room whenever the practice floor became too loud.
Ryujin kept stealing expensive drinks from my refrigerator like some kind of emotionally unstable raccoon.
And somehow Lia became the most normal about the entire thing.
Which honestly felt suspicious now. Very suspicious. Especially because every single time our eyes met across a room lately— she smiled like she knew something. The first time she winked at me during practice evaluations nearly killed me internally. I was midway through discussing rehearsal pacing adjustments with one of the choreographers when I glanced toward the mirrors and caught Lia casually sipping iced coffee while looking directly at me. Then a wink.
Subtle. Tiny. Absolutely catastrophic. I immediately lost my train of thought. “And then we can probably reduce strain on Yeji’s lower back during the second chorus by—” pause “…What was I saying?” The choreographer blinked. Meanwhile somewhere behind me
“You look distracted, manager-nim.”
I slowly turned afterward only to find Lia visibly trying not to laugh while Yeji completely avoided eye contact near the mirrors. Excellent. Now BOTH of them were psychologically dangerous. Even worse? The members started noticing something weird was happening. Not the truth, obviously. Yuna asked one afternoon while eating snacks on the studio floor.
YN: Why does Lia unnie keep looking at you like she knows your tax fraud secrets?
B: I don’t commit tax fraud.
YN: That sounded defensive.
B: That sounded financially targeted.
Ryujin looked up immediately from the couch nearby.
RJ: …Wait. You absolutely look like someone who has offshore accounts.
B: That feels racist toward wealthy people.
YJ: That sentence alone confirmed it.
B: I hate this group.
“Emotionally false,” Chaeryeong answered quietly without looking up from her phone. Traitor number four. Then somewhere beside me Yeji suddenly laughed under her breath— and Ryujin noticed. Because Ryujin’s eyes shifted slowly between me, Yeji, and then at Lia. The stare lingered there slightly longer than comfortable.
The atmosphere returned to normal quickly afterward, but I noticed something important over the next several days, Ryujin started watching more. Not obviously. That wasn’t her style. But she lingered around conversations longer now. Sat closer during downtime. Interrupted moments more often. Started stealing my attention deliberately. It was the emotional equivalent of poking a bruise repeatedly until somebody reacts felt EXTREMELY Ryujin themed tactics.
One evening after rehearsals, I was reorganizing part of the comeback scheduling inside one of the smaller production rooms when the door suddenly opened behind me. No knock. “You’re avoiding everybody.” I glanced up briefly. “You entered this room like a police raid.” Ryujin ignored me professionally before casually dropping onto the couch nearby
RJ: You’ve been weird lately.
B: That’s vague enough to qualify as emotional terrorism.
RJ: And you keep looking at Yeji differently.
B: That sounds observational.
RJ: And that sounds like avoidance.
Ryujin studied me quietly for another second afterward before speaking again “And Lia unnie keeps looking at both of you like she’s watching a drama nobody else understands yet.” I stayed silent just slightly too long. And unfortunately, Ryujin noticed that too. Then slowly— a grin appeared “…Oh.” That singular syllable somehow felt psychologically threatening. I rubbed lightly at my forehead afterward “You need healthier hobbies”.
“No I don’t,” Ryujin answered immediately.
“This is fascinating.”
“That word concerns me deeply.”
“You’re hiding something.”
“That describes literally every human being alive.”
“But yours is interesting.”
That was somehow worse than false accusations. Then Ryujin leaned slightly forward afterward, resting her chin against one hand while studying me with visible amusement now.
“…You know what’s funny?”
“That sentence has historically never improved my life.”
“You stopped looking tired.”
Silence. Not because I didn’t have a response. Because unfortunately she was right. Then finally she leaned back again afterward while still looking unbearably smug.
“Wow.”
“I’m beginning to resent your observational skills.”
“You should.” She paused briefly.
“You’re getting way too comfortable around us.”
That landed significantly harder than expected. Because there was no accusation in her voice. That somehow felt more dangerous than suspicion.
The following weeks passed in a blur of rehearsals, recording sessions, emergency wardrobe meetings, and increasingly concerning amounts of takeout food consumed on the top floor at two in the morning. Which honestly meant the comeback preparations were going well. Too well, almost. Because despite the heavier schedules approaching, something around the group had noticeably shifted. People laughed more now. Not loudly. Not dramatically, it was more natural now.
Yuna practically moved into the upstairs lounge during off-days, usually buried beneath blankets while aggressively stealing everyone’s snacks like a tiny home invader.
Chaeryeong quietly developed the habit of staying upstairs after practices ended, often sitting near the music room while absentmindedly talking about choreography frustrations she normally kept to herself.
And somehow Lia became terrifyingly calm about the entire secret she accidentally uncovered.
That honestly concerned me slightly. Because now she occasionally looked at Yeji and me like an emotionally well-adjusted hostage negotiator. One afternoon during vocal recording evaluations, Yeji walked over absentmindedly while I was reviewing scheduling notes before immediately stealing the iced coffee beside me without asking. Normal behavior. “Wow,” Ryujin muttered from the couch nearby. Yeji paused mid-sip. “…What?” Ryujin slowly looked between both of us. “You two act married sometimes.” Dead silence. Yeji immediately coughed into the coffee while I calmly continued reading paperwork with the survival instincts of a man refusing to acknowledge a landmine directly beneath him.
Then somewhere beside her Lia smiled into her phone. Unfortunately Ryujin noticed THAT too. The tension dissolved quickly afterward once Yuna loudly accused everybody of emotionally bullying her for being hungry, but the look Ryujin gave me before leaving the room lingered significantly longer than comfortable. Not suspicious anymore. Curiosity. That was worse, much worse. Still— despite the increasingly dangerous emotional ecosystem forming around me the comeback itself progressed almost shockingly smoothly. Not effortless obviously. Everyone was still exhausted. Still overworked. Still emotionally stretched thin sometimes.
But now? There was somewhere safe to come back to afterward. And having that safety net for the girls changed everything. Late nights became movie nights upstairs. Group dinners. Chaotic card games. Yuna loudly losing competitive games and accusing everybody else of cheating emotionally. Even Yeji slowly stopped carrying herself like the entire future of ITZY rested solely on her shoulders twenty-four hours a day. That alone probably justified my entire employment contract psychologically.
One evening after rehearsals, I found Chaeryeong asleep sideways on one of the lounge couches with a blanket tangled around her legs while Lia quietly adjusted the volume on the television nearby. “…You know,” Lia said softly without looking away from the screen, “this place feels different now.” I glanced toward her briefly.
“That sounds ominous.”
“It’s not.” A smaller smile appeared afterward. “It just feels quieter.”
Then quietly afterward “…Thank you.”
That caught me slightly off guard. I looked toward her properly “For what?”. Lia finally glanced toward the sleeping Chaeryeong nearby before answering softly. “For noticing when everyone’s tired before they fall apart”. That sentence stayed with me significantly longer than expected.
By the time “Girls Will Be Girls” finally released, the atmosphere surrounding the group felt completely different from the one Yeji had dragged herself through months earlier during her solo preparations. Still stressful. Still chaotic. Still exhausting. But no longer lonely. The release day itself was predictably catastrophic in the way all comeback days usually were. Staff everywhere. Phones constantly ringing. Wardrobe emergencies. Three separate people crying for entirely different reasons. Normal idol industry behavior.
Yet despite all of that— the members looked happy. Actually happy. Not “camera happy.” Not “idol happy.” Real. That realization hit me harder than expected.
Later that night after schedules finally ended, the five of them collapsed across the upstairs lounge in varying states of exhaustion while takeout containers covered almost every available surface nearby.
Yuna was halfway unconscious against the couch.
Ryujin was scrolling through early reactions with visible satisfaction.
Chaeryeong looked seconds away from passing out entirely.
Lia quietly hummed along to the television music playing softly in the background.
And Yeji— she looked peaceful.
“…We did well,” Yeji murmured quietly into the room. Simple sentence. But the silence afterward said significantly more. Because everybody knew what she actually meant. Not just, the comeback— everything. The floor. The schedules. The balance. The atmosphere. All of it.
Then eventually Ryujin glanced toward me from across the room and smirked. “…You look happy,” she observed casually. Interesting. Very interesting. Because for once— I didn’t immediately deny it.
The celebrations after the first week of Girls Will Be Girls promotions were significantly less glamorous than most people probably imagined. No luxury parties. No celebrity-filled rooftop events. Just five exhausted women sprawled across various sections of the top floor while half-eaten food containers slowly occupied every available flat surface like an invasive species. Honestly? Probably healthier.
“You know what I miss?” Yuna muttered dramatically from beneath a blanket cocoon on the lounge couch. “Peace.”
“You started three arguments today,” Ryujin answered without looking up from her phone.
“That’s unrelated.”
“That feels deeply related.”
Meanwhile Chaeryeong was halfway asleep beside the window while Lia quietly scrolled through social media reactions nearby. And somewhere several thousand kilometers away Yeji was currently attending some luxury fashion gala in Europe while occasionally sending me increasingly judgmental selfies from makeup rooms. The latest one arrived three minutes ago “stop forgetting to eat properly”.
I was midway through typing a response when Ryujin suddenly stood up from the couch. Historically, that move was concerning. Then she pointed directly at me “You”. I slowly lowered my phone.
“That sounded accusatory.”
“You’re drinking with me tonight.”
Silence. Not because the statement itself was strange. Because the tone implied that she had already decided this hours ago internally. “I don’t think that was a question,” Lia muttered quietly nearby. I rubbed lightly at my forehead afterward.
“Why am I suddenly being kidnapped?”
“Because,” Ryujin answered calmly, “our emotional support manager is now our designated emotional support drinking buddy.”
“That sentence should not be legally binding.”
“It is tonight.”
Yuna immediately sat upright beneath the blanket. “WAIT I WANNA COME.”
“No, it’s a one on one tonight.” Ryujin answered instantly.
“That’s maknae discrimination.”
“This is purely business.”
“Emotionally false.”
Chaeryeong blinked sleepily from the corner “Can I at least know where you’re going?” Ryujin shrugged casually. “Somewhere private would be better”. I narrowed my eyes immediately.
“Public places are absolutely not happening.”
“Obviously,” Ryujin answered.
“We’d get photographed in five minutes.” Then her eyes shifted toward me again.
“So we’ll drink at your place.”
Silence.
“…My place?”
“Yes.”
“You say that like I casually offered.”
“You were going to eventually.”
“No I wasn’t.”
“You literally own multiple houses.”
Traitorous wealthy information leakage. I slowly turned toward Lia.
“You told them?” Lia looked genuinely offended.
“I absolutely did not.”
Then quietly afterward “…But you DO look like someone who owns multiple houses.”
“This group profiles me financially constantly.” Ryujin ignored the complaint professionally.
“There’s probably expensive liquor there.”
“That sounds dangerously assumptive.”
“That sounds correct though.”
Unfortunately, she was right. I leaned back slowly afterward while weighing my rapidly deteriorating options mentally. “You realize I still need to drive back eventually.” Ryujin immediately smiled “No you don’t”. That singular sentence somehow felt psychologically threatening. Because suddenly I realized exactly what she was doing. She already planned around the escape route. Meanwhile Yuna pointed aggressively from the couch.
“SEE? This is favoritism.” Yuna protested.
“You literally tried to invite yourself.” Ryujin argued back.
“Because I believe in togetherness.”
“You believe in chaos.”
“That’s emotionally subjective.”
I rubbed lightly at my face afterward while Ryujin casually grabbed my keys from the counter beside her before I could physically stop her.
“…That feels criminal.”
“That feels dramatic.”
“You are actively stealing my vehicle.”
“You can always buy a new one.”
Then she glanced toward the others briefly. “We’ll be back tomorrow.” Lia looked down at her phone immediately afterward, visibly hiding a smile. Meanwhile Chaeryeong looked mildly confused. Yuna looked spiritually betrayed. I was beginning to realize I probably lost this argument the second Ryujin stood up from the couch fifteen minutes ago.
By the time we reached the parking area downstairs, Ryujin was still holding my keys with visible satisfaction while I questioned every life decision that somehow led here. Then she stopped walking “…Wait”. I followed her line of sight directly toward my personal car. Unlike the company-issued vehicle— this one was mine. And unfortunately? It looked expensive enough to immediately become a problem. Ryujin slowly looked between the car, me, then back toward the car again “…Ben”.
“That sounded financially judgmental.”
“What the hell do you DRIVE?”
“That sounds accusatory toward engineering.”
“This is the most suspiciously wealthy thing you’ve done so far.”
“That feels statistically incorrect.”
Ryujin walked slowly around the car afterward while visibly processing things.
“…You absolutely grew up rich.”
“No actually.”
“That somehow made this worse.”
Then finally she tossed me the keys again afterward before climbing into the passenger seat with visible satisfaction. The grin she gave me once the door closed felt significantly more dangerous than alcohol ever could.
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Male Reader OC's POV (Yeji Moment + Ryujin Smut Scene)
By the time breakfast finished trying to murder me, Momo had already decided what the day was going to become.
Not loudly. Not with a speech.
Momo simply watched Jeongyeon place food in front of John with the calm authority of someone who considered eating a shared responsibility, watched John obey because he was too tired to fight practical love, and then set her chopsticks down.
“I want barbecue later.”
The table shifted. Not because barbecue was strange. Because Momo did not suggest food. Momo declared food “Outside,” she continued. “Grill. Meat. Vegetables. Seafood if they have good seafood. Rice. Side dishes. Everyone can eat properly.”
John looked at her “Barbecue?”
Momo nodded “And I want you with me.”
“With me?”
“For grilling. For tasting. For eating properly. For not doing documents.”
John’s mouth twitched a smile “That sounds suspiciously kind.”
Momo did not look embarrassed “It is my day. I choose kind.”
That was when the morning changed shape. I felt it before I understood it. Not because of the barbecue. Because of Chaeryeong. The moment Momo’s day became food, Chaeryeong stepped toward the work “I can help prepare side dishes.”
Of course she could, and of course she would. Chaeryeong heard care and translated it into usefulness before anyone else could stop her. Momo looked at her “Yes, please.”
Chaeryeong froze for half a second. Small enough to miss. Not small enough for Lia.Not small enough for Yeji. Not small enough for me anymore. Momo accepted the help like it was normal then added, “But you eat too.”
That was the part that landed. Chaeryeong’s face did something small and quick, like the sentence had found a place under her ribs. Then she nodded “Yes.”
Momo looked satisfied “Good. Then you help me.”
That was the first thing Momo gave her that day. Not a task. A place at the table after the task. The barbecue unfolded exactly the way Momo decided it would.
By the time we reached the beachside grill station, Momo and Chaeryeong had already claimed the prep table. Bowls appeared. Cutting boards appeared. Sauces became Chaeryeong’s responsibility with no ceremony and no warning.
John took the grill. I made the mistake of offering help. Momo looked suspicious immediately. That was honestly fair. “I can be useful without making anything more expensive,” I said.
That should have been the end of the sentence. It was not. Because my brain, raised badly by wealth and worse by habit, saw meat and thought improvement.
Momo shut that down.
John translated me into normal labor before I could turn lunch into an acquisition opportunity. Carry this. Move that. Stop thinking rich. It was humiliating. It was probably good for me.
Chaeryeong noticed. That was worse. Not because she laughed, but because she did not. She only watched me get reduced into a person who could be handed something and told where to put it. Somehow, that made me easier.
Then Jihyo and Jeongyeon arrived with the ice box. Jihyo announced beer was for later. Jeongyeon handed John one bottle like it came with a maintenance plan “One,” she said.
John looked at the bottle “Is that a recommendation or a command?”
“Yes,” Jeongyeon replied.
John accepted defeat and the beer. I watched him take it and wondered if the entire vacation was secretly just women handing the men in their lives proof they were allowed to stop surviving through efficiency.
Then Jihyo noticed my arm “What is that one?”
I looked down.
The tattoo sat exposed on my right upper arm, black and geometric against skin still warm from the grill. A turtle inside the pattern. A compass rose worked into the shell. Lines that looked decorative if you did not know how much silence had gone into them.
John looked over “I was there for that.”
“You were luggage with a passport,” I said.
“I was emotional support luggage.”
Jihyo’s attention sharpened “Where?”
“Samoa,” John answered.
I gave him a look. He shrugged “He flew us there because he wanted to do it properly.”
“That sounds like Ben,” Jeongyeon said.
“It was not the traditional ritual of pe’a,” I said before anyone could misunderstand “That was something an outsider could ask for.”
Jihyo’s expression changed. Not surprised. Listening “So what was yours to ask for?”
I looked down at my arm again “Permission.”
The grill kept hissing. The ice shifted in the cooler. Momo kept working. Chaeryeong’s knife slowed. Not stopped. Chaeryeong rarely stopped outright. But she was listening now.
“I thought I was asking for endurance and guidance,” I said “They told me that was not a design. It was a question.”
John leaned against the grill “He thought the hard part would be pain.”
“It was not.”
“What was?”
“Being nobody important.”
The words did not come easily. Maybe that was why they mattered “For days I lived with them. I carried food. Water. Mats. Supplies. Cleaned after meals. Sat when I was told to sit. Listened when I wanted to explain. Had meanings corrected because they were not mine.”
Chaeryeong’s hand stilled for one breath. Then she kept cutting “Did you choose it?” she asked. The question came quietly enough to pass as practical.
“I brought the question,” I said.
She looked at the turtle “They gave you the answer.”
“Yes.”
Jihyo’s gaze stayed on the tattoo “What if they said no?”
“Then I would have come home with nothing.”
Jeongyeon looked at me like she believed that answer more than some others I had given. I added, “Money paid for the road there. It did not pay for the yes.” Chaeryeong looked at the tattoo again. At the turtle. At the compass.
At the way the shell carried direction inside itself “It carries its home,” she said. I looked at her. She seemed surprised she had said it out loud. But she continued anyway “So even if it is lost…” Her eyes lifted to mine “It is not empty.”
That shut me up, what she said was accurate. Jeongyeon took the opening like a professional “So you got lost.”
“I did not say—”
“And you kept moving forward,” she corrected.
Chaeryeong looked back at my arm “And carried something with you.”
There it was again. The second hit. Cleaner than the first. I had no answer for that either. Jeongyeon, apparently satisfied that enough meaning had been extracted from me for one afternoon, pointed toward a tray “That is enough meaning, Now carry that.”
“Did you just emotional direct me back to manual labor?”
Jihyo smiled faintly “It worked.”
John handed me the tray “Now stop thinking in rich.”
“I am being attacked by manual labor.”
“You are being processed into usefulness.”
I carried the tray, Chaeryeong watched me do it. And for reasons I was not emotionally prepared to investigate, the tattoo conversation made her look at me differently. Not impressed. That would have been easier. It felt warmer. Like the story had made me less of a system and more of a person who had once stood somewhere empty-handed, waiting to be told no.
Then she stepped closer with a spoon “Taste this.”
I looked at the sauce. Then at her “I’m trusted?”
“You are available.”
The answer came fast. Too fast to be untrue. I tasted it. The lime was the part I got right. Not much. Enough. Chaeryeong accepted the note without turning it into a competition. She simply folded it into the work.
Then she added, still looking at the sauce, “Yeji unnie knows there is beer. If I catch you smoking while we are here, she gave me permission to drag you into the ocean.”
My pride died immediately. Momo looked up “Good. The food will be safe.”
I stared at all of them “This is a hostile workplace.”
John looked at the grill “It is a family business now.”
A little later, Yeji arrived through the sand, barefoot once she reached the grill station, bag over one shoulder and suspicion already written into her face. Her eyes moved from me, to the tray, to the grill “Are you actually helping?”
“Yes.”
John coughed. That traitor. Yeji turned to Chaeryeong instead “Everything okay?” the smart woman that she is. Chaeryeong answered before I could turn helpfulness into propaganda “He tried one billionaire shortcut earlier. Momo stopped him. John translated him into carrying meat. Since then, he has only been annoying in normal ways.”
I placed a hand over my chest “Betrayal.”
Chaeryeong continued, “He was right about the lime.”
Yeji looked at me. Then smiled. Not big. Not dramatic. Worse. Proud “You listened.” That was all. Two words. No reward. No performance. Just recognition.
I hated how fast it worked. I hated more that everyone saw. So naturally, I made it worse. As she went closer to inspect the grill area, I leaned down and kissed Yeji’s cheek. Casual. Affectionate. Mine. Momo watched the entire thing happen. Then turned to John.
“Take notes.”
John blinked “On the sauce?”
Momo pointed at me, still recovering from providing basic affection “On that.”
John looked at my face. Then at Yeji. Then back at me “Ah.”
“Do not encourage this,” I said.
Chaeryeong looked at me “You are pink.”
“I am standing next to a grill.”
“You were fine before she got here.”
