#malyum

ayyy em. so i know you're going through a lot right now and i want you to know i'm with you every step of the way. you may see yourself for the mistakes you've made, but i see you for your achievements. you graduated high school!! like 20%-30% of people don't do that!! but you did!! and you're going to college!! and you passed your license test!! twice!!!

you see yourself in a negative light because you believe that your mistakes have shadowed over the positive qualities that you possess, and that's false. you're gorgeous, can make me laugh harder than anyone can, you're smart, and you have so much going for you. and im so so so proud of everything that you've done.

whenever you say it's hard to go on and that you wanna end it all, it kills me. because a year ago i was saying the same thing until i met you. i never thought that making this tumblr would change my life, but it has. and i wouldn't trade it for the world. if i hadn't met you, i don't even know if i would be here. you mean so so much to me.

all my life, i have given myself to my friends and put my heart into everything i did, but never got any respect back. now that i look back on the friends i've had, i feel like i wasn't being myself. that i was just conforming myself to be the person i thought other people wanted me to be. 

that's why being your friend means so much to me. not only because you give me the same respect that i give you, but because i feel like i'm myself when i'm with you. i dont have to be someone that everyone else wants me to be. and you accept me for me. and i could never thank you enough for that.

people think im insane when i tell them i met my best friend online. they think that im being childish. but how am i being the childish one when the only person that treats me the way i want to be treated is you?

you know i would do anything for you, and if you EVER need help with anything, i hope you're not afraid to ask. if you're not happy, and you want to change something in your life, i will try my best to help you make it happen.

and when we move to our apartment in london with our two cats and one dog, all of the past will be exactly that: the past. no, you can't change it, but you can move on from it. learn from it. grow from it. and i really think you have.

i love you so much and i really do hope that you listen to what i say. i know it's hard, but you mean so much to me that the thought of losing you is unbearable.

LOVE YOU MAHI SEE YOU IN A WEEK :)))) CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ALMOST HERE!!!

p.s. i cried like 7 times while writing this so pls don't cry

p.p.s. i better be the maid of honor in ur & harry's wedding