The Magician: What does my muse consider to be an achievement? What sort of things blocks them from getting what they want? Do they consider themselves a good teacher?
What does my muse consider to be an achievement?Â
Anything positive that took its share of hard work to get there. However, how ‘positive’ and ‘hard work’ is defined, is up to the person. If someone gets out of a battle alive, having fought Death Eater and defended their friends with their life, it’s an achievement. If someone is depressed and made it out of bed to take a shower and have breakfast, it’s an achievement. He will honor both. It’s within this ‘honor’ that the ‘positive’ aspect of an achievement comes into play. If one’s achievement, no matter how much hard work it took, has a negative effect on others, on good people, on friends, it’s not an achievement, it’s a mistake. An insult. Or perhaps even a crime. So here you can see the strict moral code by which Edgar lives by, and which bends each of his rules to fit whatever he considers ‘good’.
What sort of things blocks them from getting what they want?Â
Externally: people who talk more than they act. This is particularly ironic if you consider that Edgar can hold the longest, most preaching speeches and is often accused of overthinking rather than acting. But the thing is, he does not pretend to be able to act. His action lies in the written word, in plans made on paper, in the organisation behind the act. That is his share of the work. But then, when people who constantly complain that the Order isn’t doing enough, it’s on them. And they become the thing getting in his way. Internally: his overthinking. As explained above, Edgar abides to strict moral codes, and the problem with that is that oftentimes in war, one has to break such codes to get what one wants. Now, Edgar never breaks rules. He bends them. And this is where the overthinking comes into play. It takes a great deal of discussion to argue for acts that are immoral. Edgar does get there, he does manage to argue in even the most cruel of favors, but this takes time. It takes hours of thinking, of shining light on all aspects, on all outcomes -- and sometimes it takes just a bit too long. Sometimes it ends up blocking from him getting what he wants.
Do they consider themselves a good teacher?Â
Edgar never paid attention in class, respecting his teachers only so much that he’d fly under their radar. He firmly believes that a good lesson learnt is not in the hands of the teacher, but of the knowledge presented and the mind of the student. It wasn’t him teaching Efa how to fight smart during the battle, it was a smart battle strategy which Efa cleverly knew to adopt. So, no. I don’t think Edgar thinks himself a good teacher -- or would ever aspire to be one. (Perhaps this is also why, when he presents moral or philosophical problems to others, and they fail to see his point, he doesn’t blame himself but the problem itself and the mind of the other person.)