Traitors. Her mouth curved. I caught it. She looked away immediately “I didn’t smile.”
“You did.”
“No.”
“You absolutely did.”
She took the sauce bowl and escaped. After that, everyone arrived in pieces. Sana and Nayeon were drawn in by smell and probable emotional damage. Dahyun and Chaeyoung followed. Tzuyu arrived like she had been scheduled by fate. Ryujin and Yuna came through the smoke arguing about whether my presence near fire counted as a decorative security feature. Lia arrived quietly. Mina arrived last, looked once at the sauce, and said it looked finished. Chaeryeong’s face did the small pleased thing again.
I noticed. Lia noticed me noticing. This resort was becoming a surveillance state. Lunch became Momo’s kind of chaos. Sana stole a vegetable skewer before Momo declared it ready. Momo used Sana’s reaction as quality control. Nayeon stole from Sana. Tzuyu called the system unstable. Mina said it was them, so the system had never been stable. John grilled. Momo distributed food like every plate told her who needed what.
Jihyo got the first proper serving. Nayeon received hers before complaint could become tradition. Mina tasted Chaeryeong’s sauce and said, “You balanced it well.” Chaeryeong lowered her eyes. Momo heard it and said, “Make more later.”
Chaeryeong nodded. I kept my mouth shut about the lime this time. Growth. At some point, John ate from the grill without noticing. Momo noticed “You ate.”
John looked down at the food in his hand like it had appeared there through fraud “I was tasting.”
Momo smiled “You ate.”
No command or lecture. Just recognition. Tzuyu, from the table, said, “He cannot pretend he is only serving if the food is already in his mouth.”
John closed his eyes. Momo looked deeply satisfied.
Then Yeji ruined my life in public again. She came up beside me while I was holding tongs and trying to maintain whatever dignity remained to Grill Intern status.
“My Grill Intern,” she said.
I looked at her “You say that like you own a uniform.”
“Do not tempt me.”
Then she kissed my cheek. The world stopped. Not actually. The grill continued. People continued eating. Dahyun probably continued breathing in report format. But I stopped. Fully. Embarrassingly. Completely.
Yeji stepped back, satisfied. Dahyun leaned forward “Treat economy has expanded into workplace benefits.”
Jihyo pointed at her “No.”
Dahyun lowered her imaginary microphone “Suppressed report.”
Momo turned to John again “Notes.”
John looked at me with the tired resignation of a man watching another man be trained through affection “There it is.”
I accepted the title. Temporarily. Yeji made sure to say that part. Chaeryeong, from near the sauces, added, “Internships end.” I turned to her “You wound me.”
“Again. You are pink.”
“Again. It is the warmth from the grill.”
“And again, you were warm before the grill.”
The table reacted. I refused to acknowledge it. Dahyun did “Developing story: Grill Intern denies visible workplace reward response.”
“Dahyun.”
“Sources cite cheek contact.”
Jihyo looked like she regretted allowing lunch. Momo looked like she was learning. That was dangerous. Eventually, lunch softened into the kind of lazy satisfaction that made everyone forget schedules existed until someone responsible remembered.
Naturally, that someone should have been Jihyo. Instead, it was Momo. She turned to Chaeryeong after watching the plates, the sauces, the rice, the side dishes, and what everyone had eaten “Can you handle dinner planning?”
Chaeryeong froze. Not because she could not. Because Momo asked like she already believed she could “You know the sauces,” Momo said “Side dishes. What people ate.”
Chaeryeong looked at the table. At the bowls. At the plates. At Momo. Then, briefly, at me “Yes.” Momo nodded. Good.
Then Chaeryeong said, calm as if the thought had been waiting for permission “Ben can help me.” I looked up “Why does everyone assume I’ll help?”
John did not even look conflicted “You would have helped if told not to.”
I stared at him “That is manipulative because accurate.”
Momo looked at me “Help her.” then, before my instincts could become expensive again “No billionaire shortcuts.”
There it was. The law. Momo handed Chaeryeong the folded list. Chaeryeong opened it with the seriousness of someone receiving state documents. No better meat without asking. No private chef. No staff replacing the work. No ordering something impossible just because I could.
She read every line. Then folded it carefully. When she looked at me, something had changed again. Not because the list gave her permission to help. She already had that.
The list gave her permission to tell me no, “I can handle him,” she said. That should not have done anything to me. It did. “Confident,” I said.
Chaeryeong held my gaze “Available.” The table reacted around us. Ryujin noticed. Yuna noticed louder. Dahyun probably began assembling a report in her soul. Yeji looked at me like she had seen exactly where that word landed and was deciding whether to tease me now or save it for later. Lia looked at Chaeryeong. Not at me. At Chaeryeong. Because Lia understood the important part.
Momo’s barbecue had not simply fed everyone. It had given Chaeryeong a place to stand. And now, for dinner, she had been handed the list, the room, and me.
Dinner prep began with a folded list and a threat. The list was Momo’s. The threat was Chaeryeong’s. Both were taken seriously.
I stood at the prep counter under the shade of the outdoor kitchen pavilion, reading the paper over Chaeryeong’s shoulder as she unfolded it for the third time. Not because she needed to reread it. Because she was enjoying having legal authority over me.
No better meat without asking. No private chef. No staff replacing the work. No ordering something impossible just because he can. I stared at the last line.
“That one feels targeted.”
Chaeryeong did not look up “It has your name on it emotionally.”
“That is not enforceable.”
“It is if Momo unnie says it.”
Unfortunately, she was right. Momo’s authority on this day had become absolute through food. I looked toward the coolers. Then toward the prep table. Then toward the staff standing at a respectful distance. Then back toward the list “So technically,” I began.
“No.”
“You do not know what I was going to say.”
“You were going to ask whether replacing the work counts if the staff was already working.”
I closed my mouth. Chaeryeong finally looked at me. Her expression was calm. Too calm.
“Was I wrong?”
“That is not the point.”
“It is exactly the point.”
I leaned one hand against the counter.
“I am being profiled.”
“You are being managed.”
“That is worse.”
“You said you would help.”
“I did.”
“Then help.”
I straightened immediately. Embarrassing. Chaeryeong noticed. More embarrassing. She handed me a bundle of green onions “Wash these.”
“I know how to wash vegetables.”
“You also know how to buy a restaurant if the vegetables disappoint you.”
“That has never happened.”
“Yet.”
“That word is becoming slanderous to my name.”
She turned back to the sauce bowls “Ben.”
“Yes?”
“No billionaire shortcuts.”
There it was again. The law. The cruelest phrase ever invented by Hirai Momo. I took the green onions and went to the sink. Normally. Like a normal person. Like a man who had never considered improving dinner through supply chain superiority.
For about ninety seconds, I behaved.
Then I saw the meat tray. It was fine. Good, even. Perfectly acceptable. Completely respectable. And therefore in danger. I looked at it for too long. Chaeryeong did not even turn around “No.”
I froze “I said nothing.”
“You breathed like money.”
I stared at her back “That is insane.”
“You were about to suggest better meat.”
“I was considering quality variance.”
“That is worse.”
“It is not worse. It is specific.”
She set down the spoon and turned to face me fully “Why?”
“Why what?”
“Why does it need to be better?”
I pointed toward the table “Because everyone is eating.”
“Yes.”
“And Momo planned the whole day around people eating properly.”
“Yes.”
“And John is finally eating without looking like someone filed a report against him.”
Chaeryeong’s mouth twitched. Barely. I took that as encouragement “Momo deserves excellent ingredients.”
“She has them.”
“She deserves superior ingredients.”
“There it is.”
“There what is?”
“The billionaire shortcut.”
“It is not a shortcut if I only improve one thing.”
She folded her arms. That was bad. Chaeryeong folding her arms did not feel like Ryujin preparing to attack. It felt like a quiet office had locked the door “One thing?”
“One meat type.”
“No.”
“One tray.”
“No.”
“One tray, same supplier, better cut.”
“No.”
“One tray, same supplier, better cut, no staff replacement, no private chef, no ordering something impossible.”
She paused. Ah. Progress. I leaned slightly closer.
“See? I am respecting the list.”
“You are negotiating with the list.”
“Respectfully.”
“Hostilely.”
“Effectively.”
She looked at the tray again. Then at the folded paper. Then at me. Her eyes narrowed “You are not replacing everything.”
“One tray.”
“You are not making the staff redo the entire plan.”
“One tray.”
“You are not saying the word premium.”
I inhaled. She pointed at me “Do not.”
I closed my mouth. Cruel woman.
“One tray,” I said.
Chaeryeong added, “Same dinner plan. No private chef. No impossible ordering.”
“Nothing impossible.”
“No explaining why your version is better.”
I frowned “That seems unnecessary.”
“Ben.”
“Fine.”
She watched me for another second. Then said, “One meat type quality improvement.”
Victory. Quiet victory. Dignified victory. I handled it maturely “Excellent.”
Chaeryeong immediately pointed the spoon at me “No.”
“What?”
“That face.”
“What face?”
“The one that says you think you won.”
“I did win.”
“You negotiated permission to ask for one thing.”
“I won politely.”
“You are impossible.”
“I am available.”
That stopped her. Only for a second. But I saw it. The word reached her because it was hers first. Available. Not impressive. Not powerful. Not capable of solving every problem with one call. Available. There. Able to be told no.
Able to be assigned. Able to stay inside the work without taking it over. Chaeryeong looked away first “Then be available and call for one tray.”
“One tray.”
“One.”
“And Ben?”
“Yes?”
“If you use the phrase quality variance to the staff, I will cancel it.”
I placed one hand over my chest “You wound me.”
“I am preventing you.”
“Same thing today.”
I made the request. Normally. Mostly. I used the phrase “if available” instead of “source immediately,” which I felt demonstrated personal growth. Chaeryeong listened with the focus of someone monitoring a dangerous animal near an open gate.
When I ended the call, she nodded once “That was acceptable.”
“High praise.”
“It was not high.”
“I accept medium praise.”
“It was low-medium.”
“I will grow from it.”
She turned back to the prep. I watched her for a moment. Not too long. Long enough. Chaeryeong had changed since breakfast. Not dramatically. That was not her style. She had not become louder. She had not become bolder in the way Ryujin or Yuna did when they found an opening.
But there was less apology in how she moved. When Momo handed her work, she had accepted. When Momo told her to eat, she had listened. When Momo gave her the list, she had not treated it like pressure. She treated it like permission. And now she was using it. On me.
Efficiently. Terrifyingly. I liked it more than I should have. That was a problem for future me. Present me had green onions.
I returned to the counter and set them down. Chaeryeong inspected them. I waited. She looked up.
“You did not do it wrong.”
“Thank you.”
“That was not praise.”
“I accept low-medium praise.”
Her mouth curved. This time she did not hide it quickly enough. I saw. She saw me see. The smile disappeared. Too late.
“Do not look proud,” she said.
“I am not proud.”
“You look proud.”
“I am emotionally supported by your approval.”
“That is worse.”
“Is it?”
“Yes.”
“Noted.”
She handed me a bowl “Mix this.”
I looked inside “What is it?”
“Sauce base.”
“With what?”
“Gochujang, sesame oil, soy sauce, garlic, sugar.”
“How much sugar?”
She looked at me “No.”
“I was only asking.”
“You were about to say something about balance.”
“Balance is important.”
“Dinner is not a board meeting.”
“That is hurtful.”
“It is sauce.”
I took the spoon.
“How do I know when it is right?”
Chaeryeong paused. That was not a normal pause. Not the kind that came from needing to think. The kind that came from realizing someone had asked her what she knew and was waiting for the answer.
She moved closer. Not much. Enough that her shoulder almost aligned with mine.
“You taste it.”
“I did that earlier.”
“And then you listen to what it needs.”
“What if I’m wrong?”
“Then I correct you.”
The answer came too easily. It was the first time that afternoon she did not sound surprised by her own authority. Something settled in me “Okay.”
I mixed. She watched. I tasted “More sesame.”
She tasted after me. Considered. Then nodded “Good.”
There was that word again. This time it was not for me exactly. It was for the sauce. Still, I took damage. Chaeryeong reached for the sesame oil. Her fingers brushed mine.
Accidental. Maybe.
Neither of us moved too quickly. That was the dangerous part. With Ryujin, touch became challenge. With Yuna, touch became ignition. With Yeji, touch became home. With Lia, touch became trust.
With Chaeryeong, touch became a question that immediately started organizing itself into something practical.
She pulled the bottle away. Measured the sesame oil. Added it. Then handed me the spoon again “Now.”
I tasted. She watched my face instead of the sauce. That was new.
“Better,” I said.
“How?”
“Warmer.”
She blinked. Then looked down at the bowl “Not expensive?”
I smiled “Not expensive.”
Her mouth softened “That is better.”
I did not know whether she meant the sauce or me. I chose not to ask. Personal growth. Lia appeared near the doorway with a glass of water and the expression of someone who had already heard enough to understand too much.
She looked at Chaeryeong. Then at me. Then at the folded list on the counter “Is he behaving?”
Chaeryeong answered before I could “Mostly.”
“Low-medium praise,” I said.
Lia’s brows lifted. Chaeryeong sighed.
“He has become attached to the rating system.”
“That sounds like his fault.”
“It is.”
I looked at Lia “I am wounded by this group’s refusal to celebrate my restraint.”
Lia’s gaze moved to the counter “To be fair, the restraint appears externally imposed.”
“Hostile environment.”
“Structured environment,” Chaeryeong corrected.
Lia’s eyes softened at that. Not toward me. Toward Chaeryeong “Good.”
Chaeryeong looked down at the sauce. That word again. Different speaker. Different weight. Lia did not stay long. She only placed the water beside Chaeryeong and said, “Drink too.”
Chaeryeong opened her mouth. Lia gave her a look. Chaeryeong drank. I stared and Lia looked at me “What?”
“Nothing.” I told her.
“You were about to call that efficient.” Lia accused me.
“I was.”
“Don’t.”
She left. Cruel. Correct.
Chaeryeong set the glass down “I was going to drink.”
“I believe you.”
“You do not.”
“I believe you eventually would have remembered thirst exists.”
She looked at me “You are very annoying when you are right.”
“You have no idea how much that sentence sustains me.”
She shook her head and returned to the prep. For a while, we worked without saying much. Actual work. The kind Momo had wanted. Rice washed. Vegetables cut. Sauces adjusted. Meat arranged but not worshiped. Seafood portioned. Side dishes balanced based on what had disappeared fastest at lunch.
Chaeryeong moved through all of it with quiet certainty. Not flawless. That mattered. She checked the list twice. Frowned at the rice once. Asked me to taste another sauce. Corrected my slicing. Corrected my correction. Corrected my posture near the cooler because apparently I looked like I was about to commit procurement.
I had never been so supervised in my life. I had also never minded less. At some point, the upgraded tray arrived. Just one.
As negotiated. Same plan. Better cut. No staff ceremony. No private chef descending from the sky because my childhood had been overfunded.
Chaeryeong inspected it like a customs officer. Then looked at me “One tray. No speech. And do not look like that.”
“I am looking normally.”
“You look like you want applause.”
“I always want applause.”
“You are getting two kisses.”
I froze. Chaeryeong froze too. Because the sentence had left her mouth before either of us could process it. Her face went red immediately “I mean—”
I turned slowly “Two kisses?”
“From Yeji.”
“Ah.”
“Yes.”
“Of course.”
“Because of the treat economy.”
“Naturally.”
“For behaving?”
“For behaving.”
We stared at each other. Then, because apparently I valued danger more than oxygen, I said, “For the record…” Chaeryeong’s eyes narrowed “No.”
“I would not have minded if you had not corrected it.”
The room went very quiet. Not the whole room. Just the small space between us. The sauce. The knife. The folded list. Her hand on the counter. Mine beside it. Chaeryeong looked at me like I had just placed something fragile on the table and then stepped back before she could accuse me of throwing it.
Her face was still red. But she did not look away “That is not helpful,” she said.
“No.”
“It makes things complicated.”
“Yes.”
“You know that.”
“I do.”
“Then why say it?”
I looked at her properly “Because you corrected yourself fast enough to make it sound like you thought you had to.”
Her fingers tightened once against the edge of the counter. I kept my voice even “I am not asking. I am not collecting. I am not turning it into a deal.” Her eyes stayed on mine “I just wanted you to know the first version would not have offended me.”
Chaeryeong swallowed. The silence after that did something strange. It did not push her away. It did not pull her closer either. It only made the air honest enough that neither of us knew what to do with it. Finally, she looked down at the folded list.
“Momo unnie did not authorize that.”
I breathed out a small laugh “No. She did not.”
“And Yeji would drown you.”
“Probably.”
“With herself.”
“Likely.”
Chaeryeong’s mouth twitched. There it was. Tiny. Almost hidden. Not gone fast enough “So,” she said carefully, “from Yeji.”
“From Yeji,” I agreed.
“And only if she agrees.”
“Of course.”
“And only if you keep behaving.”
“That seems conditional.”
“It is.”
“Hostile negotiation settlement?”
“Ben.”
“Witnessed verbal agreement?”
“No.”
“I would like the terms in writing.”
“No.”
“Two kisses is a serious compensation package.”
Her cheeks were still pink. But she did not back down. That was the part that stayed with me. Not the kisses. Not even the fact that I had said too much and somehow survived. It was the fact that she had accidentally stepped into the language of the house, panicked, corrected herself, heard me leave the door open, and then chose not to run from the room.
She could have apologized until the moment disappeared. Instead, she adjusted the terms “If you behave through dinner prep,” she said carefully, “I will tell Yeji you earned two additional treat economy kisses.”
I held out my hand “Deal.” She looked at my hand. Then at me “You are not buying anything else.”
“Deal.”
“No staff replacing work.”
“Deal.”
“No using the phrase compensation package around Yeji.”
I hesitated.
“Ben.”
“Deal.”
She took my hand. A handshake. Simple. Formal. Ridiculous. Her hand was warm from the kitchen. Mine probably smelled like green onions. Romance was dead. Possibly reborn as dinner logistics.
We shook once. She pulled away first. Not quickly. Just first. Then she turned back to the counter “Now cut those.” I looked down at the vegetables “Yes, ma’am.”
She stopped moving. I stopped breathing. The air changed again. Not loudly. No one else would have noticed. But we did. Chaeryeong’s eyes remained on the cutting board “Ben.”
“Yes?”
“Do not say it like that unless you mean to listen.” That one hit somewhere low and quiet. I nodded, even though she was not looking “I meant to listen.” Her fingers tightened around the knife handle. Only once. So I did. And dinner, somehow, kept becoming more dangerous without anyone taking off a single piece of clothing.
For one full second after I said it, neither of us moved. I meant to listen. Apparently, saying that to Chaeryeong while standing close enough to smell sesame oil, lime, and the faint warmth of her skin was a tactical mistake.
Her fingers stayed wrapped around the knife handle. Mine stayed on the counter. Neither of us looked at the vegetables. Outstanding.
Then Chaeryeong recovered first, because of course she did. She pointed at the cutting board “Then listen and cut those thinner.”
I looked down “Yes, ma’am.”
Her eyes flicked up immediately “Ben.”
“Sorry.”
“You said it again.”
“I listened to the instruction.”
“You enjoyed the delivery.”
“That is a separate accusation.”
“It is not.”
“It might be.”
She stared at me. I picked up the knife “Normal words. Thin vegetables. No emotional crimes.”
“Good.” That should not have felt like praise. It did. This vacation was damaging me.
Dinner prep continued with the kind of efficiency that suggested Chaeryeong had been waiting her entire life for someone to hand her a list, a kitchen station, and permission to tell a billionaire ‘no’.
I tried to help. Actually help. Wash. Cut. Taste. Carry. Adjust. Not improve. Not solve. Not quietly turn dinner into a private procurement operation wearing an apron. Chaeryeong noticed every time I even thought about it. At one point, I looked toward the rice cooker for too long “No.”
“I am looking at rice.”
“You are evaluating rice.”
“Rice quality matters.”
“Rice quantity matters first.”
“Both can be true.”
“Normal words.”
I took a breath “The rice should be enough for everyone.”
“Good.”
“But texture—”
“No.”
I pointed at the rice cooker “It is not rich to care about texture.”
“It becomes rich when you look like you want to call someone.”
“I wanted to ask the kitchen.”
“The kitchen already sent rice.”
“For lunch.”
“For dinner too.”
“But dinner rice deserves—”
“Ben.”
I closed my mouth. Chaeryeong looked satisfied. Then, after half a second, she added, “We can make a fresh batch.” I stared at her. She looked back “Normal fresh batch. Here. Ours. No staff.”
I placed one hand over my chest “You compromise beautifully.”
“That sounded expensive.”
“It was emotional.”
“Then it is worse.”
