#lyingforlove

Today i told a lie. and like any other lie it usually continues on with another lie.

but you see i wasn't raised to be a bright smart and truth telling person...

i was raised to where when i grew up all i could see to do in life is tell lies and be two faced and stab people in the back to get what u want.

and most the time no one will admit that... but here i am admitting that i have a lying problem.

now this maybe hard to understand but i also have a truth problem... i tell people exactly what i think and at the wrong times and most of the time i hurt there feelings... ALOT.

do i feel bad? sure.

but again how i was raised in this crazy messed up world we call life.

anywho.... back to the lie.

i told this lie and man do i feel bad... and i feel like its gotten out of control... because ive had to tell one lie after another to cover up the first lie.

this lie involves LOVE. and love is a dangerous thing. u love some one u cant have and that is exactly what happened to me. i love someone i cant have so i told lies to try and get them to be with me....

will i want them after i have them? no prolly not. will they be hurt when they find out all i have said and did was a lie? yes. but it wont matter anymore because i will have gotten what i wanted and thats life.

you may be thinking im crazy or that im a bitch but im honest... and a liar at the same time. its hard to understand but i am almost postitive that almost every single one of you man or women have told a lie for love... to keep someone in ur life... or to get the back...

here's my advice to you...

forgive yourself. dont let it eat u up inside like it is to me. let the truth set you free... write it down. tell someone. tell the person if u must. get it off ur chest and walk away.

start fresh and be a new you.

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