#lying.txt

Every single time somebody writes smut and they don't place a separate smut tag i want to bash both myself and them in the head w/ a hammer. I do nog fucking want to block every single '___ smut' tag, nor can i just block the qord smut since it's constantly fucking used in sfw post to just say 'no smut' i hate this world and i hate the fact that people cannot keep their dicks in their pants i wish i was as smooth as a doll

Sometimes j forget being saneist is extremely normalised and then i engange in any type of media that's somehow connected to asylum patients

I am so weak for cool names like wdym your name is Forget Me Not. Wdym your name is Seraphim. God i wish i could chage my name 2 something like that w/o people looking at me like aim a weirdo

I think the reason i like reverse a lot is because it reminds of that supernatural children house movie and that singular time i read percy jackson bc my mother forced me 2 read daily (i stopped reading but it had a nice vibe) it's very cool

One of the most weird ways my subconsciousness shames me is via things i like, more importantly, whether or not it deems a thing i like worth liking. It will not care about whether or not the creator is problematic or if it has harmful ideas tied into its very core, despite my weird immovable moral compass, but if there is a flaw that is important to it, like some of the designs being uncreative or it being too popular, it will immediately regard it as unworthy, as something that i must immediately disregard and never look at again, and if i do not them i must feel shame and guilt for perpetrating such scum. I wish i could communicate with my subconsciousness, it's so weird.

I saw a meme about how all characters of hsr have the same design (or at least base for it) and now i can't unsee it nor play it without feeling like i am offending creativity itself. My brain keeps finding more and more weird ways to shame me doesn't it

"trans men must use their power over trans women to uplift them!" Buddy i am a mentally ill minor in Russia i don't even have power over myself