We were still arguing about rice texture when everyone else started drifting back toward the table. Not all at once. People never arrived all at once here unless there was gossip or food. Tonight had both.
Yeji appeared first, because she had apparently installed a tracking system for my emotional stupidity. Her eyes moved from my face to Chaeryeong’s, then to the folded list sitting near the sauces “How is he?”
Chaeryeong did not hesitate “Manageable.”
I lifted one finger “I object to the emotional tone of that report.”
Yeji smiled “Manageable is a promotion.”
“From what?”
Chaeryeong glanced at the list “Dangerous.”
I lowered my finger “That is hurtful.”
“It is progress,” Lia said from behind Yeji.
I turned. Lia had arrived quietly, of course. She held a glass of water and looked far too peaceful for someone walking into an active rice dispute “You too?”
“I am proud of your growth.”
“That sounds supportive.”
“It is.”
“Why does it hurt?”
“Because growth often does.”
Ryujin appeared beside her and leaned over the counter “Did he behave?” Chaeryeong considered this seriously. I disliked the pause “He behaved enough.” Yuna gasped from behind Ryujin “That is basically a medal.” I looked at the ceiling “I have been reduced to enough.”
Yeji stepped closer. Her gaze softened when it landed on Chaeryeong “And does he deserve treats?”
Chaeryeong went pink immediately. Ryujin’s head snapped toward her “Treats?” Yuna’s eyes widened “There are negotiated treats?” Lia closed her eyes “Of course there are.” Chaeryeong looked at Yeji instead of them “He followed the list. Mostly.”
“Mostly,” I repeated, offended.
“You argued about rice.”
“Rice deserves respect.”
“You argued about respect for rice.”
“Because it deserves it.”
Yeji looked like she was trying not to laugh. Then she turned to Chaeryeong “So he earned them?” Chaeryeong’s face was still pink, but she nodded “He did listen.” That was the dangerous sentence. Not “he behaved.” Not “he helped.”— He did listen.
Yeji looked at me. The whole table area seemed to know before I did. I straightened “Do I receive the award now or after dinner?” Ryujin made a disgusted sound “He called it an award.” Yuna whispered, “He’s serious.”
“I am always serious about treat economy.”
Yeji stepped close enough that the joke dropped out of me before it could fully form “One now,” she said. My soul left my body in a dignified manner “One later?”
“If you keep behaving.”
“Define behaving.”
Chaeryeong said, “Not negotiating the second treat.”
I looked at her. She looked back. Traitor. Accurate traitor. Yeji reached up, caught the front of my shirt, and pulled me down into a kiss. Not cheek. Not long enough to scandalize the table. Not short enough to be dismissed as pity. A real kiss.
When she pulled back, my brain was empty enough to qualify as vacation property. Ryujin slapped the counter “This is horrifyingly effective.”
Yuna pointed at Yeji “Leadership.”
Lia smiled “Structure.”
Chaeryeong looked down at the list, but she was smiling too. I touched my mouth “That was not low-medium.”
Yeji’s cheeks pinked “Back to rice.”
“Yes, love.”
Ryujin groaned “He’s trained.”
“I am cherished,” I corrected.
“Same leash, prettier collar.”
“Ryujin,” Yeji said.
“What? I’m supporting your system.”
Before that could become legally worse, Sana and Nayeon arrived with the rest of TWICE scattered behind them. Dahyun looked at the prep table, then at my face, then at Yeji’s face. I pointed at her immediately “No.”
She lowered the imaginary microphone before it fully formed “Suppressed before broadcast.”
“Good.”
Mina looked at the sauces. Then at Chaeryeong “This is well organized.” Chaeryeong’s whole posture changed. Not dramatically. But enough “Thank you.”
Momo would have been proud. Which was apparently the thought that summoned her. She and John came back from the direction of the water, hair still damp, skin still carrying the shine of the ocean and sun. Momo looked bright.
John looked like someone had taken his internal checklist and thrown it into seawater. They approached the prep table just as I was explaining why fresh rice needed precise timing. Chaeryeong was disagreeing with the patience of a saint holding a knife. Momo stopped beside us.
Her eyes moved over the bowls, the sauces, the meat tray, the fresh rice setup, then Chaeryeong “How is dinner?”
Chaeryeong straightened “Manageable.”
John looked at me. I lifted both hands “I am being slandered by that word.”
Chaeryeong added, “He has improved.”
Momo looked at me. Then back at Chaeryeong “Did he try rich?”
“Yes.”
“Mildly,” I said.
Chaeryeong ignored me “One meat type. No private chef. No extra grill. No staff replacement. Fresh rice here. Ours.”
Momo nodded slowly. Then looked at me “No more.” I opened my mouth. Momo’s eyes narrowed. I closed my mouth. John leaned toward me “Good choice.”
“You look salty.”
“I was in the ocean.”
“That was literal. I meant emotionally.”
“I know.”
Momo sat at the table with the calm certainty of someone who had done enough for the day. Then she lifted her plate toward John “Dinner Momo is princess Momo.”
The entire pavilion paused. Nayeon’s eyes lit like fireworks. Sana pressed both hands to her mouth. Jihyo looked at the ceiling, not stopping it, ‘Vacation Jihyo’ was dangerous because she had begun letting consequences happen naturally.
John stared at Momo “Princess Momo requires service?”
“Yes.”
He accepted the plate. Smart man. I looked at Yeji and she pointed at me without even turning fully.
“No.”
“I have not said anything.”
“You made the copying-John face.”
“It was an inspiration face.”
“No.”
Ryujin leaned forward from the table “Let him ask.”
Yuna nodded “For science.”
Lia shook her head “For chaos.”
Chaeryeong looked at Momo’s list “Public feeding was not included.”
I stared at her “You added that emotionally.”
“You do that with everything.”
Fairly unfair. Mostly fair. Dinner finally began because Momo tapped her plate once and said, “Food.” John grilled. I helped. Chaeryeong ran the side dishes like a quiet military operation. Yeji stayed close enough that every time I tried to become impossible, she only had to look at me.
The first upgraded cut came off the grill with annoying dignity. I wanted to say something. Chaeryeong saw me inhale “No speech.” I exhaled.
John handed the first serving to Momo. Momo tasted. Then nodded “Good.” I felt vindicated. Chaeryeong pointed at me before I could speak “No.”
I said nothing. Heroism. Dinner moved after that. Meat, rice, sauce, vegetables. John feeding Momo because Princess Momo had apparently survived snorkeling and chosen monarchy. Momo feeding John back whenever he pretended he was only cooking.
The table reacted every time until the reactions became part of the meal. Sana called it romantic. Nayeon called it proof. Mina called it efficient intimacy. Jihyo said nothing because she was apparently choosing peace at a professional level now. I tried to use the opening once. Only once. I held a bite toward Yeji. She looked at it. Then at me “No.”
I withdrew it politely. Then she sighed “Not in front of everybody.”
The table reacted so hard that I almost dropped the chopsticks. Ryujin stood halfway from her seat “There is a clause.” Yuna slapped her arm “There is absolutely a clause.” Lia covered her mouth, smiling. Chaeryeong looked at the rice like it could save her.
Yeji’s face went red.
I looked at her with the controlled expression of a man receiving divine law “Private feeding remains under review?”
“Benjie.”
“Question withdrawn.”
“For now,” Tzuyu said calmly.
Everyone looked at her. Tzuyu continued eating. I leaned toward Yeji “She gets it.”
“You are not recruiting Tzuyu into your case.”
“Too late.”
Yeji gave me a look. I behaved. For approximately eleven minutes. Then the second treat came due. Not because I asked. I had learned. No, the second treat came because Chaeryeong, traitor to peace, said quietly while placing another bowl down, “He did keep behaving.” I looked up. Yeji looked at Chaeryeong. Chaeryeong’s ears turned pink, but she did not retract it. Yeji looked back at me. I tried not to look hopeful and failed so badly that Ryujin actually groaned.
“He has puppy eyes.”
“I do not.”
“You have billionaire puppy eyes. Worse.”
Yeji stood. I stayed very still. She walked over, touched my shoulder, and kissed my cheek. Soft. Sweet. Not hidden. “Second,” she said.
I looked at her “Logged.”
“Do not say logged.”
“Emotionally recorded.”
“Worse.”
Momo, from her seat, nodded like this was proper system maintenance “Good.”
John looked at her “You’re approving this?”
“Yes.”
“You started a monarchy.”
“Princess Momo approves affection.”
Sana nearly folded into Nayeon. Jihyo whispered, “This vacation is out of hand.” No one believed she wanted it back in hand. Dinner stretched later than it should have. That was how comfort worked, apparently. No one announced it. Plates emptied slowly. Drinks appeared. Jihyo allowed beer without turning it into a policy.
Nayeon and Sana kept drifting into Japanese whenever they wanted to make John nervous.
Mina watched quietly.
Dahyun behaved only because Jihyo threatened dish duty.
Ryujin and Yuna became increasingly convinced that Chaeryeong had discovered the ideal method of controlling me and should teach a class.
Chaeryeong told them there was no class.
Ryujin said that was what all powerful teachers said.
Then Momo leaned into John’s side with a glass in her hand. Very carefully. Too carefully “I think I had too many,” she said. The table went silent in the worst possible way. I looked at her glass. One and a half drinks at most. Maybe. John looked at the glass too. Then at Momo. Then, wisely, stopped asking questions with his face “You do?”
Momo nodded with exaggerated seriousness “Yes. I need help.”
Nayeon made a sound into her hand. Sana turned away, shoulders shaking. Jeongyeon looked down like she refused to be listed as a witness. Mina blinked slowly. Jihyo took one long sip of her drink and chose peace so hard it looked like strategy. Momo stood. Perfectly steady. Then placed one hand on John’s arm “Help.”
John stood. Of course he did. Some lies deserved cooperation. Ryujin leaned toward Yuna “She is not drunk.” Yuna whispered back, “She is committed.” Lia whispered, “That is worse.” Chaeryeong looked at her cup “She said too many very clearly.”
I pressed my lips together. Momo heard us anyway “Quiet.”
Nayeon said something in Japanese. Sana answered instantly. Mina added one calm line. Momo turned pink. John looked desperate “What did they say?”
I cleared my throat “As a reminder, I understand.”
Everyone turned to me. Mistake. Nayeon smiled “Translate and no treat economy.” Sana added, “For the rest of the night.” Ryujin raised a hand “ITZY supports.” Yuna nodded “Fully.” Lia smiled “A united front.” Chaeryeong lifted Momo’s list “No negotiated exceptions.”
My soul left my body. I turned to Yeji “Love?” Yeji kissed my cheek once. A warning disguised as mercy “Do not translate.”
I looked at John with grave sorrow “I have once again lost access to Japanese.” John stared “You are the weakest man alive.”
“I am loved and strategically contained.”
“That is not an answer.”
“It is the only answer I am allowed to survive.”
Momo pulled John away before he could ask again. They left down the resort path, hand in hand, Momo walking with the fake solemnity of a woman pretending the floor was less stable than it was. The table waited until they were far enough away. Then exploded. Not loudly. Worse— Whispered. Speculative. Multilingual. I caught enough Japanese to regret knowing languages. Yeji touched my arm “Do not.”
“I did not say anything.”
“You looked informed.”
“I am burdened by knowledge.”
“You are threatened by treaty.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
Her eyes widened. So did mine. Chaeryeong choked softly into her drink. Ryujin whipped her head around “What was that?”
“Nothing.”
“Ben.”
“Rice.” I looked at Chaeryeong. Chaeryeong looked away.
We made it approximately fifteen minutes after that before the first sound reached the table. Not clear. Not detailed. Just enough. ITZY froze but TWICE groaned.
That was the difference. ITZY reacted like newcomers encountering weather that should not exist indoors. TWICE reacted like people who had already purchased insurance.
Nayeon closed her eyes “There it is.” Sana pressed both hands to her mouth and started laughing anyway. Jeongyeon set her drink down “Predictable.” Mina sighed softly “Inconvenient timing.” Tzuyu looked toward the path “Very audible.” Jihyo rubbed her forehead “I am grateful for the headphones.”
Yuna stared “Headphones?”
Dahyun nodded solemnly “Noise-control protocol.”
Ryujin looked offended “You had protocol?”
Nayeon opened one eye “With Momo? You learn.”
Lia put both hands over her face. Chaeryeong stared down at the table like it had failed her personally. Yeji’s ears went red beside me. I sat very still. Not shocked. Strategic. Ryujin turned toward me. Slowly “Wow.”
“No.”
“You and Yeji have been dethroned.”
Yeji’s head snapped up “What?”
Ryujin pointed toward the path “They put you two to shame.”
I choked on air. Yuna made a sound somewhere between scandal and applause. Lia whispered, “Ryujin.”
“What? Spiritually respectfully.”
“That is still not a phrase.”
The second sound ended the night. Jihyo stood “Okay. We are done.” No one argued. Vacation Jihyo was choosing peace, but apparently peace included evacuation. TWICE moved with the efficient resignation of people who had done this before. ITZY moved like people still processing that soundproofing had levels. Ryujin looked like she had been denied a documentary. Yuna looked like she wanted to ask Sana for terminology. Lia looked like she wanted to stop existing near context clues. Chaeryeong stepped away first.
I noticed. Yeji noticed me notice. She touched my wrist before I stood “She’s not upset.” I looked at her. Yeji’s gaze followed Chaeryeong toward the pool path “She is organizing the feeling.”
That sounded painfully accurate “You okay? You had quite a lot.” I asked.
Yeji’s mouth curved faintly “I am okay enough for tonight.”
“That is not a normal answer.”
“It is an honest one.”
I lifted her hand and kissed her knuckles. She narrowed her eyes “Do not make it dramatic.”
“I am being emotionally efficient.”
“Suspiciously.”
“Do you want me to stay?”
Her eyes softened. That was the wrong question. Or maybe the right one. She looked toward Chaeryeong, then back at me “Go.”
“Yeji.”
“I am not sending you away.” Her fingers tightened around mine once “I am letting you not pretend you did not notice.”
That one landed. Cleanly. Then she added, softer, “Come back after.”
“I will.”
“You better.”
I kissed her knuckles again. This time she let me. Then I went toward the pool.
Chaeryeong sat at the edge with her feet in the water. The pool lights made the surface look soft and false, all blue shimmer and broken reflections.
She did not turn when I approached “That was loud,” she said.
I stopped beside her “I assume you mean dinner.”
“I meant Momo unnie.”
“Right.”
She looked at the water “For someone who was fake-drunk, she has very strong lungs.” I pressed my lips together. Chaeryeong glanced at me “Do not laugh.”
“I am behaving.”
“That is rare.”
“I am being emotionally structured.”
She looked at me then “Did Yeji teach you that phrase?”
“Unfortunately, I invented it.”
“That explains why it sounds expensive.”
I sat beside her, leaving enough space that she could decide whether it was too much. She noticed “You sit like you are waiting for permission.”
“I am.”
“For sitting?”
“For staying.”
The water moved around her ankles. She looked down at it “For sitting, yes.” I nodded. We stayed quiet for a moment. Not empty quiet. Thinking quiet. The kind Chaeryeong did better than most people. Finally, she said, “Ryujin would have jumped in.”
“Probably.”
“Yuna would have pushed someone.”
“Definitely.”
“Lia would sit here and say something beautiful.”
“That sounds right.”
“I am not doing any of those.”
“What are you doing?”
She looked at the pool again “Testing if I can want something without making it everyone’s problem.” I did not answer too quickly. That felt important. Chaeryeong kept her eyes on the water “You were easier today.”
“I was?”
“At the grill.”
“That is not usually where I am easiest.”
“You let people tell you what to do.”
“I was outnumbered.”
“You listened.” then, after a pause “To me.”
The quiet changed. Not heavier. Closer “I liked it,” she said “You listening to me.” The pool water moved. She watched it like it might carry the rest of the sentence away if she waited long enough. It did not.
“I am attracted to you,” she said. Plain. Careful. Terrifying. Then she swallowed “I am also trying to be rational.”
“You can be rational and still want things.”
“I know.” Her mouth twisted faintly “That is the problem.”
“You do not have to do anything with that tonight.”
She glanced at me “I think I know.”
“It counts with me even if nothing happens.”
That made her look away again. Fast. Not hiding. Recovering “I do not want to be treated like I am fragile, but I also do not want to prove I am not.”
“Then you do not have to.” Her shoulders lowered. Just a little. The night moved around us. Far off, someone laughed near the pavilion. Closer, the pool shifted against the tile. Chaeryeong pulled one foot through the water slowly “I do not know what this is.”
“That makes two of us.”
“That is not reassuring.”
“It was honest.”
A tiny smile touched her mouth “Unfortunately, that is reassuring.”
We sat there until the silence stopped feeling like something that needed filling. Then she pulled her feet from the pool and stood. For a second, I thought that was the end of it. Maybe it was. Maybe that was why it worked. She looked down at me. “I drank enough to do one irresponsible thing.”
I blinked “I thought sitting with me was the irresponsible thing.”
“No.”
She stepped closer. Not much. Enough. Then she leaned down and kissed my cheek. Impossible to misunderstand. When she pulled back, her face was red, but her eyes were steady “That was my irresponsible thing.”
My hand lifted to my cheek like an idiot. She noticed “Good night, Ben.”
“Chaeryeong.”
She paused. Not turning fully “You should not keep Yeji waiting.” Then she walked away. Not running. Not vanishing. Walking.
And I understood, sitting there beside the pool with one cheek still warm and the night air pressing against my chest, that she had not jumped into the water yet. But she had touched it. That mattered.
I sat by the pool for another minute after Chaeryeong left. Not because I needed the time. Because I absolutely needed the time. My cheek still felt warm. Ridiculous.
It was a cheek kiss. I had survived much worse than a cheek kiss… Allegedly.
But Chaeryeong had done it like someone making a choice instead of testing a reaction, and that made it harder to dismiss. She had stepped forward, touched the water, then left before either of us could turn the moment into something easier.
That was very Chaeryeong. Careful. Quiet. Devastating in delayed delivery.
I eventually stood and headed back toward the villa, the resort paths calmer now that dinner had finally surrendered to night. The lamps were low. The ocean kept moving somewhere beyond the trees. Farther away, the pavilion had softened into scattered voices and cleaning sounds.
Behind one closed villa door, Momo and John were hopefully finished being a public safety concern. I did not check, I would not have survived the 8 other women keeping tabs.
When I reached the room, Yeji was awake. That was the first warning. She was sitting on the edge of the bed in one of my shirts, legs tucked beneath her, hair loose around her shoulders, cheeks warm from whatever drink Sana had convinced her counted as harmless.
The room was dim except for the bedside lamp. Soft… too soft. Her eyes lifted the moment the door closed behind me “You’re late.” I paused with one hand still on the doorknob “I was gone for eight minutes.”
“Late.”
“By what standard?”
“Mine.”
That was not legally sound. It was, unfortunately, very Yeji. I slipped off my sandals and crossed the room “You okay?”
Her eyes narrowed “Don’t manager-voice me.”
“That was boyfriend voice.”
“You used worried eyebrows.”
“I have expressive eyebrows.”
“You have guilty eyebrows.”
“I did nothing.”
She watched me for one second too long. Then her gaze moved to my cheek. My body remembered before my brain did. The cheek kiss. Chaeryeong. The pool. I stayed still.
Yeji’s eyes softened, but not in the way I expected. Something that had been waiting for me and had already decided it did not want to ask. She held out both hands “Come here.”
I went. Obviously. There were many things in the world I could resist. Yeji telling me to come over to bed was clearly not one of them.
The second I got close enough, Yeji caught the front of my shirt and pulled me down until I stood between her knees. Her face tilted up to mine, still flushed, still soft, still trying to look composed while absolutely failing at it “I missed you,” she said.
That was the second warning. Sober Yeji did not say things like that without pretending she meant something practical. Tipsy Yeji said it like a complaint. I softened “I came back.”
“You took too long.”
“I’m here now.”
She considered that. Then nodded once, as if accepting evidence “Good.”
Then she kissed me. Not sweetly. Not lazily. She kissed me like she wanted to skip every conversation between the door and the bed. Her hands moved up my shirt. Her body leaned into mine. Her knees tightened lightly against my sides, pulling me closer in a way I knew too well to misunderstand. My hands found her waist out of habit.
For one second, I almost followed. Almost. Then I tasted the sweetness of the drink still on her mouth. Felt the slight looseness in the way she clung. Heard the softness in her breathing that had less to do with wanting and more to do with needing proof fast. I caught her wrist gently “Yeji.”
She kissed along my jaw instead “Don’t manager-voice me.”
“Babe…”
Her hand tried to slide lower. I held it softly. Not trapping. Stopping “Not tonight.”
She went still. Completely. Like the words had cut through every warm thing in the room. Her eyes lifted to mine “No?”
