#malereview

Ok, soooo yesterday was literally perfect for me to get over the hump. First I wrote that post yesterday which was definitely cathartic. Second, I had my acupuncture appointment. The woman that I go to has seen me probably 4 or 5 times now... so not enough to know me SUPER well but enough to know me well enough. I walked in and she could immediately tell I was stressed out about something. She told me she could tell just by how I walked in that I was carrying it all in my shoulders. When she asked to see my tongue she put her hand on my shoulder and goes, “JEEEEZE.. you REALLY are stressed... you have like teeth marks on either side of your tongue!!” Its interesting how someone you don’t even know very well, but who is also very in touch with different energies of different people, can tell that something is going on. Although, I’m pretty transparent too I think. I’m not very good at hiding my emotions. Never have been. 

So anyway, she did a lot more needles this time than the last time I went. And she did it in a layers... she put a bunch in and then let them sit for a little while. The first group that she did... when she left me there to relax I closed my eyes and just focused on my breathing. Nothing else. Very much meditative state. And I swear I could feel all the negative energy swirling out of my body... its a weird feeling to describe... I felt it mostly around my head and chest. I honestly don’t know how to describe the feeling but it was really interesting. I think that I’m pretty lucky because not everyone is very in tune with feelings like that, either because they don’t believe in things like acupuncture, or whatever... they just don’t pay enough attention to the little details. But I do feel lucky that I’m very much aware of details. 

So then she put in a bunch of other ones and also hooked me up to the pulse machine thingy... i don’t know what to call it... she put two on my hands and two on my feet. I didn’t really feel anything from it this time, but oh well. Needless to say, when I left I literally felt like a weight had been lifted off my heart. If you’ve ever had your heart broken you know the weight on your heart that I’m talking about. I could feel that was gone. Well maybe not gone completely, but at least on the mend and moving towards positivity. It was nice to talk to her too because she was able to reset my mind as well. Like I said yesterday, I’ve always believed that the universe has reasons for throwing certain things at you.... and I’ve also believed that if you put a certain energy into the universe that it will reciprocate it. So one of the things that she said to me yesterday, which was basically an affirming statement, was, “Just stop and think about what you want. Say it out loud to the universe. Say it a couple times. And if its something tangible you might even start seeing that thing you want appearing more in your life. The universe listens, you just have to be clear.”

Anyway. I left my appointment feeling good. 

Then I found out I had a reallllly light night at work and wouldn’t have to be out until like 1 or 2am... soooo I decided to see if people wanted to join me in going to see a bunch of hot guys dancing around without clothes on HAHA. :)

Double Dees was doing the male review again. So I got a group of friends together and we got a table and went to that as well. What other better way to move past stupid idiot men than to go get hot guys to give you and friend’s lap dances?? haha Also just knowing that it was going to be an evening of laughter was good enough for me. Again, going back to doing things for me. 

So yes... that was a good time. I really didn’t drink that much but when I got home I felt like shit... I think my problem really is drinking vodka. Tequila is my drink. I don’t get the hangover feeling when I stick to tequila or even gin... but literally EVERY TIME I drink vodka... doesn’t matter if its good or shitty vodka...I always feel like crap after drinking it. 

Took a nap until about 1am... then got up to go out and go work. I only had two to braid last night so it was really easy. Both horses were really good, which made my life easy. When I have only a couple like that too I turn my music on and totally jam out because I’m not so worried about my phone battery dying. So that’s exactly what I did last night. 

So ya know what else I have found recently. I’ve never been happier to go to work. I work with such amazing ladies. Even when we have stupid shit happen with customers we ALWAYS have a good time. The other thing is that I feel like I’ve gotten really close with a couple of them and its nice to feel like people actually care about you. I know I’ve jumped the gun before and said things like this about other barns I’ve worked in and such... but I’ve been doing this over a year now with the same group of girls and its still good. I think it’s different because it’s not like we’re working on top of each other and we all do our own thing. I think that makes a huge difference. When I started doing this and not working in the barn anymore I was a little sad because you don’t have that connection with the horses that you have when you’re a groom or barn manager. But, what is nice is that you braid for the same people over and over again, you do start to develop a relationship with certain horses. I totally bring cookies out for certain horses and cuddle with them. Take pictures with them. I think when I started it was hard because I was worried about how fast I was going, but now I know pretty much exactly how long it’ll take me and if I have time to chill for a bit or not. 

Anyway. I got home this morning and passed out. Hit the bed and fell asleep. haha and now I’m up... and probably going to the beach. I need some sun :)