#maeeejor

heard you got about 4 bitches (say it)
tried to say you had less boy don't (do it)
if you say I'm on your mind (show it)
I just want you to (prove it)

Deep down, I honestly feel like my relationship with my significant other is slowly dying. I don't feel that spark anymore that we both had at the beginning of our relationship. Sometimes I ask myself is it just him? or is it really me? The fact that we spend most of our days with each other is making me worry, do we need space? Are we at that point where we've run out of motivation to keep that love for each other going? Am I the cause of all these problems? Am I doing something wrong? Am I not his ideal girlfriend? Why is it that I don't feel like I'm being covered in hugs and kisses anymore? I'm lost and confused because the only time I feel like he really loves me & shows me how much I mean to him is when I'm upset. That's not something I want to be quite honest. I hate talking to him about the things that bother me because I feel like I'm just wasting my breath. I can't believe I've been such a cry baby about this whole thing because it makes me feel so vulnerable... and I hate that.

I've never been so scared in my whole entire life, having someone tell me they've fallen in love with me and how they see us building a future together. It's really something to think about. I feel so overwhelmed with all these thoughts about spending the rest of my life with just one person. I keep asking myself if this is it, am I ready to put in my all, sacrifice so much and build a home with someone? or am I still too young to be this in love? to have this mindset? do I honestly see myself with this human being? this perfectly molded soul? I am both confused yet excited, scared and anxious, is this where the soul searching stops? have I found my one and only? my soulmate? is it time to be really committed?

I honestly have no idea what your problem is with me

I mean seriously where am I headed? what am I doing with my life?

actually no I'm terrified. I'm terrified of being alone but tbh I also don't mind. I'm terrified of going to college and majoring in something I don't think I'm good enough for. I'm terrified of losing all my friends because of my busy schedule. I'm terrified of working my ass off everyday and thinking that where I'm at is not where I should be. I'm terrified of starting a new life and wasting a talent because what if my work gets rejected. I'm so terrified because I just don't want to regret anything. I want to be financially stable and I want to surround myself with great company.