One word. Small. Too small. Then her eyes filled before she had time to stop them. Not slowly, immediately.
Like the ‘no’ had opened something she had been holding shut with both hands. My chest went tight “Yeji.”
“You don’t want me.”
“That is not what I said.”
“You said no.”
“Because you drank.”
Her mouth trembled “You never say ‘no’ when you want me.”
That one hit hard enough that I had to breathe before answering. Because I understood what had happened. The alcohol had not made her afraid. It had only taken away the part of her that knew how to make fear sound mature.
“I want you,” I said carefully.
She shook her head “You said no.”
“I said no to sex. Not to you.”
“It feels the same right now.”
“I know.”
“You’re supposed to say it doesn’t.”
“It doesn’t.” I moved my thumb over the back of her hand “But I know it feels that way.”
She stared at me through tears, angry at herself for crying before I had even done anything cruel. That made it worse “I know you’re right,” she said, voice breaking “I know you’re being good. I know I drank too much. I know you respect me. I know this is what you’re supposed to do.” Her fingers curled weakly into my shirt “But it still feels like no.”
I let go of her wrist and cupped her face instead. She leaned into it immediately, like some part of her had been waiting to be held even while another part tried to turn fear into sex “I know,” I said.
“No, you don’t.”
“Then tell me.”
That made her cry harder. Not because she did not want to. Because she did. Because she remembered everything. Because she knew exactly what she was saying, and the only thing the alcohol had done was remove the locks. “I know I asked you to help them,” she whispered.
“I know.” I reassured her.
“I meant it.”
“I know you did.”
“I wanted you to care about them.”
“I do.”
“I still want that.”
“I know.”
Her breath broke “But the little stupid part of me doesn’t care.” I went still. Yeji’s hands tightened in my shirt as if she could hold herself together by holding me harder “The childish part of me heard no and thought you were leaving.” Her voice turned smaller. Almost ashamed. “The childish part of me wants to take you back and lock the door and say mine until everyone understands it.”
She tried to look away. I did not let her hide. Not by force. Just by staying close enough that she could feel I had not moved away from the confession “That part of you is not stupid.”
“It is.”
“It is scared.”
“It’s selfish.”
“Maybe.”
She blinked “You’re not supposed to say maybe.” I brushed a tear from her cheek “She is scared,” I said softly “That does not make her wrong.” Yeji broke then. Fully. Not loudly. Not dramatically. Just with the exhausted collapse of someone who had been mature for too long and had finally found the one room where maturity was not required.
I pulled her against me. She came immediately, arms around my waist, face pressed into my stomach, crying into my shirt like she hated every second of needing this and needed it anyway “I don’t want to be mature tonight,” she said.
“Then don’t.”
“I don’t want to be leader.”
“Then don’t.”
“I don’t want to share you for five minutes.”
My throat tightened “Then for tonight, you don’t have to.”
“That’s not fair.”
“That’s tonight.”
“I said yes.”
“You did.”
“I chose this.”
“You did.”
“I meant it then, and I still do”
“I know, babe.”
She looked up at me, wrecked and angry and vulnerable in a way sober Yeji would have hidden behind ten layers of discipline “Then why does it still hurt?” I bent down and kissed her forehead “Because meaning it did not make you stop needing me.” Her face crumpled again. I sat beside her and pulled her into my lap properly this time.
Not as an invitation to anything else. As a place to fall apart without disappearing. She clung to me. I held her. No sex. No quick proof. No letting fear use her body to ask for reassurance when what she needed was my voice, my hands, my patience, and every soft thing rational Yeji usually pretended she did not want.
“You are not one of many to me,” I said. Her fingers tightened in my shirt “No one becomes you by wanting me.” I stroked her hair as I said it. Her breath caught “No one takes your place because your place is not available for anyone else.” She pressed her face closer to my chest. For a moment, I thought she was crying harder. Then her voice came small against me “Say the home thing.”
I went still “The what?” She rubbed her cheek against my shirt, embarrassed even while asking “You know.” I softened so completely it almost hurt. I kissed the top of her head.
“You are my home.” Her shoulders lowered by one careful inch “Again.”
“You are my home, Yeji.” Her hand gripped my shirt harder “Again.”
I held her closer “You are where I come back whole.”
A shaky breath left her “More.”
Sober Yeji would have died before asking for that. Tipsy Yeji only hid her face and waited. So I gave it to her “Ryujin makes me chase the fire,” I whispered “Yuna reminds me joy is allowed to be loud. Lia makes me slow down. Chaeryeong makes me listen.”
Yeji stayed very still “But you…” Her breathing hitched “You are the room I want to come back to after all of it.” Her fingers curled tighter.
“You are where I stop performing. Where I stop managing. Where I stop trying to become useful enough to deserve staying.” I kissed her hair “You are not the part of my life I visit when I have time, Yeji. You are my life and I would not want it any other way. You are the place I keep choosing to return to.”
“Again,” she whispered.
So I said it again. And again. Not exactly the same each time. Because she needed the shape more than the wording
“You are home.”
“You are my home.”
“You are where I come back whole.”
“You are the person I reach for when I’m tired of being needed.”
“You are the one who knows me when I stop explaining.”
“You are not replaceable.”
“You are not temporary.”
“You are not losing me by letting me care for them.”
Her crying softened into something quieter. Not gone. Held. She lifted her face just enough to look at me “Even when I’m selfish?”
“Especially when you are scared.”
“That’s not what I asked.”
“I know.”
“Benjie.”
I wiped her cheek with my thumb “Even when you are selfish.” Her lip trembled “Even when I don’t want to share?”
“For tonight, you don’t have to.”
“That’s childish.”
“Then be childish here.”
Her eyes closed “I want stupid affection.” A small smile tugged at my mouth “How stupid?”
“Very.”
“Dangerous request.”
“I know.”
I kissed her forehead. Then her cheek. Then the corner of her mouth. Then her forehead again because she leaned into it like she was collecting proof “You’re beautiful.”
“More.”
“You’re beautiful when you’re brave.”
A kiss. “Beautiful when you’re tired of being brave.”
Another kiss. “Beautiful when you’re pretending you don’t need this.”
And then another. “Beautiful when you ask for it anyway.”
Her fingers tightened “Again.”
“Which part?”
“All of it.”
So I gave her all of it. Every ridiculous kiss. Every soft word. Every piece of affection rational Yeji would have tried to dodge before it got too close and tonight, she did not dodge. Tonight, she received it with both hands and asked for more.
After a while, her crying had softened into hiccups against my shirt “Benjie.”
“I’m here, babe.”
“Can I ask for something embarrassing?”
“Always.”
She hid her face harder “Princess-wife-girlfriend treatment.”
I went still for half a second. Then kissed her hair “Okay.”
“Not joking.”
“I know.”
“Soft.”
I held her closer “My princess-wife-girlfriend.” Her whole body relaxed at the words “Again.”
She went quiet. Then, smaller “That one too.” So I kept saying it. Until the title became less important than the truth underneath it. Until her breathing slowed. Until her hand stopped clutching my shirt like she was afraid I would disappear if she stopped holding on. When she finally let me shift us down onto the bed, she complained with her eyes closed “Don’t leave.”
“I’m not leaving.”
“Don’t move.”
“I have to move enough to lie down.”
“No.”
“Yeji.”
“Princess-wife-girlfriend.”
I kissed her forehead “My princess-wife-girlfriend.” She accepted that. Barely. I settled on my back and pulled her against me. She immediately curled into my side, one leg thrown over mine, one arm across my waist, face tucked against my chest like the rest of the world had lost access. For a while, she fought sleep. Stubbornly. Pointlessly. Beautifully. “Benjie,” she mumbled.
“I’m here.”
“I lo…”
I stopped breathing. The rest of the word dissolved against my chest before it could finish. Sleep took it. I stayed completely still. Like moving too fast might scare the unfinished sentence away. Then I kissed the top of her head “I know,” I whispered. My hand moved slowly over her hair “I love you too.” I told her before falling asleep myself with Yeji in my arms.
Morning came too bright. Not violently. Just unfairly. The kind of sunlight that slipped through the curtains and behaved like it had no respect for emotional recovery. I woke up slowly.
Warm and physically pinned down by the love of my life…
Yeji was still half on top of me, hair messy against my chest, one leg hooked over mine, face soft with sleep. For one peaceful second, everything was perfect. Then Yeji made a tiny sound. Her body went still.
Completely still. Not waking-still. It was discovery-still. I felt her fingers twitch. Then freeze. Her head lifted from my chest with the slow horror of someone realizing her hand had apparently conducted unauthorized diplomacy in enemy territory underneath my pants.
Her eyes lowered. Then widened. She yanked her hand back like I had personally set it on fire “Oh my God.”
I blinked down at her. Processed the situation. Processed her face. Processed the fact that she was now trying to become one with my chest out of pure shame.
Then I kissed the top of her head “Good morning, princess-wife-girlfriend.”
She made a sound that had no official language classification “Do not call me that.”
“You requested the title.”
“I was tipsy.”
“You were very specific.”
“I remember.”
That made it worse. She groaned and tried to roll away. I caught her around the waist and pulled her back before she escaped into mortification.
“Nope. You are not running away.”
“Let me die.”
“Denied.”
“Benjie.”
“You started the morning with your hand somewhere very ambitious. I feel I have earned veto power.”
She buried her face harder against me “I was asleep.”
“Your hand was not.”
“I hate you.”
“No, you don’t.”
“I hate my hand.”
“It seemed fond of me.”
She slapped my chest weakly “Stop.”
I laughed softly. Then softened when her shoulders went small again. Not crying. Not yet. Remembering. The night returned to her face in pieces. The no. The crying. The home thing. Princess-wife-girlfriend. I watched her remember everything and hate that she remembered everything.
She groaned, but the corner of her mouth moved despite herself. Then she went quiet “I was selfish.”
“You were scared.”
“Both.”
“Both is allowed.”
Her fingers curled lightly against my chest “I remember what you said.”
“Good.”
“You said it a lot.”
“You asked.”
Her face turned pink “I know.”
I touched her cheek. She did not pull away “That part was nice,” she admitted.
“The crying?”
“No.”
“The unauthorized hand placement?”
“Benjie.”
“The home thing?”
Her eyes softened. Then lowered “Yes.” I kissed her forehead “You are home.” Her breath caught. Even sober, it still reached her. Maybe especially sober. She looked at me for a long moment. Still mine in every way she allowed herself to be. Then she whispered, “Again.”
So I said it again. And this time, she did not hide from it “You are my home, Yeji.” Her eyes closed. “You are where I come back whole.” Her hand flattened against my chest. “You are not replaceable.” Her breath trembled once. “You are not temporary.”
She opened her eyes again. Still damp around the edges. Still embarrassed. Still Yeji. “Okay,” she whispered.
“Okay?”
She nodded once “I can go to breakfast now.”
“You say that like breakfast is a battle.”
“With this group?” She sat up slowly, dragging my shirt around herself like armor “It is.”
I looked at her. Her hair was a mess. Her cheeks were still pink. Her dignity had returned just enough to make her dangerous. I loved had returned just enough to make her dangerous. I loved her so much it almost felt impractical. She noticed. Of course she noticed “Do not look at me like that.”
“Like what?”
“Like you are about to say something that will make me cry again.”
“I was not.”
“You were.”
“I was going to say you look beautiful.”
She stared at me. Then looked away “That counts.”
“Does it?”
“Yes.”
“Do I get a treat for emotional restraint?”
She slowly turned back toward me “Benjie.”
“Too early?”
“Much too early.”
“So later?”
She threw a pillow at my face. Progress.
By the time we reached the breakfast pavilion, I already knew something was wrong. Not dangerous wrong. Socially fatal wrong. Ryujin was too still. Yuna was too bright. Lia looked concerned enough to be quiet.
Chaeryeong sat with her cup held in both hands, gaze moving from Yeji to me and back again like she was trying to solve something without touching it.
TWICE was already there too. That made it worse. Nayeon had her face arranged into casual interest, which meant she was storing ammunition. Sana looked soft but alert. Jihyo had coffee and the expression of a woman choosing not to lead unless the table caught fire. Jeongyeon sat near John’s empty chair with water already placed in front of it. Mina looked calm. Tzuyu was eating. Dahyun was quiet.
That was never safe, but at least she was quiet. Momo had not arrived yet. Neither had John.
Which meant the universe had given me approximately thirty seconds before another disaster arrived holding hands with evidence. Yeji brushed my hand with hers. Not holding it. Almost. She was still pink from the morning. Still soft around the edges. Still trying to look normal when I knew exactly how much of last night she remembered. I took the seat beside her.
Ryujin’s eyes narrowed “You.” I blinked “Good morning to you too.” Yuna pointed her spoon at me “We heard her.”
The table changed. Not loudly. Not dramatically. Just enough. Yeji froze beside me. Lia closed her eyes “Yuna.”
“What? We did.”
Ryujin leaned forward “We heard Yeji cry.”
The pavilion went quiet. Even Nayeon stopped looking amused. Sana’s expression softened. Mina looked at me. Jihyo lowered her cup. No pressure. No immediate shutdown. Just listening. Yeji’s face flushed. Not cutely, exposed.
I kept my hands on the table. Visible. Still. Because I knew what it sounded like from the other side of a wall. Ryujin’s glare sharpened “Explain.”
“Ryujin,” Yeji said. Her voice was calm. Too calm. Leader voice trying to protect a place where wife voice had cracked open the night before. Ryujin did not back down “No. We heard you.” Yuna’s voice came smaller “We thought something happened.”
Before Yeji could answer, footsteps came from the pavilion entrance. Momo and John arrived together. Of course they did. Momo looked relaxed. Not rested. Relaxed.
John looked alive, tired, hydrated, and spiritually compromised. For half a second, everyone forgot the unfinished interrogation. Because Momo smiled at Chaeryeong and said, “Good morning, Chaeryeong. Did you sleep okay after dinner? You worked hard, so I hope Ben did not make your dreams expensive.”
Chaeryeong froze. Ryujin leaned forward. Yuna pointed “Wait.” Lia’s smile widened. Yeji lowered her cup slightly. Chaeryeong blinked “Momo unnie?”
Momo tilted her head “What?”
“You are talking.”
Momo frowned “I always talk.”
Ryujin shook her head “No, you talk. But this is talking-talking.”
Yuna nodded quickly “That was a whole sentence with a joke and follow-up care.”
Lia added, “And a Ben insult.”
I lifted one finger “I object to being used as a linguistic milestone.”
Yeji patted my arm “You are useful.”
“I am emotionally conflicted by that.”
Chaeryeong was still staring at Momo “I’m used to you being quieter,” she said. “Before. During schedules. Even when you were nice, it was usually short.” Momo sat beside John, still close enough to him that the table absolutely noticed “That was work Momo, this is vacation.”
ITZY stared. TWICE did not. Nayeon leaned back, satisfied “There it is.” Sana covered her mouth, eyes sparkling “Vacation Momo.” Jeongyeon took a sip of coffee “She has always been like that when she is comfortable.” Jihyo nodded “Or happy.” Mina added, “Or serious.” Dahyun lifted one finger, then seemed to remember the table’s earlier tension and lowered it without speaking. Progress. Tzuyu looked at ITZY “It is official.”
Chaeryeong looked from one member to another “So this is normal?”
“For us?” Jeongyeon said. “Yes.”
“For other people?” Mina said “Probably surprising.”
Ryujin grinned “So we are seeing rare content.”
Momo pointed at her “Do not make me sound like a limited photocard.”
Yuna gasped “She is still going.”
Nayeon clasped Sana’s arm “She really is in vacation mode.”
Sana leaned forward, delighted “Momo, say more.”
“No.”
The table laughed. Momo tried to look annoyed. Failed. For a moment, breakfast almost found a rhythm again. Almost. Then Ryujin’s eyes shifted back to Yeji. The concern returned. Less sharp now. But still there.
“Okay,” Ryujin said. “Momo unnie using full sentences is important.” Momo blinked. “But we were talking about Yeji crying.”
The table quieted again. Not as hard this time. Enough. Momo’s expression changed immediately. Not dramatic. Concerned in that blunt, newly verbal way “Yeji cried?”
Yeji’s face went pink again “A little.”
I muttered, “Liar.”
Yeji pinched my hand under the table hard enough to correct history. Momo looked at Yeji for another second “Are you okay now?” The simplicity of the question disarmed Yeji more than sympathy would have. Yeji nodded “Yes.” Momo nodded back “Good.”
Ryujin, however, was not Momo. She leaned forward again “No, I’m being serious.” That was the strange part. She was bad at it. But serious. Ryujin looked at Yeji “We thought something happened.” Yuna nodded “We got scared.”
Something in Yeji’s face changed. The embarrassment did not disappear. But the defensiveness softened. Because under the terrible delivery, they were worried. She took one breath. Then another “I’m okay.”
Ryujin crossed her arms “That is what people say when they are not okay.”
“That is what you say when you are hiding snacks,” Lia said quietly. Ryujin looked offended “Different issue.”
Yeji almost smiled. Almost. Then she looked down at the table “I cried.” The words landed heavier because she did not dodge them “I drank a bit too much, I was tipsy. I got emotional. Ben did not do anything wrong.” Ryujin’s eyes shifted to me. Still sharp. Yuna’s did too. Less sharp. More searching. I kept my voice even “I told her no.”
That made the table still again. Jihyo’s eyes sharpened. Nayeon’s expression changed. Sana stopped smiling completely for one breath. Jeongyeon looked at Yeji, then back at me. Lia’s concern deepened. Chaeryeong finally looked directly at me. Yeji’s face went red immediately “Benjie.”
“No details,” I said softly “Just the part they need.” Then I looked at the others “She had been drinking. She tried to make being scared into sex. I said no because she needed rest and I love her too much to do anything bad when she was in that state.”
The air changed. Slowly. Carefully. Ryujin’s glare weakened by one degree. Yuna’s spoon lowered. Lia exhaled like something inside her had unclenched. Chaeryeong looked down again, but not before I caught the way her expression softened.
TWICE did not move too fast either. Jihyo stayed quiet, but her shoulders lowered. Nayeon looked at Yeji with something less playful than usual. Sana’s hand found Jihyo’s sleeve for a second. Mina’s gaze remained on me. Not cold but measuring. Jeongyeon nodded once like she had filed the important piece away. Yeji’s fingers found mine under the table and I held them. She did not pull away “He said no to sex, when I wasn’t thinking right.” Yeji said quietly “Not to me. I just heard it wrong first.”
That line finished what I had started. No one laughed. Good. Yeji kept going, face pink but voice steady enough to keep standing “I remember everything. I knew he was right last night too. I just… could not feel it first.”
Jihyo’s expression softened “That happens.” Only that. No lecture. No leadership speech. Just enough. Chaeryeong lifted her eyes again. Not to me. To Yeji “Was it because of us?”
The question was quiet. Careful. Too careful. The kind of question someone asked when they were afraid of making herself part of a wound. Yeji looked at her. The entire table seemed to hold its breath. “No,” Yeji said.
Chaeryeong’s shoulders eased by half an inch. Then Yeji added, honest enough to hurt “And yes. But not because anyone did anything wrong.” Chaeryeong went still again. Yeji held her gaze “I opened the door. I meant to. I still mean to.” Her thumb moved against my hand under the table “I just forgot I was allowed to be scared after opening it.”
That one went through the table differently. Jihyo looked down into her coffee. Sana’s face softened. Nayeon stopped pretending she was not moved. Lia looked like she wanted to say something and chose not to because Yeji had already said enough. Chaeryeong swallowed and then nodded. She looked grateful.
I looked at Yeji. She looked back. Not fully steady. But here. Brave, even when she was not trying to be. So naturally, I had to ruin the emotional maturity before it became too heavy.
“For the record,” I said, “I handled the situation with extreme emotional maturity.”
Yeji’s eyes narrowed immediately “Do not ruin it.”
“I am only saying emotional maturity traditionally qualifies for one treat.”
Ryujin stared at me “You are unbelievable.”
Yuna leaned forward “He is asking for compensation after everyone confirmed he did the right thing.”
Lia sighed “That is unfortunately very Ben.”
Chaeryeong, still quiet but no longer hiding from the table, said, “He did follow the rule.”
Every head turned toward her. She blinked. Then lifted her cup “What? He did.” I pointed at Chaeryeong with my free hand “Excellent official testimony.” Yeji’s mouth twitched “You are both impossible.”
“Structured,” Chaeryeong corrected. Ryujin made a wounded sound “Chaeryeong is siding with Ben.” Yuna looked delighted “Chaeryeong unnie has chosen a side.”
“I have not,” Chaeryeong said. Lia smiled into her cup “You kind of have.” Chaeryeong turned pink and stopped talking. Yeji looked at me. Then sighed like she was carrying the emotional burden of keeping me alive through affection “One.”
I straightened “One is generous.”
“One is dangerous.”
“One is beloved.”
“Benjie.”
“Sorry.”
She leaned in and kissed me. Quick. Soft. On the mouth. Not enough to become a show. Just enough to make the table understand that we were okay. Enough to make my chest hurt. When she pulled back, her cheeks were pink again. This time not because of embarrassment alone. Ryujin looked personally offended “That was not details.”
“It was a treat,” I said.
“I asked for information.”
“You received emotional closure.”
“I do not want emotional closure. I want gossip.”
Yuna raised her hand “I also want gossip, but respectfully.”
“No,” Lia said.
Ryujin turned to me “What happened after he said no?”
Yeji’s hand tightened around mine. Slowly. Threateningly “Benjie.”
“Yes, love?”
“If you tell them anything else, I will drown you in the ocean.”
I looked at her. She stared back “With myself” she added. The table went silent. Ryujin blinked. Yuna whispered, “That is commitment.” Lia stared at Yeji. Momo looked thoughtful “That is hard to swim.”
“It is not a plan,” Jihyo said, too tired to sound fully authoritative. Chaeryeong, very quietly, added fuel to the fire “Ryujin might swim in to save Ben for the gossip and drown as collateral.”
The entire table froze. Then Yuna broke first. She folded over the table laughing. Ryujin pointed at Chaeryeong, betrayed and proud at the same time “Why am I collateral?” Chaeryeong looked down into her drink “Pattern recognition.” Lia laughed softly into her cup. Yeji looked at Chaeryeong with surprise first. Then gratitude.
Because the joke had cut the tension without dismissing the concern. I looked at Chaeryeong. She did not look at me. But her mouth curved again. She was a little more present than before. Then Nayeon’s eyes sharpened in the way that meant she had waited long enough to become dangerous.
“So,” she said.
Jihyo immediately pointed at her “No.”
Nayeon ignored her “You slept well?”
Momo reached for the menu “Yes.”
Sana made a small sound. Momo did not look up “I said I slept well.” Mina took a sip of coffee “No one questioned the wording.” Dahyun leaned forward “For the record, there is visible afterglow.” Momo’s hand stopped on the menu. John’s soul visibly left his body. Chaeyoung nodded slowly “Strong afterglow.” Tzuyu looked at Momo with calm assessment “Confirmed.”
Momo’s face turned red. Not pink. Red “There is no glow.” Nayeon smiled “There is a full resort sunrise on your face.” Sana nodded “Very bright.” Jihyo covered her mouth with one hand, but she was not hiding horror. She was hiding laughter. That was worse.
Momo looked at her “Unnie...” Jihyo tried to compose herself. Failed “I am on vacation.” Everyone went still. Nayeon slowly turned. Jeongyeon’s eyes narrowed. Sana’s mouth opened. Dahyun whispered, “Breaking—” Jihyo pointed at her without looking “Do not.”
Dahyun whispered softer, “Historic.”
Jihyo exhaled, looked at John, then at Momo, then at the menu in front of them. Her expression softened “John is eating. Momo is talking. Nobody is trying to organize a crisis before breakfast.” She picked up her coffee “I am choosing peace.” Jeongyeon smiled “Vacation Jihyo.” Jihyo took a sip “Do not name it.” Mina blinked “Too late.”
Momo looked relieved for half a second. Then Ryujin had to ruin it “So about the noise.” I closed my eyes. Momo dropped the menu onto the table “No.” Ryujin lifted both hands “I did not say what noise.” Yuna nodded “But we all know what noise.” Lia smiled politely “It was noticeable.”
Yeji’s eyes widened “Lia.”
“What? I said it politely.”
Chaeryeong covered her face. Nayeon leaned over Sana, triumphant “See? It was not just us.” Sana was already laughing into her hand. Momo looked at TWICE “You heard?” Jeongyeon stared at her “Momo-ya.”
That answered everything. Momo’s mouth closed. Then opened. Then closed again. Dahyun leaned forward, voice grave “The drinking ended early.”
John stared at her “What?”
Chaeyoung nodded “Emergency retreat.”
Tzuyu added, “Noise control protocol.”
Mina lifted her coffee “Fortunately, we had the headphones.”
His face burned. Momo covered her face with both hands. Not because she was ashamed. Because she was losing the battle against laughing. Jihyo sighed deeply “I am grateful for the foresight.” Nayeon pointed at John “We should thank him for making us pack noise-cancelling headphones.” John looked personally attacked “I did not do that.”
“You inspired the policy.”
“That is horribly worse.”
Sana leaned against Nayeon, still laughing “It was very passionate.” Momo lowered one hand enough to glare “Quiet.”
“You were not quiet,” Nayeon said. Momo covered her face again. I had been quiet for an unusually strategic amount of time Yeji saw it “No.”
“I have not said anything.”
“You made the interview face.”
I turned to John with frightening professionalism “John.”
“Oh please God, not him too.”
“As a fellow man in a complex multi-girlfriend-adjacent ecosystem—”
“Absolutely not.” John protested.
Ryujin pointed at me “No, wait. He should be the one to take notes this time.”
Yeji’s head snapped toward Ryujin. Ryujin grinned “What? Last night put Ben and Yeji to shame.” I placed one hand over my chest “Now I feel challenged.”
Yeji’s face went red “You feel WHAT?”
“Challenged in a respectful way.”
Yuna leaned forward “Ask John what he did.”
Momo’s hands dropped from her face “No.”
Dahyun whispered, “Interview begins.”
Jihyo pointed at her “Do not enable this.”
I leaned toward John with full fake seriousness “Question one. Would you describe your method as rhythm-based, emotionally intuitive, or aggressively Momo-specific?” John stared at me. Momo reached across the table and smacked my arm. I accepted it like field research “Subject reaction: defensive.”
Yeji smiled sweetly “Benjie.” I straightened immediately “Yes, love?”
“Continue this interview and treat economy enters indefinite suspension.”
My entire body stopped. The table went silent. I turned slowly toward John “I have no further questions.” Ryujin groaned “Weak.”
I looked at her, wounded “I am preserving a sacred resource.”
Yeji took a sip of coffee “Good choice.”
Mina nodded “Effective governance.”
Dahyun whispered, “Treat economy prevents academic advancement.”
Jihyo pointed at her again. Dahyun sat back “Breakfast civic duty.” and I folded my hands on the table “Emotional maturity has returned under threat of treat economy review from my princess-wife-girlfriend.”
The silence that followed was absolute. For half a second, even the ocean sounded like it had stopped. Yeji’s face went from red to catastrophic. Ryujin turned toward her so slowly it looked rehearsed “Princess-wife-girlfriend?”
Yuna’s eyes widened “Unnie, that sounds like last night information.”
Lia closed her eyes “Oh no.”
Chaeryeong looked into her cup and smiled like she was trying not to exist near evidence. Nayeon inhaled sharply “You have a title?” Sana clasped both hands under her chin “That is so cute.” Momo looked at Yeji “Definitely cute.”
That destroyed Yeji more than anything else. Jihyo stared at me. Not shutting me down. Just staring like she had finally understood why Yeji looked tired all the time. Mina tilted her head “Is the title hierarchical or affectionate?”
John pointed at her “Do not help.”
Mina blinked “I need clarification.”
Dahyun, without microphone, whispered, “The public deserves clarification.”
“No,” Jihyo, John, Lia, and Yeji said at the same time.
I lifted my hands “In my defense—” Yeji pointed at me “No.”
“I was emotionally contextualizing.”
“You leaked state secrets.”
“It was a term of endearment.”
“It was classified.”
Ryujin leaned forward “When was it assigned?”
Yuna lifted her hand “Was there paperwork?”
Mina looked mildly interested. Yeji made a sound into her hands. I leaned closer to her “Would this be a bad time to ask for a survival treat?” She slowly lowered her hands and looked at me like I had lost the right to basic survival “Yes.”
“Understood.”
A beat. Then she grabbed my shirt, pulled me in, and kissed my cheek anyway. Hard. Quick. Punitive. Affectionate. Somehow all of it. The table exploded. I sat there, stunned. Yeji let go “One,” she said. My hand lifted to my cheek “That felt like discipline.”
“It was.”
“Still counts.”
“It does not.”
“It absolutely does.”
Ryujin pointed at us “Princess-wife-girlfriend confirmed.”
Yeji groaned. Momo nodded “Cute.”
“Please stop saying that,” Yeji whispered.
Momo blinked “But it is.”
John leaned toward me “Your chaos infected my eggs and bacon, jerk.”
I looked at him “Screw you. You were louder than me.”
He closed his mouth. Momo smiled into her food. The table lost it all over again. And somewhere between Ryujin trying to establish decibel rankings, Nayeon asking if wife-girlfriend had seniority privileges, Sana insisting it was romantic, Mina asking whether title inheritance applied, and Yeji threatening to physically remove me from breakfast if I answered any of them, the serious part of the morning finally settled into the table instead of hanging over it.
Yeji had cried. Everyone knew. I had stayed. Everyone knew. Momo talked more. Everyone knew. John had eaten. Everyone noticed.
Chaeryeong had joined the joke instead of disappearing behind it. Lia looked relieved. Ryujin and Yuna had gone from protective to impossible again. TWICE had folded the whole thing into vacation like chaos could be survived if there was enough food, water, and selective hearing.
I looked at Yeji. Her face was still red. Her hand was still in mine. Under the table. Mostly hidden. Mostly not “You okay?” I asked softly.
She rolled her eyes. But her fingers squeezed mine “Do not manager-voice me.”
“That was the boyfriend voice.”
“You used worried eyebrows again.”
“I have expressive eyebrows.”
“You have guilty eyebrows.”
“You said that last night.”
“I remember.”
The words landed softly. Between us. Not heavy. Not shameful. Remembered. She looked down at her plate, then back at me. Her voice lowered “Thank you for staying.” My chest tightened “Always.”
Ryujin, unfortunately, had ears. She leaned forward “Staying where?” Yeji immediately picked up a piece of fruit and threw it at her. Ryujin caught it and ate it “Worth it.” Yuna whispered, “Concern-based gossip continues.” Lia pointed at her with a fork “No.” Chaeryeong sipped her drink “Pattern recognition suggests no one will survive breakfast.”
I looked at her. She looked back for half a second. Then away. And I realized, somewhere between Momo’s vacation voice, Yeji’s hand under the table, Ryujin’s gossip warfare, and Chaeryeong quietly staying in the conversation, that the day had not reset after last night.
It had carried forward. Messy. Embarrassing. Well fed. Still here. Maybe that was what this vacation was really doing. Not fixing anyone. Just making enough room that everyone could stay after the difficult parts. Especially then.
That was probably where breakfast should have been allowed to breathe. Naturally, Sana existed. Momo took John’s hand under the table. Not dramatically. Not possessively. Just once. A squeeze. A small ending. Then she let go and turned toward Sana.
The entire table softened before Momo even spoke. That was the strange thing about TWICE. They could be a disaster, a courtroom, a sports commentary panel, and a family all within the same meal. But when one of them made something official, everyone knew to make room.
Momo reached for John’s wrist first. John looked at her. Not confused. Not worried. Just quiet in the way men got when they realized the person beside them was handling something tenderly and they did not want to ruin it by speaking too early.
Then Momo placed his hand into Sana’s waiting one. Formal. Deliberate. Exactly the kind of thing Sana would have secretly loved and loudly denied needing if anyone else had guessed first. “I’m giving him to you now, Satang,” Momo said.
Sana froze. For half a second, the brightness dropped into something softer. Deeper. Like the nickname had reached somewhere under the glitter. Then her fingers closed around John’s “I’ll take good care of him.”
“I know,” Momo said.
That was it. No speech. No crying. No dramatic goodbye. Momo only looked at John one more time “Eat properly today too.” John’s mouth twitched “That feels like a final command.”
“It is a reminder.”
“Those are the same thing when you say them.”
Momo smiled, satisfied, and leaned back. I should have been watching the handoff like a normal person. Instead, I made the mistake of glancing at Yeji. She was already looking at me.
Her face was still pink from the princess-wife-girlfriend disaster. Her hand was still under the table, close enough to mine that I could feel the warmth of her knuckles without touching. She knew exactly what I was thinking. Everyone doing their own version of relaxing. Momo’s version had been food, following, and being wanted. Sana’s version was apparently claiming John with ceremonial sparkle and no intention of sharing.
Yeji’s eyes narrowed slightly. Do not get ideas, her face said. I lifted my brows. I have no idea what you mean, mine lied. She did not believe me. Smart woman.
Sana turned to John immediately, brightness returning so quickly it almost looked like impact “My day.” John looked at her hand around his “Your day.” I saw his face move toward the safe version of himself. The careful manager version.
The one that asked what she wanted, how she wanted to spend the day, whether she wanted breakfast first or a walk or something quiet or a schedule dressed up as affection. Sana caught it before he got there “No.”
John blinked “No?”
“No manager face, oppa.”
“I did not make a manager face.”
“You were about to ask me for a schedule.”
“That is not a crime.”
“It is today.”
The table went quiet in the exact way that meant everyone had chosen to listen. I leaned back slightly. This was not my scene. That was the point.
For once, the thing happening in front of me did not need me to move, fix, prepare, translate, soften, fund, protect, or interrupt. It only needed me to witness it and stay seated.
That was uncomfortable. Vacation was cruel.
Sana squeezed John’s hand “I already know what I want,” she said. John looked at her “You do?”
“Yes.” Then Sana turned her head. Her eyes found Yeji and me. I stopped breathing “No,” Yeji whispered beside me.
Sana pointed directly at us “That.”
My coffee tried to kill me. I coughed once. Yeji froze so hard even Ryujin noticed. The table froze with her. John stared at Sana “That?”
Sana nodded eagerly, eyes bright like a child pointing at the exact toy she wanted from a store window “Yes. That.”
John looked at me. Then at Yeji. Then back at Sana “I cannot obtain billionaire status in three minutes.”
“Thank God,” Yeji muttered. I placed one hand over my chest “Wounded.”
“You should be grateful,” Yeji said.
“I am grateful to be unwanted in this specific context.”
Sana made a face “No, no, not that.”
“That is a relief,” John said.
“You heard what he said, right?”
Several people looked at me. I immediately looked at my coffee. Cowardice? Probably but no. Survival instinct.
Sana’s smile turned sweet. Sweet enough to spike anyone’s blood sugar “Princess-wife-girlfriend.” Yeji made a tiny dying sound. Ryujin leaned forward like a historian about to witness the founding of a nation. Yuna’s eyes widened. Lia covered her smile with her cup. Chaeryeong looked down, but she was smiling too.
Traitor. Quiet traitor.
Nayeon practically collapsed into Sana’s shoulder laughing. Dahyun inhaled like a broadcast starting and then remembered Jihyo’s finger existed. Jihyo did not even lift it this time. She only stared at Sana with exhausted prophecy “Of course.”
I lowered my cup slowly “I feel exposed.”
Ryujin pointed at me “You are exposed.”
Yuna added, “You leaked the standard.”
Mina took a sip “It was a very specific standard.”
Yeji’s face had gone red enough to qualify as sunrise “Can we not?”
Sana leaned closer to John, still pointing at us “I want that.”
“You want Ben?” John asked. Sana recoiled “Dear God, no.”
“Again,” I said, wounded “Very targeted.”
Yeji patted my arm “Still grateful.”
Sana squeezed John’s hand “I want the way he treats her. Princess. Wife. Girlfriend. Full package.” The teasing softened for half a second. Not gone. Never gone. But quieter. Because under the sparkle, Sana had said something real.
She did not want me, thank God for that.
She did not want the chaos. She wanted the certainty. The public claim. The private devotion. The way Yeji could be embarrassed by the title and still receive the love underneath it.
The way I could be ridiculous and sincere in the same breath, and somehow she wanted John to let himself do that too. Sana’s smile stayed bright, but her fingers tightened around John’s “I do not want you to guess today,” she said. “I am telling you.”
John looked at her. That man had survived Momo’s barbecue, Jeongyeon’s practical love, Nayeon’s seizure of his nervous system, and apparently Sana still found a new way to make him forget how air worked “That is a lot,” he said.
“Yes.”
“You want to be spoiled.”
“Yes.”
“Romanced.”
“Yes.”
“Taken seriously.”
“Yes.”
“And not shared.”
Sana’s smile changed. There it was. The real thing under the glitter “Yes,” she said “I don’t plan on sharing today.” The sentence landed harder than anyone expected. I felt Yeji’s fingers brush mine under the table. Not grabbing. Just there.
Maybe because she understood that one too. Maybe because last night had made it impossible not to. John squeezed Sana’s hand back “Okay.”
Sana blinked “Okay?”
“Yes.”
She searched his face like she was waiting for the manager part of him to arrive late and ruin it. It did not. Not this time. John smiled before he could overthink it “If today you don’t plan on sharing,” he said, “then I don’t plan on being shared.”
Sana went very still. Then her smile came back. Brighter. Warmer. Dangerous in a completely different way “That was good.”
“Was it?”
“Yes.” Her thumb brushed over his “You sounded happy.”
John seemed to realize he was. That was the first warning. Or maybe the first proof “I think I am,” he said. Sana’s fingers tightened “Good,” she said softly “Then be happy with only me today.”
Nayeon’s mouth opened. Sana turned toward her immediately “No.” Nayeon closed it. Impressive. Sana looked around the table, still smiling, still soft, still absolutely immovable “Today, I am the only girlfriend.”
The sentence landed.
Then Dahyun, because she loved danger more than oxygen, lifted one finger “Clarification. Emotionally, legally, or rotationally?” Jihyo’s eyes closed “Sana. Behave a little.”
Dahyun lowered her finger “Comprehensive.” Mina took a sip “Efficient claim.” Jeongyeon looked at John “Good luck.”
John looked at her “That sounds ominous.”
“It is.”
Sana tugged John’s hand closer “Everyone else can love you tomorrow.”
I felt Yeji’s fingers slide properly into mine under the table. This time, she held on. No almost. No pretending. Maybe because everyone else was too focused on Sana. Maybe because she wanted to.
Chaeyoung, unfortunately, had already remembered something “Isn’t Sana unnie still the record holder for the rotation?”
I looked up. Not because I knew what that meant. Because John looked like he had just heard an alarm go off in a language only TWICE understood. “The what?” John asked.
Sana’s eyes widened. Jihyo looked at Chaeyoung “Chaeyoung.” Nayeon collapsed against Sana’s shoulder laughing. Mina looked away. Tzuyu calmly ate fruit. Jeongyeon said, “Five.”
John stared “Five what?” Sana covered her face with one hand. The entire table answered in different levels of shame, amusement, and violence. “Times, in one night,” Dahyun said, because journalism had won.
John’s soul visibly left his body. Sana peeked through her fingers “That was one time.” Nayeon wheezed “It was not.”
“It was a meaningful day.”
Jeongyeon nodded “Historically meaningful.”
Jihyo rubbed her forehead “This is exactly why I said behave.”
I should have stayed quiet. Actually, I was staying quiet. That was the important part. Then Ryujin looked at Sana. Then she looked at me. Then she grinned “Five is the record?”
The table went silent. Slowly, every eye turned to Ryujin. I felt Yeji change beside me before I even looked at her “Ryujin, no.”
Ryujin leaned back, fully aware she had found a live wire and already chosen to touch it “What? Everyone is airing dirty laundry this morning.” Yuna turned to her “Unnie.” Lia closed her eyes “Please don’t.”
Ryujin ignored both of them and pointed at herself with her thumb “That is my bare minimum with Ben when I have him all to myself.”
I went very still. Not danger still. Not billionaire still. More like ‘man-who-had-been-dragged-into-a-metric-system-against-his-will’ still.
Yeji turned toward me so slowly that I heard a cinematic murder soundtrack in my head.
Sana’s mouth dropped open. Nayeon gasped. Dahyun whispered, “Oh, the scoreboard has expanded.” Jihyo looked at Ryujin with a combined expression of fear and admiration. Ryujin continued anyway, because she was Ryujin “I’m just saying. Sana unnie can keep the TWICE record. I respect history.” She looked at me and smiled wider “But five is not where I stop.” Yuna made a sound like she had been betrayed by oxygen. Lia put both hands over her face. Chaeryeong stared into her cup like it could offer asylum.
I looked at the ocean. Migration had never sounded more reasonable.
Yeji set her cup down. Very carefully “Benjie.”
“I said nothing.”
“You were included.”
“Against my will.”
Ryujin leaned forward “You are not denying it.”
“I am preserving my life.”
Yeji’s smile turned sweet. Too sweet “That is very interesting.” My eyes narrowed “Love?”
“Quality matters,” Yeji said.
“Absolutely.”
“Connection matters.”
“Always.”
“Emotional depth matters.”
“You are my love, my home, my everything.”
Yeji’s face flickered. For half a second, that almost saved me. Then Ryujin, agent of destruction, lifted one finger “Yeji unnie, quantity is also a form of devotion.”
I closed my eyes “Ryujin… why?”
Yeji stood. Calmly. Too calmly. Then she took my hand “We are going for a swim.” I looked up at her “Now?”
“Yes.”
“I am wearing breakfast clothes.”
“That is fine.”
“I feel there is subtext.”
Yeji smiled “There is water.”
The table froze. I slowly turned toward John “Best buddy?” John considered helping. For exactly one second then “Nah, I enjoy being alive.”
“Witness protection.”
“You are on your own.”
Yeji pulled me to my feet. I obeyed, because apparently billionaires had survival instincts when properly loved. Ryujin leaned back, delighted “See? That is romance.”
Yeji pointed at her with my hand still in hers “You are next if you keep talking.”
Ryujin smiled “Worth it.”
Lia sighed “It is always worth it until it is not.”
I was already being dragged away when I called back, “For the record, I deny nothing and confirm nothing.” Yeji pulled harder. I added, “Except my love for you, babe.” Yeji stopped walking just long enough to glare at me.
I smiled “I love you.” Her face went red again. Then she yanked me toward the beach “I am drowning you.”
“With yourself?” Dahyun asked before fear could stop her.
Yeji did not turn around “Yes.”
Dahyun sat back, satisfied and terrified “Intent confirmed.”
I looked toward the water. Then back at Yeji “Wait. Are we jokingly near water, or legally near water?” Yeji kept walking “Both.”
“That answer has no safe side.”
“That is the point.”
That was when Lia stood. Not quickly. Not dramatically. Worse. Peacefully “Ryujin,” she said. Ryujin blinked “What?”
“We should probably save him.”
Ryujin pointed at herself “Me included?”
“You started this.”
“I started a conversation.”
“You instigated an ongoing maritime incident.”
Yuna stood too, already grinning “I’ll help.”
Ryujin waved one hand “Why are we acting like Ben cannot survive one angry Yeji?”
I turned around “I would like to correct that it is one angry princess-wife-girlfriend Yeji.” The entire table went still. Yeji stopped. Slowly. I realized, half a second too late, that correcting the title of my executioner was not a survival strategy.
Jihyo stared at me “Why would you revise the threat label?”
I lifted one finger “Accuracy matters.”
Dahyun whispered, “He is fact-checking his drowning.”
Mina took a sip of coffee “Very brave.”
Chaeyoung nodded “Very stupid.”
Sana leaned against John’s shoulder, eyes shining “He sounds proud.”
John looked at me “He is about to die.”
Sana smiled “He can be both.”
Yeji turned her head just enough to look at me “Princess-wife-girlfriend?” I swallowed “With love.”
“That is not helping.”
“It was meant to honor your full title.”
Ryujin laughed once. That was her mistake. Yeji’s eyes moved to her “You’re next, by the way.” Ryujin immediately stopped laughing.
Lia looked at Ryujin with perfect calm “Remember, Ben is your only equal in bed.”
The entire table froze again. Ryujin froze hardest. I stopped moving. Yeji stopped moving. Yuna’s mouth fell open. Chaeryeong stared into her cup like it had betrayed her personally.
Jihyo whispered, “Lia.”
Lia took a sip of water “What? I said it calmly.”
Ryujin’s face changed. The grin vanished. Not from shame. From sudden, horrifying calculation.
Her eyes moved to me. Then to the ocean. Then to Yeji. Then back to me “Oh no.”
Nayeon leaned forward, delighted “Oh, now she cares.”
Ryujin stood so fast her chair nearly tipped “Yeji unnie.”
Yeji slowly turned.
Ryujin lifted both hands “Let us all calm down.”
I pointed at her “Oh, now you want peace?”
Ryujin ignored me completely “I support your wife-girlfriend rights. Fully. Emotionally. Spiritually. Legally if needed.”
Yeji narrowed her eyes. Ryujin continued faster “But we should not make permanent decisions near water.” Yuna nodded solemnly beside her “Very unsafe. Lia added, “Especially when the resource is rare.”
I stared at Lia “Resource?”
Lia smiled “Equal.”
Ryujin pointed at Lia “Exactly. Rare resource.”
I looked between them “I am uncomfortable being discussed like endangered wildlife.”
Chaeryeong, still looking into her cup, said, “Then stop being hard to replace.”
The table broke. Even Yeji’s mouth twitched. I turned to Chaeryeong “That was devastating.”
“It was logistics.”
Ryujin hurried around the table and caught my other arm before Yeji could resume the drowning plan “No drowning.”
Yeji looked at her. Ryujin tightened her grip “I am serious. I was joking before. This is real now.”
Dahyun whispered, “Developing story: preservation efforts begin after bedroom ecosystem threatened.” Jihyo pointed at her without looking. Dahyun sat back immediately.
Ryujin tugged me slightly away from the beach path “You are annoying, but you are necessary.”
I blinked “That is the worst compliment I have ever received.”
“It is not a compliment,” Ryujin said “It is risk assessment.”
Yeji crossed her arms “So you admit he matters.”
Ryujin looked at her. Then at me. Then away “Unfortunately.”
I placed one hand over my chest “I am touched.”
“You should be scared.”
“I am being both.”
Yeji tightened her grip on my hand. Ryujin tightened her grip on my other arm. I looked down at both of them. Then at John. “This feels like a custody hearing.”
“You are not the child,” Yeji said.
Ryujin nodded “You are the disputed asset.”
I stared at her “That is worse.”
“It is accurate.”
Yeji pulled me slightly toward her “He is my boyfriend.” Ryujin pulled me slightly back “And he is my equal.”
I stumbled half a step between them “I would like to calmly remind everyone that I can be both.”
The table went silent. I froze. Yeji slowly looked at me. Ryujin slowly looked at me. Jihyo closed her eyes. Dahyun whispered, “He chose both.”
I lifted one finger “No, I mean in different contexts.” Mina took a sip of coffee “That did not help.” I looked at her “I noticed, Mina. I noticed.”
Yeji’s smile sharpened “Different contexts?” I turned to her immediately “Romantic context. Emotional context. Life context. You are the context.”
Ryujin tilted her head “And me?” I turned to Ryujin “Competitive context.”
Yeji’s eyes narrowed. My mouth stayed open for one fatal second too long “Not emotionally competitive. Physically competitive. No. That sounds worse. Recreationally competitive.”
Yuna made a strangled sound. Lia covered her mouth. Chaeryeong stared at me with the quiet sympathy reserved for people walking into traffic while apologizing to the cars.
I looked around “I am trying to reduce tension.”
Jihyo pointed at me “You should stop trying.”
“I can fix this.”
“No,” Jeongyeon said.
I nodded anyway, because apparently survival instincts had limits. I looked at Yeji “You are my princess-wife-girlfriend.” Yeji’s expression softened by one dangerous degree. Then I looked at Ryujin “And Ryujin is a valued athletic colleague.”
The table froze again. Ryujin blinked “Colleague?” The grave opened beneath me “No.” Ryujin’s grip tightened “You called me your colleague?”
“Not colleague. Rival.”
“That is better.”
Yeji’s eyes sharpened. I immediately added, “Not rival to you, love.”
Dahyun whispered, “He is doing footwork in a minefield.”
Mina nodded “Bad footwork.”
I pointed at both Yeji and Ryujin with the desperation of a man attempting diplomacy while being dragged in two directions “What I am saying is that everyone here is important in a completely separate and non-threatening way.”
Sana leaned against John’s shoulder “He sounds like a company statement.”
John said, “He sounds like a man writing his own obituary.”
I heard him “Best buddy, do not narrate my death.”
“You are narrating it fine by yourself.”
Yeji pulled me closer “So I am not threatened?”
“Never.”
Ryujin pulled me back “And I am separate?”
“Yes.”
“Important?” Ryujin followed up.
“Yes.”
“Rare?”
I hesitated. That was the mistake. Yeji’s head turned. Ryujin’s grip tightened. I closed my eyes “Yes.” Yeji stared. I opened my eyes quickly “But not wife-girlfriend rare. Different rare. Category rare. Like—”
“Endangered wildlife?” Lia offered calmly.
I looked betrayed “You started this.”
“I clarified it.”
Ryujin pointed at Lia “Rare resource.”
I exhaled “I hate being a resource.”
Ryujin tugged me again “Please do not drown our rare resource manager, unnie.”
Yeji tugged me back “I have not decided.”
I looked at the ocean. Then at Ryujin. Then at Yeji “I would like to propose a compromise.”
Jihyo immediately said, “No.”
I continued anyway “No one drowns me before breakfast.”
“That is not a compromise,” Yeji said.
“It is for me.”
Ryujin nodded “I support this motion.”
Yeji looked at her. Ryujin lifted both hands, still holding me with one of them “I am not defending him.” I blinked “That is comforting.”
“I am defending the continued existence of a limited resource.”
“That is less comforting.”
Ryujin ignored me and focused on Yeji “You can be mad at him. You can punish him emotionally. Romantically. Strategically.”
Yeji’s eyes narrowed. Ryujin continued quickly “I’m only saying the punishment should happen somewhere without tides.”
Yuna nodded beside her “Indoor jurisdiction.”
Lia added, “Preferably after breakfast.”
I lifted one finger “I would like to object to the phrase indoor jurisdiction.”
Yeji looked at me. I lowered my finger “Actually, I withdraw the objection.”
Dahyun whispered, “He’s learning.”
Mina took a sip “Under threat of drowning.”
Ryujin tugged my arm slightly away from the ocean path “See? He can be trained. Temporarily. This is why we preserve him.” I looked offended “Preserve me?” Lia’s expression remained perfectly calm “Permanently damaging the rare resource seems inefficient.”
I pointed at Lia “Again with the resource thing?”
Yeji’s eyes moved to me “And you. No looking proud.” I, who absolutely had been looking proud, adjusted my face “I am humbled by being preserved.” Ryujin muttered, “Bare minimum respect for my record would have been nice.”
Yeji’s head turned.
Ryujin smiled “I said nothing.” Lia took another sip of water “You said it emotionally.”
I looked between them again, clearly deciding to make one final attempt “I respect all records.” Everyone stopped. I immediately regretted existing. Yeji’s grip went still. Ryujin’s eyes brightened. Dahyun whispered, “Oh no.”
I panicked “Historical records. Emotional records. Private records. Not scoreboard records.” Ryujin grinned “You said private records.”
Yeji pulled me sharply toward her. I stumbled “I withdraw the statement.”
“You cannot withdraw testimony,” Dahyun said.
Jihyo pointed at her. Dahyun lowered her head “Sorry.”
I looked at Yeji, softer now “Love.” That one word changed her. Not enough to save me. Enough to slow the disaster “You are my home,” I said “That is not a metric.”
Yeji’s face flickered. Ryujin sighed dramatically “Fine. That was good.” I looked at her “Thank you.”
“Still saving you for selfish reasons.”
“I accept selfish rescue.”
Yeji stared at me for one more second. Then sighed. The drowning plan weakened. Not fully. Enough. She pulled me closer again, this time fully away from the ocean path “You are still in trouble.”
I softened immediately “Yes, love.”
“And Ryujin is not allowed to use you as a scoreboard.”
Ryujin opened her mouth. Yeji’s eyes sharpened. Ryujin closed it. I looked at Ryujin with quiet sympathy “Survival requires sacrifice.”
Ryujin pointed at me “You owe me.”
My eyes widened “I owe you for saving me from the problem you caused?”
“Yes.”
“That is morally bankrupt.”
“That sounds like your language.”
I looked down at Yeji’s hand. Then at Ryujin’s grip on my arm. Then at the ocean I had almost been introduced to legally “So am I saved?”
Yeji smiled “For now.” Ryujin nodded “Conditionally.” I exhaled “Loved and conditionally alive.” Jihyo sat back down with her coffee “No drowning before breakfast. Successful morning.”
Mina took a sip “Temporary success.”
Dahyun whispered, “Conservation status: romantically endangered but stable.” Jihyo pointed at her again. Dahyun lowered her head “Stable.”
Lia smiled “Successful intervention.”
Yuna nodded “Ben has been rescued by performance metrics.”
I closed my eyes “I hate this sentence.”
Sana watched the whole thing with sparkling eyes. Then she turned back to John “See?” John looked at the group returning from the almost-drowning “I am not sure that helped your case.”
“It did.”
“How?”
Sana leaned closer to him, both hands around his now. “Because everyone is going away too.” The table quieted. Not fully. This group was incapable of full quiet unless paperwork, medical danger, or someone’s emotional dignity was actively on fire.
But enough. Sana’s eyes stayed on John’s. Soft. Demanding. Bubbly and serious at the same time “Everyone gets to have their own world today.”
My chest tightened a little. Not because she was talking to me. Because she was not. That was the point. For once, Sana’s sentence did not pull everyone into the same emotional room. It gave everyone permission to leave it. John looked at her “And yours?” Sana’s smile softened “You are in it.”
Nayeon made a small sound. Mina looked into her coffee like it had suddenly become emotional. Jihyo, still in dangerous vacation mode, only nodded once “Take him, then.”
Sana’s face lit up. John looked at Jihyo “You are allowing this?” Jihyo took a sip of coffee “Momo made you eat. Sana is making you disappear. Frankly, this is the most organized we have been all week.”
Jeongyeon nodded “Let her.”
Sana stood immediately and tugged John’s hand “Come on.”
“Already?”
“Yes.”
“I have not finished breakfast.”
Momo, from across the table, spoke without even looking up “Take the fruit.” Sana picked up a small plate and handed it to him “There.” John looked at the plate. Then at her “This is kidnapping with snacks.” Sana smiled “Princess-wife-girlfriend day has provisions.”
Yeji made a tiny sound beside me. I did not look at her. I valued my life.
John stood because apparently that was the rule now. Sana kissed Momo’s cheek, promised something soft enough that I chose not to hear it, then pulled him away from the table like the entire resort had been built for exactly that exit.
Everyone watched them go. Not loudly. Not with teasing, for once. Sana and John moved down the path behind the pavilion, fingers linked, the fruit plate in John’s free hand, Sana’s head tilted toward him as if the rest of the vacation had already disappeared.
And just like that, he was gone. Not missing. Not stolen. Gone in the way vacation was apparently supposed to allow. Inside someone else’s world. I looked down at my coffee. Then at the table. Everyone was still scattered around breakfast, but the shape had changed. Sana and John were gone. Momo was eating properly now that her day had been handed over.
Jihyo looked like she was pretending not to enjoy the absence of leadership responsibility. Nayeon and Dahyun were already murmuring about something that sounded like it required supervision. Mina had returned to calm observation. Tzuyu was eating fruit like none of us deserved chaos. Ryujin was still standing near me, which was concerning. Yuna looked too awake. Lia looked like she was deciding whether the morning required intervention or tea. Chaeryeong had gone quiet again, but not small. Present quiet.
That was different.
Yeji’s fingers were still around mine under the table. Mostly hidden. Mostly not. I squeezed once. She squeezed back. Then I reached for my phone with my other hand. Yeji caught my wrist immediately “No.”
“I did not even unlock it.”
“You were about to check something.”
“I was only going to make sure Sana and John—”
“No.”
“They just left.”
“Exactly.”
“Sana kidnapped him with fruit.”
“And privacy.”
“That sounds like a situation worth monitoring.”
Yeji turned toward me slowly “Benjie.”
I closed my mouth. The table noticed. Of course it did. Ryujin leaned forward “Oh, is he being managed again?”
“I am being loved responsibly.”
Yuna nodded “That is managed.”
Lia lifted her tea “Accurately.”
Chaeryeong looked at my wrist in Yeji’s hand. Then at my phone. Then back at me “She is right.” I turned to her “You too?”
“You were going to check.”
“That is not illegal.”
“It is vacation.”
“Vacation has logistics.”
Jihyo set her cup down “No.”
I looked at her “Not you too.”
Jihyo smiled faintly “Especially me.”
Mina took a sip “Everyone appears to be appropriately occupied.”
“That sentence sounds like a trap.”
“It is an assessment.”
“Those are traps with better posture.”
Yeji slid my phone out of my hand and placed it face down beside her plate. I watched it go like a part of my soul had been gently confiscated “Everyone is doing their own version of relaxing,” she said. I looked around “Sana’s version is kidnapping John.”
“Yes.”
“Momo’s version is eating after feeding everyone.”
“Yes.”
“Jihyo’s version is pretending not to lead while leading through facial expressions.”
Jihyo pointed at me “Careful, Ben.”
“Nayeon and Dahyun’s version is criminal whispering.”
Nayeon gasped “Profiling.” Dahyun nodded solemnly “Accurate profiling.”
“Ryujin and Yuna’s version is emotional arson.”
Ryujin grinned “Correct.”
Yuna lifted her spoon “Recreational arson.”
“Lia’s version is tea and trying to keep everyone alive.”
Lia smiled “Mostly tea.”
“Chaeryeong’s version is pretending she is not watching all of us while absolutely watching all of us.” Chaeryeong looked into her cup “I am drinking.”
“You are surveilling.”
“I can do both.”
That almost made me smile too much. Yeji’s thumb brushed my wrist “And yours?” I looked at her. There it was. The actual question. Not what everyone else was doing. What I was going to do when no one needed me for five minutes. A stupidly difficult question for a man who had built most of his emotional stability around being necessary.
I leaned back “I could go over the afternoon plan.”
“No.”
“I could check the beach setup.”
“Wrong answer.”
“I could make sure the spa has the right privacy route for Sana and John.”
“Absolutely not.”
“I could—”
“Ben.”
The way she said it made the rest of the sentence disappear. Not angry. Not tired. Soft. Firm. The same voice from last night. The same one that made impossible things feel simple because she was the one asking. I exhaled “Massage.”
Everyone looked at me. Ryujin blinked “What?”
“I am going to get a massage.”
The table stayed quiet for one second longer than necessary. Then Yuna slowly pointed her spoon at me “Alone?”
“Yes.”
Ryujin narrowed her eyes “That sounds suspiciously healthy.”
“It is.”
“You?”
“I have muscles.”
“You have stress pretending to be muscles.”
“Also true.”
Lia looked genuinely pleased “That is a good idea.”
Of course she would say that. Lia enjoyed people making reasonable choices. Strange hobby. Chaeryeong nodded “You carried things yesterday.”
“I carried many things yesterday.”
“And today.”
“And emotionally since birth.”
Yeji squeezed my wrist “No speeches.”
I nodded “Massage.”
Jihyo leaned back “That actually sounds like vacation.”
“Do not sound so surprised.”
“I am proud and suspicious.”
Mina looked at me “Booked already?”
“No.”
Her brows lifted. I held up one hand “Normal booking. Resort spa. Available slot. No buying anything.” Yeji turned toward me “You had to say that because you thought about it.”
“I did not think about buying the spa.”
The table stared. I sighed “I did not seriously think about buying the spa.” Jihyo closed her eyes “There it is.” Ryujin leaned forward, suddenly interested “Which spa?”
My attention snapped to her “No.”
“I only asked which spa.”
“That is never all you ask.”
“Maybe I want a massage too.”
“Then book your own.”
Her smile widened “Interesting.”
“No.”
“What?”
“I do not know what you are planning, but no.”
Ryujin looked offended “I have done nothing.”
“Yet,” Lia said.
Ryujin pointed at her “Why are you like this?”
“Pattern recognition.”
Chaeryeong murmured, “Useful.”
Ryujin turned toward her “You are all against me.”
Yuna raised her hand “I am with you spiritually.”
“No, you are not,” Yeji said. Yuna lowered her hand “I am with peace physically.” I stood before the conversation could evolve into a spa raid “Massage. Alone. Normal. Boring. Therapeutic.” Ryujin made a face “Boring is suspicious when you say it.”
“It is supposed to be boring.”
Yuna leaned forward “Are you going to fall asleep?”
“Hopefully.”
Nayeon gasped “Ben sleeping during the day?”
Dahyun whispered, “Breaking—” Jihyo pointed.
Dahyun stopped “Local man attempts rest.”
“Better,” Jihyo allowed.
I looked at Yeji. She still had my phone “You are keeping that?”
“For now.”
“What if someone needs me?”
“They can need you after the massage.”
“That is not how needing works.”
“That is how vacation works.”
I stared at her. She stared back. Then, softer “Go rest, Benjie.” That one reached somewhere under the jokes. I nodded “Okay.”
Yeji stood too. For half a second, I thought she was coming with me. She was not. She only stepped closer, fixed my collar like I was a problem she owned, then looked up at me.
“No checking on Sana and John.”
“Yes.”
“No calling staff to improve the spa.”
“Yes.”
“No working through the massage.”
“That seems difficult to enforce.”
“I will ask the masseuse.”
“You would.”
“I will.”
I smiled despite myself. She rose slightly and kissed my cheek. Not the public punishment kiss from earlier. Not the treat economy one. This was quieter. A send-off “Relax,” she said.
I looked at her “That sounds like an order.”
“It is.”
“Yes, love.”
Her face softened. Then she leaned closer, voice low enough for only me “And after, come find us at the beach.”
Us. Not me. Not them. Us. That was the afternoon, then. Sana and John would have their world. I would have a few hours where nobody was allowed to need me. Then ITZY would have the beach.
I could live with that. Probably. Ryujin, unfortunately, had heard enough to smile “Beach after massage?” I pointed at her “No schemes.”
She lifted both hands “Me? Schemes?”
“Yes.”
“Never.”
Lia sighed “Immediately suspicious.”
Yuna grinned “I’ll prepare beach things.”
“Normal beach things,” Yeji said.
Yuna paused. Then slowly lowered her spoon “Define normal.” Everyone groaned. I decided that was my cue. I took one step back from the table. Then another. No phone. No schedule. No checking. No usefulness. Just a massage.
I made it five steps down the path before I heard Ryujin behind me say, “Which spa did he say?” I stopped. Turned. Yeji had already turned too. So had Lia. Chaeryeong lifted her cup.
Yuna froze with the guilty posture of someone who had not yet committed a crime but supported the concept. Ryujin smiled “What?”
Yeji pointed at her “Beach. Later.” Ryujin lifted both hands “Fine.” She was lying. Obviously. I looked at Yeji. Yeji looked back at me. Her expression said, Go before I have to manage another disaster. So I went.
The resort path curved away from the pavilion, under palm shade and warm morning light. The ocean stayed close enough to hear, but far enough to stop looking like a threat. For once, no one followed. For once, no one called my name.
For once, I let myself walk toward something that was not a crisis, not a negotiation, not a confession, and not a room full of women turning breakfast into a legal sport.
The spa sign appeared ahead, polished wood against white stone. Soft music drifted from inside. I stopped outside the entrance. A massage. That was all. One hour. No phone.
No responsibility. No emotional arson. No one needing me. I exhaled slowly. Then stepped inside.
The spa smelled like clean towels, warm stone, and expensive silence.
Already suspicious.
A staff member greeted me at the entrance with the kind of calm smile that suggested she had been trained to handle celebrities, executives, and emotionally compromised rich men pretending they were normal. Unfortunately, I was two of those things. Possibly all three.
I paused. Then, because I had promised Yeji and because I did not want to be dragged into the ocean by my princess-wife-girlfriend before lunch, I added, “A normal massage appointment.”
The staff member blinked once. Professionally “Of course.”
“Just clarifying.”
“That is appreciated.”
It was not. But she was polite.
She guided me through a short hallway of pale wood and soft lighting, past a shallow indoor water feature that made the whole building sound like it had entered meditation before I arrived. The farther I walked from the pavilion, the quieter everything became.
No Nayeon laughing. No Dahyun whisper-reporting. No Yuna asking if a cloud emoji counted as evidence. No Ryujin actively worsening international relations. No Lia sighing with the full weight of civilization. No Chaeryeong quietly making one sentence hit harder than a legal notice. No Yeji saying my name like a warning and a home at the same time.
Just silence. Clean. Soft. Dangerous. The staff member stopped outside a private room.
“We prepared the individual suite, as requested.”
I frowned “I did not request an individual suite.”
Her expression did not change “Miss Hwang requested privacy.”
Ah. Of course. Yeji had confiscated my phone and somehow still managed logistics. That woman was terrifying… and mine.
That thought was still going to get me killed if I smiled too much at the wrong time. The staff member opened the door. Inside, the massage room was built like the resort had decided rest needed architecture. One table in the center. Low lights. Folded towels. A small tray with water and tea. A screen near the corner. Soft music faint enough not to feel like it was trying to win.
A robe waited on a chair. The whole place looked peaceful. Which immediately made me suspicious “Your therapist will arrive shortly,” the staff member said “Please change and lie face down under the sheet.”
“Understood.”
“And sir?”
I turned. She hesitated. Only slightly. That was the first warning.
“Yes?”
“If you need anything, please use the call button.”
“That sounds ominous.”
Her smile remained professional “Not at all.”
That sounded more ominous. She left. The door slid closed behind her. For a moment, I stood alone in the room, listening to the small silence she left behind. No phone. No one needing me. No schedule. No staff to instruct. No emotional fire within immediate reach.
Just me. A massage table. And the horrifying expectation that I relax.
I exhaled slowly “Okay.” Nobody answered. Good. I undressed, changed into the robe, and caught myself folding my clothes too neatly on the chair. Then unfolded them slightly. Then refolded them because apparently rest did not require becoming an animal.
I stared at the folded clothes “Normal.”
I got onto the table. Face down. Under the sheet. This was normal. People did this all the time. They lay down. They stopped moving. They let someone trained handle tension in their shoulders. They did not mentally assess whether the spa’s privacy layout had enough blind spots. They did not wonder whether Sana and John had entered their own spa room yet. They did not worry about whether Yeji was eating enough after an emotional morning. They did not replay Chaeryeong saying, “Then stop being hard to replace,” like a sentence could leave a bruise. They did not wonder if Ryujin was plotting something.
I opened my eyes. The floor beneath the face cradle was very clean. Too clean. I shut my eyes again. No thinking. No working. Massage. Alone. Normal. Boring. Therapeutic.
Then the door opened. I heard soft footsteps. One person. Not the same weight as the staff member from earlier. I frowned into the face cradle “You’re early.”
The footsteps stopped. A pause. Then a voice I knew far too well said, “Relax.” My eyes opened. Absolutely not. “Ryujin?”
“Wow,” she said. “You recognized me by one word. Romantic.”
“The word ‘romantic’ has been banned from your mouth until further notice.”
“By who?”
“Society.”
“Society is weak.”
I lifted my head slightly, but the angle was awkward enough that I could only see the edge of the robe I was wearing, the floor, and the bottom of Ryujin’s legs near the side of the table. She was barefoot. I turned my face just enough to glare sideways “What are you doing here?”
Ryujin stood there in loose resort clothes, hair tied back, expression entirely too pleased for someone trespassing inside a therapeutic environment “I told the staff I could handle it.”
My brain stopped “You told the staff you could handle what?”
“You.”
“Ryujin.”
“What?”
“That is not how spa staffing works.”
“It worked.”
“That is not the same as it being allowed.”
She stepped closer. Not touching me. Good. Annoying. Necessary, for my sake.
“I said you were my manager.”
“I am on your manager, but I am ON VACATION.”
“Emotionally.”
“That is not an efficient category.”
“It got me in the room.”
“I am going to die because people keep accepting emotional categories as credentials.”
Ryujin smiled “You’re not going to die.”
“You are in my massage room.”
“Exactly. I’m here to prevent death by boredom.”
“I was supposed to relax alone.”
“You were supposed to try. There’s a difference.”
I stared at her. She stared back. No shame. No retreat. But not careless either. That was the irritating part. Ryujin could look like trouble while still watching every inch of the room. Every shift in my shoulders. Every hesitation. Every line she was stepping toward. Not over, toward.
“You should leave,” I said.
She tilted her head “Should I?”
“Yes.”
“Do you want me to?”
There it was. The room changed. Not because she said it softly. Ryujin did not do soft by default. She did direct. And this was direct enough that the joke lost its armor. I held her gaze “If I say yes?”
“I leave.” No delay. No pouting. No dramatic offense. Just answer. I believed her. That was the dangerous part.
I lowered my head back into the cradle, not because I was surrendering, but because looking at her while half-naked under a sheet was doing unfortunate things to my survival instinct “You broke into my rest appointment.”
“I was allowed in.”
“You manipulated your way in.”
“I adapted.”
“You are wearing smugness like perfume.”
“You noticed, how sweet.”
“I notice planetary threats.”
She came around to the head of the table. I heard her move, slow and confident. Then she crouched just enough that I could see her face through the opening beneath the cradle.
Terrible. Absolutely terrible angle for dignity.
Excellent angle for Ryujin’s grin “You look ridiculous from here.”
“I am lying face down on a spa table. Of course I look ridiculous.”
“You look defenseless.”
“I am emotionally armed.”
“Barely.”
She smiled wider. Then, very suddenly, her expression shifted. Not softer exactly. Clearer “You looked tired.”
That stopped me. The room quieted around the sentence “I was at breakfast.”
“You were smiling.”
“I smile often.”
“You perform often.”
I had no immediate answer. Ryujin’s grin did not return. She looked at me from below the table with an honesty that somehow felt more invasive than if she had actually touched me.
“Yeji unnie made you go rest.”
“Yes.”
“And you were going to turn rest into another thing to survive.”
“That is an unfair accusation.”
“It is accurate.”
“Unfairly accurate.”
“Exactly.”
I exhaled into the cradle “You followed me because I looked tired?”
“I followed you because you looked like you were about to lie down and keep managing from inside your skull.”
“That is not physically possible.”
“For you? It is.”
I hated that. Mostly because she was right. Ryujin stood again. Her voice moved above me “I can leave.”
I stayed quiet. She waited. That was another problem. Ryujin did not usually make silence easy. She filled it, poked at it, dared it to break. This time, she let it sit. A genuine out. A genuine choice. No pressure. No audience. No scoreboard.
No Yeji watching with murder water in her eyes. No Lia calling me a rare resource. No Chaeryeong performing logistics at my dignity’s funeral. Just Ryujin.
And the silence she was letting me answer. I closed my eyes “You are impossible.” Her voice changed. A smile entered it “That wasn’t no.”
“No, it wasn’t.”
“You want me to stay?”
“I want a massage.”
“Normal one?”
“I am not answering that while you sound like that.”
She laughed once. Low. Pleased. Then she moved toward the side table. I heard fabric shift. A bottle cap open. Oil, probably. My entire nervous system filed a report “Ryujin.”
“Yes?”
“Have you ever given an actual massage?”
“Yes.”
I waited. She did not elaborate “That answer is terrifyingly incomplete.”
“I know where muscles are.”
“That is also something a murderer could say.”
“You want the staff back?”
I inhaled. Exhaled “No.” The oil bottle clicked softly “Good.”
“You are enjoying this too much.”
“I have not even started.”
“That is what concerns me.”
She came to the side of the table “Ground rules?”
I opened my eyes. There she was again. Ryujin. Reckless enough to sneak into a massage room. Careful enough to ask. I shifted slightly under the sheet “Ground rules.”
She leaned one hand against the table, not touching me yet “You say stop, I stop.”
“Yes.”
“You say leave, I leave.”
“Yes.”
“No staff comes back unless you ask.”
“Or if you commit homicide.” I added.
“Fine. Or homicide.”
“No scoreboard.”
Ryujin paused. I felt the pause. Then she sighed “Fine.”
“That sounded painful.”
“It was.”
“Good.”
“No pretending you are relaxed if you are not,” she said.
I frowned “That feels aimed.”
“It is.”
“No psychoanalysis while I am face down.”
“No promises.”
“Ryujin.”
“Fine. Minimal psychoanalysis.”
“That is not a category.”
“It is now.”
I felt her hand hover near my shoulder. Still not touching. Waiting. “Anything else?” she asked. There were many things. Too many. Yeji. Trust. Boundaries. The fact that this whole arrangement was held together by honesty, foolishness, and the improbable belief that everyone could survive wanting without ownership becoming a weapon.
The fact that Ryujin had started the morning turning me into a metric and now stood beside me like she had realized metrics did not breathe unless someone let them. The fact that I wanted her to touch me. The fact that I wanted that more because she was still waiting.
“Do not make me regret trusting you,” I said. Her voice softened by one dangerous degree “I won’t.” Then her hands touched my shoulders. Warm. Oiled. Steady. Not teasing. Not claiming. Just testing.
My body betrayed me immediately. Not in the obvious way. Worse, I relaxed. A fraction of a second but enough for her to notice. Of course she noticed “There,” she said quietly.
“Do not sound proud.”
“I earned it.”
“You placed your hands on my shoulders.”
“And you stopped bracing.”
“I did not.”
“You did.”
“I was adjusting.”
“Sure.”
Her thumbs pressed slowly along the tension near my neck. Not hard. Not soft. Measured. I hated that she was good at it. I hated more that she knew. For the first few minutes, the worst part was that Ryujin was actually good. Not passable. Not reckless confidence pretending to be skill. Good.
Her hands moved with the kind of pressure that understood bodies because she lived in one professionally. She knew where tension gathered. Where to press. Where not to rush. Where my shoulders resisted because I had apparently spent my entire adult life confusing stress with posture.
I hated it. Mostly because it was working.
Her thumb pressed slowly along the knot beside my shoulder blade and my entire nervous system betrayed me by loosening. Ryujin noticed immediately “There we go.”
“Again, do not sound proud.”
“I found a country.”
“That is not a normal massage term.”
“You are not a normal massage client.”
I exhaled into the face cradle “I am extremely normal.”
“You tried to manage your breathing.”
“That is called breathing.”
“No, normal people just do it.”
“I am being attacked during therapy.”
“You invited me to stay.”
“I made a questionable decision under spa lighting.”
Ryujin laughed softly. Then her hands moved again, slower this time, pressing down along the hard line of my back with surprising patience. Not teasing. Not yet. That was what made it worse.
If she had come in immediately dangerous, I could have categorized it. Ryujin chaos. Ryujin challenge. Ryujin trying to turn my massage appointment into a felony against relaxation.
But this?
This was care disguised as competence. That was harder to defend against “You are thinking too much,” she said.
“I am face down. Thinking is all I have left.”
“You have muscles.”
“Currently under occupation.”
“Liberation.”
“Hostile rebranding.”
Her palm pressed between my shoulders. Firm. Warm. Steady. My body released another fraction before I could stop it. Ryujin went quiet. Not smug quiet, the ‘watching’ quiet.
I disliked how much I trusted it “You really are tired,” she said.
I closed my eyes “Minimal psychoanalysis.”
“This is anatomy.”
“That loophole remains offensive.”
“You keep letting me use it.”
“Because you are effective.”
Her hands paused. Only for half a second. Then continued “There it is.”
“What?”
“Praise.”
“I said effective.”
“High praise from you.”
“Low-medium.”
“No. High.”
“Do not negotiate my praise scale.”
“You negotiate affection for a living.”
“That is slander.”
“That was breakfast.”
Fair.
Her hands moved lower, still proper, still professional enough that I could not accuse her of anything except being dangerously better at this than expected. The massage continued until my body started betraying me in more obvious ways. My breathing slowed. My shoulders dropped. The tension near my spine loosened one stubborn inch at a time.
At some point, I realized I had stopped thinking about Sana and John, stopped wondering whether Yeji was eating, stopped planning the beach setup, stopped replaying Chaeryeong’s kissing me at the pool, stopped mentally locating every person in the resort like they were pins on a map.
For once, the only thing I was aware of was pressure. Warm oil. Ryujin’s hands. The slow, humiliating realization that she was not just interrupting my rest. She was succeeding at it. Then she stopped.
I opened one eye “Why did you stop?”
“Because this is the part where a normal massage helps.”
“That sounds like a sentence with a trap door.”
“It is.”
I lifted my head slightly “Ryujin.”
She stood beside the table, arms folded, eyes bright with the exact expression that made reasonable people secure breakable objects “I know something better.”
“No.”
“You don’t even know what it is.”
“I know you.”
“You trust my hands now.”
“That is a manipulative sentence.”
“It is also true.”
I hated how true that was. I turned my face enough to look at her properly “What kind of better?” Ryujin’s mouth curved “The kind where you stop pretending you’re relaxed and actually give up.”
“That sounds like a threat.”
“It can be a gift.” she corrected me.
“Normal words.”
“No.”
I looked at her. She didn’t look away. She was looking at me waiting for an answer while noticing every shift in my shoulders. Every hesitation, and every line she was moving towards. “Maybe you should leave” I said.
She tilted her head “Should I?”
“Yes.”
“Do you want me to?”
I closed my eyes “You were already effective.”
“Exactly.”
“That is not an argument.”
“It is evidence.”
I breathed out slowly. The table beneath me was warm. The room was quiet. Her hands had already convinced my body before my brain had agreed to anything. That was probably the problem. “I will try it.” I told her.
Ryujin went still. Only for a breath. Then she smiled. I heard it before I saw it “One try.”
“And if I say stop—”
“You don’t need to finish that sentence.”
I believed her. That was the final problem. Ryujin moved away from the table. I heard the soft click of a bottle being set down. Then another. Fabric shifted. My eyes opened “Ryujin.”
“Yes?”
“What are you doing?”
“Getting ready.”
“That is not an answer.”
“It is the only one you’re getting.”
I turned my head, trying to see more of her. She had moved behind the screen near the corner. Only shadows. Only movement. Only enough information to make my survival instincts file several reports at once.
“I agreed to a better massage.”
“You did.”
“I did not agree to mystery staging.”
“You agreed to me.”
“That sounds legally unstable.”
“You said one try.”
“I am revising my concern level.”
Her laugh came low from behind the screen “Too late.”
“That phrase has never led anywhere safe.”
“Good.”
The robe slipped from her shoulder and disappeared behind the screen. My entire brain stopped for a clean second. Then restarted incorrectly “Ryujin.”
“Yes?”
“This seems less like a massage.”
“You haven’t felt it yet.”
“That sentence is doing too much work.”
She stepped out from behind the screen. The room stopped pretending to be peaceful. Ryujin stood there with a towel wrapped low around herself, hair tied back, skin catching the low light like she had been designed specifically to make bad decisions look athletic.
She held a bottle of oil in one hand. No explanation. No lecture. No technical terms. Just that smile. That knowing, dangerous, infuriating smile.
I stared at her. She lifted the bottle slightly “You can still say no.”
I swallowed “What exactly am I saying yes to?”
Ryujin walked closer. Slowly. Not touching yet. Still waiting. Still giving me the door even though she had already turned the room into a trap. “Me handling it,” she said.
My pulse became extremely interested in the situation “That is vague.”
“That is the point.”
She reached the side of the table and set the bottle down. Then leaned closer, voice lowering “Ben.” I looked at her.
“Do you trust me?”
Terrible question. Unfair question. Effective question. I should have taken longer. Yet I did not “Yes.”
Her expression changed. For one second, all the smugness dropped into something hotter and more serious. Then she nodded once “Then stop thinking.”
“That is not how I work.”
“I know, but try.”
Her hand touched my shoulder again. Warm. Oiled. Certain .
“Good thing I’m not asking.” she said.
I exhaled “Ryujin.”
“Last chance to be boring.”
I looked at the door. At the screen. At her hand on my shoulder. At the bottle on the table. At the woman who had somehow turned a proper massage into a decision without explaining a single thing.
Boring was peaceful. Boring was safe. Boring was what Yeji sent me here to do. Ryujin’s thumb brushed once against the side of my neck. Boring died. I lowered my face back into the cradle “One try, and for the sake of the staff’s sanity. Lock the door.”
Her breath caught. Just enough. Then her hand slid away. The sheet shifted. And the room finally stopped pretending this was a normal massage.
I heard the soft slide of fabric. A rustle. Then the faint whisper of skin against skin, oiled and warm, as Ryujin’s body slid onto the table behind me. Not on the sheet. On me. My breath hitched.
Her chest pressed against my back, soft but firm, already slick with oil. Her breasts, full and warm, flattened against my shoulder blades, the sensation immediate and overwhelming. A shiver traced its way down my spine, a response my body hadn’t anticipated, hadn’t prepared for “Relax,” she murmured, her voice a low rumble against my ear, vibrating through my skull, through my chest. The word was a command wrapped in silk, a challenge cloaked in an invitation.
My muscles, which had only just begun to soften under her professional touch, tightened again. This was not relaxation. This was a takeover with better lighting “This is not standard spa procedure,” I managed, my voice a little rougher than I intended.
Her hands, still warm and slick, moved from my shoulders down my back, pressing, kneading, her body swaying gently above mine. Each movement was deliberate, a slow, sensual dance that transferred the oil from her skin to mine. Her bare hips swayed against my ass, a rhythmic friction that spoke of intent.
“You said you wanted better,” she countered, her lips brushing my earlobe, sending another shiver through me “This is better.”
The scent of her—oil, sweat, and something uniquely Ryujin, sharp and sweet—filled my senses. Her pubic mound, soft and yielding, brushed against my upper thigh with each slow, grinding motion of her hips. Her nipples, already hard from the friction against my back, grazed my skin as she moved, a thousand tiny sparks igniting across my flesh.
“Better was a quality improvement,” I said, trying to cling to the thin thread of dignity “Not a hostile takeover.”
She laughed, a low, throaty sound that made my cock stir against the sheet. My body, apparently, had filed a motion against my pride and won “Hostile?” she purred, her hands now tracing the curve of my ass, pressing into the glutes, her fingers dipping into the crease between “This feels like you’re enjoying the invasion.”
The heat of her bare skin against mine was intoxicating. Her stomach, flat and taut, moved against my lower back, her breath warm on my neck. The soft weight of her breasts, now fully settled against my back, felt less like a massage and more like a claim “I am professionally assessing the efficacy of the technique,” I retorted, my voice strained.
Her hips pressed harder, grinding slowly, deliberately, the soft skin of her inner thighs brushing against my outer ones. The friction was a slow build, an insistent heat that spread through my groin “And the assessment?”
“Preliminary data suggests… high efficacy.”
Her fingers kneaded deeper into my ass, then slid down the back of my thighs, pulling the sheet lower, exposing more of my skin to her. The cool air touched my bare calves, a stark contrast to the burning heat of her body “Good,” she whispered “Because we’re only just getting started.”
Her hands moved with a practiced ease, pressing and releasing, sliding over my skin, drawing the oil further down my body. She leaned her full weight into the massage, her entire torso pressing against my back, the soft, firm mounds of her breasts molding against my shoulder blades. The rhythmic sway of her hips continued, a slow, sensual grind that had my cock fully engorged, pulsing against the sheet. I could feel the wetness seeping from my tip, a clear bead of pre-cum staining the linen beneath me.
Her breath hitched once, a small sound against my neck. Not of effort. Of pleasure. My body, already teetering on the edge, responded instinctively. My ass flexed into her, a silent invitation. She accepted. Her hips pressed harder, the soft, yielding flesh of her mound rubbing against the top of my ass, a teasing, burning friction that promised more than just a massage. Her hands moved up my sides, fingers tracing the line of my ribs, then spreading underneath to my chest, pushing into the muscles, her thumbs finding the hard nubs of my nipples. She twisted them lightly, a jolt of pure sensation shooting through me.
“Feeling relaxed yet?” she murmured, her voice thick, heavy with unspoken desire. “I am feeling… many things,” I confessed, the words a rough exhale.
“Good,” she said, her voice a low purr “Let’s see if we can narrow it down to one.”
Her hands returned to my back, sliding down, slick and warm, until her fingers brushed the edge of my cock, still straining against the sheet. She didn’t touch it directly, but the accidental brush, the proximity, was enough to send a fresh wave of heat through me. My hips twitched, an involuntary push against her.
She hummed, a soft, satisfied sound, and pressed her breasts harder against my back, leaning into me, her entire body a warm, oiled blanket. The rhythmic grinding of her hips intensified, a slow, deliberate tease. My breath came in shallow gasps.
“Time for the other half,” she announced, her voice suddenly crisp, pulling back slightly. Her hands left my back. The sudden absence of her body was a shock, a cold void where delicious heat had been.
I felt her stand up, the soft thud of her bare feet on the cool tile. My eyes remained closed, face still buried in the cradle, but my body felt the shift, the withdrawal.
“Flip over,” she commanded.
The words were simple. Direct. And I froze. Not because I didn’t want to. Because I did. That was the problem. My cock, still hard and throbbing, felt exposed, vulnerable. Flipping over meant exposing all of it—my desire, my arousal, my willing surrender “That sounded like an order,” I said, my voice muffled.
“It was.”
“You are not licensed to give orders in a spa.”
“You agreed I could handle it.”
Her bare feet shuffled slightly. I felt her presence near the head of the table, not touching, just waiting. The air between us crackled with unspoken tension. Her hands left me. Completely. That was worse. Because now the only pressure in the room was the choice.
“And if I do not?” I challenged, my voice a little less confident than I wanted.
“Then I finish your shoulders like a normal massage and leave.”
“That easy?”
“That easy.”
I scoffed “You are lying.”
“I am many things. I am not forcing you.”
That was the line. The one that cut through the haze of arousal and accusation. The one that allowed a sliver of genuine trust to pierce through. Ryujin waited. She actually waited. That was the part that made it hard to say no.
I exhaled slowly, the scent of her, of the oil, of my own arousal, filling my lungs “No scoreboard,” I negotiated, my voice still muffled.
“Fine.”
“No jokes about rare resources.”
“Painful, but fair.”
“No pretending this is still normal.”
“It stopped being normal when you told me to lock the door.” Ryujin laughed.
I turned over slowly. Not obediently. Strategically. There was a difference. Probably. Ryujin’s smile said she disagreed.
My body felt heavy, slick with oil, my cock a proud, throbbing mast. I kept my eyes closed for a moment, letting the darkness reorient me, letting the heat of my flush settle. When I opened them, Ryujin was standing over me, towel still wrapped low around her hips, her hair pulled back. Her eyes, dark and intense, met mine. A slow, knowing smile curved her lips “Ready for the other side?” she asked, her voice a low tone.
My cock twitched, a silent answer.
She moved, a fluid grace that was pure Ryujin. She pulled the towel off completely, letting it drop to the floor. Her body, athletic and perfectly proportioned, was gleaming with oil, every curve and muscle highlighted in the dim light. She was magnificent.
She didn’t kneel at my feet. Instead, she knelt over my hips, straddling my legs, her knees pressing into the massage table on either side of my thighs. Her oiled body hovered above mine, a tantalizing promise. My cock, fully hard, pointed directly at her.
She leaned forward, her hands bracing against the table on either side of my head, her bare breasts dangling inches from my chest. Her eyes, dark and predatory, locked onto mine “So, you want a massage,” she murmured, her voice a low, dangerous whisper.
“Yes,” I breathed, unable to look away.
She lowered herself slowly, her body a long, oiled slide against mine. Her breasts, full and heavy, scraped against my chest, the sensitive nipples dragging over my skin, sending jolts of pure electricity through me. The slickness of her stomach pressed against my abdomen, then her hips, her mound brushing teasingly against the tip of my cock. My hips bucked involuntarily, a desperate plea.
She laughed, a low, husky sound, and shifted, her body moving with a deliberate grace. She turned around, still kneeling over me, her ass now facing my chest. Her bare, oiled back was a smooth expanse of muscle and skin, her spine a delicate line leading down to the deep curve of her ass.
Her hands, slick with oil, found my shoulders again, pressing down, kneading the muscles, but her focus was elsewhere. She began to move her hips, a slow, circular grind that brought her ass closer to my face.
The scent of her sweet musk filled my nostrils. Her pussy, hidden by the tight clench of her ass was inches from my nose. My cock, still hard and throbbing, sometimes pressed against the soft curve of her cheek, the friction a constant, agonizing tease.
She moved her hips in a slow, figure-eight motion, her ass cheeks rubbing against my chest, her slick skin sliding over mine. Each movement brought her closer, then pulled her away, a tantalizing dance of proximity. Her breasts, now facing away from me, bounced slightly with her movements, a hypnotic rhythm.
“You said you wanted to relax,” she purred, her voice strained, a clear sign that this was affecting her too.
“I am… trying,” I gasped, my hands flexing into fists against the sheet, desperate to touch her, to pull her closer.
She leaned back slightly, pressing her ass harder against my face, the soft, fleshy folds of her pussy now clearly visible, glistening with oil. It was swollen— a luscious bloom, her clitoris a tiny, engorged pearl peeking out from beneath its hood. I could feel the heat radiating from it, the pulsing scent of her arousal. My breath hitched. My entire body screamed for release. My cock throbbed, aching, desperate.
She shifted again, her pussy brushing against my lips, a feather-light touch that was almost unbearable. My jaw clenched. I wanted to plunge my face into her, to taste her, to devour her. But she kept it just out of reach, a cruel, exquisite torment.
Her movements became faster, more insistent, her ass grinding into my face, the slickness of her pussy teasing my mouth, my nose, my chin. The sensation was overwhelming, a pure, unadulterated assault on my senses. My cock, rubbed raw against her neck, spasmed as show moved her body and this time her nipple scraped the tip.
That was probably it, with a choked groan I came. My cum shot out, a hot, thick gush that splattered across her face, hitting her neck, my own thigh, and the massage table. A wave of pure, intense pleasure ripped through me, leaving me trembling and gasping.
Ryujin stopped, her body still poised above mine, her ass still inches from my face. She looked down, her eyes widening slightly at the sight of my cum. A slow smile spread across her lips “Well,” she said, her voice a little breathless, “that was… effective.” as she started to lick of remnants of my cum from my thigh.
My hands, finally lost all self-control, they shot out, grabbing her ass cheeks, pulling her down, burying my face in her wet, slick pussy. I licked, I sucked, I devoured, my tongue plunging into her folds, tasting the musk of her arousal and the faint tang of her nectar. She moaned, as her body tensed, her fingers digging into my thighs.
She pulled away slightly, her ass still in my hands, and twisted, reaching for a towel. With surprising efficiency, she wiped the cum from her neck and from the table, then leaned back on top of me, even when her ass was faced towards me, I could feel her eyes sparkling with a dangerous amusement.
She leaned down further, her fingers wrapping around my still-throbbing cock, slick with residual cum. She brought it to her mouth, her lips closing around the head, sucking gently, cleaning it with her tongue. My balls ached, still pulsing with the aftershocks of my orgasm.
She pulled back, my cock still in her mouth, her eyes locking onto mine “Feeling relaxed yet?” she asked, a mischievous glint in her eyes.
I didn’t answer. Instead, I tightened my grip on her ass, pulling her back down, burying my face in her pussy again, my tongue working furiously. She moaned, a long, drawn-out sound of pure pleasure, her hips bucking against my face.
After a moment, she pulled away, not waiting for her own orgasm to reach her. She stood up, her body still gleaming with oil, her pussy swollen and slick. She moved to the edge of the table, then turned, straddling me again, this time facing me. She lowered herself slowly, her pussy hovering just above the tip of my cock, which was already beginning to harden again.
Her eyes, dark and hungry, met mine. She moved her hips, a slow, teasing grind that rubbed her wet pussy lips against the head of my cock, but never quite letting me in. My entire body tensed, desperate for the penetration.
“You’re still so hard,” she whispered, her voice husky.
“You’re still so wet,” I retorted, my breath catching in my throat.
She leaned forward, her breasts brushing my chest, her pussy still teasing my tip. The anticipation was excruciating. My hands, still slick with oil, found her hips, gripping them tightly. I pushed up, a sudden, powerful thrust, and plunged deep inside her.
She gasped, a sharp intake of breath, her eyes widening in surprise. My cock filled her completely, the tight, wet heat of her pussy a revelation. She hadn’t expected it, had been caught off guard. A moment later, her surprise melted into a deep moan, her hips arching, accepting my invasion.
She regained her composure quickly, a fierce glint returning to her eyes. She leaned back, bracing her hands on my chest, and began to move, a slow, sensual grind that sent waves of pleasure through me. Her pussy gripped my cock tightly, milking every inch of me.
“Trying to surprise me, Ben?” she challenged, her voice a breathless whisper.
“Just trying to get a proper massage,” I countered, my hips thrusting up to meet her.
She laughed, a wild, free sound, and pushed down, riding me harder, faster. Her oiled body moved against mine, a symphony of slick skin and grinding hips. Her breasts, full and heavy, bounced with each thrust, their sensitive nipples brushing against my chest, sending fresh waves of arousal through me.
She leaned forward, her hands finding my shoulders, and began to move in a slow, circular motion, her pussy still gripping my cock, her breasts rubbing over my chest. It was a full-body massage, a sensual dance that combined pleasure with friction. But I noticed a change in her movements, a tightening in her hips, a slight tremor in her hands. She was close.
I wrapped one hand around her midsection, locking her hips against mine, preventing her escape. My other hand found her breast, kneading it gently, my thumb circling her nipple.
“What are you doing?” she gasped, trying to pull away slightly, fighting the inevitable. She moaned, a desperate sound, her body arching into my touch. “Ben… stop… I’m…”
I didn’t let her finish. The hand that I used to cup her breast was gone as I pulled her face down to mine, capturing her lips in a deep, hungry kiss. My tongue plunged into her mouth, mimicking the rhythm of my hips as I thrust harder, faster, deeper inside her. She moaned into the kiss, her body trembling violently, her fingers digging into my shoulders, pulling me closer. She bit my lip, a fierce, primal response, asking for more, for harder.
Her body convulsed around my cock, a series of intense, powerful contractions that squeezed every ounce of pleasure from me. Her orgasm was a raw scream that she tried to stifle against my mouth, but it escaped anyway, a pure, uninhibited release. She clung to me, trembling, her pussy still clenching and releasing around my cock.
The feeling of her climax, the tight, wet spasms of her pussy, pushed me over the edge. I emptied myself deep inside her, a hot, thick gush of cum that filled her, making her body clench around me even tighter. The aftershocks of her orgasm intensified my own, a shared wave of pleasure that left us both panting, slick with sweat and oil.
I held her close, letting our bodies settle, letting the tremors subside. My cock, still hard, pulsed inside her, slowly shrinking. After a moment, I shifted, rolling us over so she was beneath me, her body sprawled on the massage table, slick and sated. I pulled out slowly, the wet sound filling the quiet room.
But before I could create any distance, her legs wrapped around my waist, locking me to her. Her eyes, still hazy with pleasure, met mine “You really think you’re getting away after just one round?” she challenged, a mischievous glint returning to her eyes.
A slow smile spread across my face “We both want more,” I said, my voice thick with desire. “But I want to hear you say it.”
She glared at me, a playful defiance in her eyes “You’re impossible.”
“I am available,” I countered, mirroring her words from earlier “Nothing is going to happen unless you tell me what you want.”
She chuckled, a soft, husky sound. Her hips bucked, pulling me closer. “Okay, fine.” she breathed, her voice a low growl “I want more, Ben. I want you inside me again. Now.”
“Good girl,” I murmured, and plunged back inside her, burying my cock deep in her wet heat. She gasped, her legs tightening around me, pulling me even closer.
We moved together, a primal rhythm, our bodies slick with oil and sweat, the sounds of our coupling echoing in the quiet room. Her hips bucked up to meet mine, her nails digging into my back, her head thrown back, a soft moan escaping her lips “Yes, Ben,” she panted, her voice thick with pleasure. “Harder. Faster.”
I drove into her, feeling her pussy clench around me, already tightening. She was nearing another climax. I kissed her neck, her shoulder, tasting the salty sweetness of her skin “I want you to make me cum, hard” she whispered, her voice desperate, her body trembling. “Please.”
I pulled out, the wet sound loud in the room. She gasped, a cry of protest leaving her lips. But I didn’t stop. I rolled off her, then stood, pulling her up with me. She wrapped her legs around my waist, her arms around my neck, her pussy still wet and open, pressing against my stomach.
I held her tightly, her body light in my arms, and turned, facing away from the table. I bent slightly, supporting her under her thighs, her legs splayed wide around my hips, her pussy exposed and glistening. I adjusted her, then plunged my cock back into her from behind, a deep, powerful thrust that made her scream.
She clung to me, her head buried in my shoulder, her body shaking with pleasure. My hands gripped her ass, pulling her even tighter against me as I drove into her, feeling her knot around my cock. Her pussy was a hot, wet glove, milking every inch of me with each powerful thrust.
“Oh, God, Ben,” she gasped, her voice raw with desire. “Yes. Like that. I love it this way. Please, harder.”
I slammed into her, feeling the deep penetration, the friction of our bodies, the wet, shlicking sounds filling the room. Her breasts, full and heavy, jiggled with each thrust, pressing against my back.
“I’m close,” she panted, her voice cracking “Make me cum, Ben. Please. Make me cum.”
I drove into her, a relentless rhythm, feeling her body tense, her pussy clench tighter and tighter around my cock. She gasped, her breath coming in ragged pants “I’m close too, Ryujin. Where do you want it?” I whispered, my voice rough, my own climax building. She lifted her head from my shoulder, her eyes wild, dilated with pleasure. “My face,” she gasped “Cum on my face, Ben.”
I pulled her closer, my arms tightening around her, and thrust one last, powerful time. Her body convulsed around me, her orgasm a series of deep, guttural moans that she tried to swallow against my lips as I kissed her fiercely. Her pussy spasmed, milking me dry. With a final groan, I pulled out, barely making it. I managed to shoot out my cum— a thick, hot stream that splattered across her face, her chin, her lips. She cried out, a mix of pleasure and surprise, her body still trembling from her orgasm.
She stayed in still for a moment, her body still shaking, then pulled away, her eyes still glazed with pleasure. She licked her lips, tasting my cum, then leaned down, her mouth closing around the head of my still-throbbing cock, sucking gently, cleaning the remaining cum from my tip.
After a moment, she pulled away, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand. Her face was flushed, her lips swollen, her eyes sparkling with a primal satisfaction “Okay,” she said, her voice a little breathless. “Again.”
I caught her, pulling her close, kissing her deeply, claiming her mouth with my own. My tongue danced with hers, tasting her, and a bit of myself. Her body, still slick with oil and sweat, pressed against mine, hot and yielding. I broke the kiss, my breath coming in ragged gasps “Enough for now, Ryujin,” I said, my voice thick “I actually need that massage.”
She pouted, a small, defiant frown. “But I’m just getting started.”
I chuckled, rubbing my thumb over her nipple, pinching it as I talked “I know.” I lowered my hand, letting it slide down her body, over her stomach, and my fingers splayed over her mound, lightly pressing, then dipping into her slick folds, teasing her clit with a gentle rub. She gasped, a loud, undeniable moan escaping her lips, her hips bucking instinctively into my hand.
I pulled my hand away, leaving her gasping, her body trembling “Now,” I said, my voice low and firm, “you behave. Be a good girl for daddy, and give me that massage.” As I spoke, I gave her ass a firm, playful squeeze, eliciting another soft groan from her.
She glared at me, her eyes still heavy-lidded, her cheeks flushed, but a slow, sensual smile spread across her face “You’re impossible, Ben,” she breathed, but there was no real anger in her voice.
“I know,” I replied, already reaching for more towels, beginning to wipe the oil and cum from her body, then my own. The room, still dim, still filled with the scent of sex and oil, had changed. It was no longer a place of quiet, controlled relaxation. It was a space transformed by raw desire, by trust, and by a unique, competitive kind of love. And in the midst of it all, I finally felt… relaxed.
When I woke up, the room was quiet again. Actually quiet this time. Not trap quiet. Not ‘Ryujin-waiting-to-make-a-bad-decision’ quiet.
Just quiet.
For a few seconds, I did not move. My shoulders felt loose. My back did not feel like a hostile corporate merger. My neck moved without sounding like a legal complaint. Outstanding. I had gotten my massage after all. Then I noticed the water bottle on the side table. Beside it was a folded note.
I reached for it, already suspicious. Ryujin’s handwriting was exactly as annoying as her personality. Sharp. Confident. Slightly aggressive against the paper.
‘You still owe me.’
I stared at it. Then I unfolded the bottom half.
P.S. Bring food to the beach. Everyone is having lunch there. If you show up empty-handed after sleeping through half the day, Yuna will make it weird.
I exhaled once. Then saw the second line beneath it.
P.P.S. If you tell anyone you called yourself “daddy”, or that I liked it, or that I behaved after you said it, I am biting you hard enough to create an incident report.
I stared at the note for another second. Then folded it carefully. Placed it in my pocket. And laughed quietly enough that the room did not lose its peace. There she was. Still impossible. Still competitive. Still apparently capable of aftercare through hydration, logistics, and threats of bodily harm.
I drank the water. All of it. Because Ryujin would somehow know if I did not.
When I stepped out of the private room, the same staff member from earlier was waiting near the hall with perfect professional calm. Too perfect. That was never good.
“I hope the massage was pleasant, sir.”
“It was.”
Her smile did not move “You slept very deeply afterward.”
“Yes.”
“That must mean it was effective.”
“It was.”
A pause. Then she added, still smiling politely, “The first part seemed… high intensity.”
My soul tried to exit through the nearest emergency route. I looked at her. She looked back. Professional. Serene. Absolutely aware of the sentence she had just placed between us.
“To confirm, there are no cameras in the private rooms?” I said.
“Of course not, sir.”
“No audio?”
“Absolutely not.”
“Excellent.”
“Privacy is one of our highest standards.”
“Good.”
I adjusted my collar with a dignity I no longer owned “Please prepare an invoice for an exceptional-service gratuity.” The staff member blinked once. Only once “For what amount, sir?”
I named a number. Her smile did not move. Professional. Impressive “Please send it to my accountant,” I added “For convenience.”
“Of course, sir.”
“And if anyone asks, the massage was quiet, therapeutic, and medically restorative.”
Her eyes warmed with the slightest hint of amusement “Well played, sir.”
I placed a hand over my chest “High praise.”
“It was not high.”
“I accept low-medium praise.”