Mairead took a breath to steady herself, shrinking under Bertie’s gaze. She folded her hands in her lap, trying to calm the shaking she felt.
She hadn’t meant for him to find out, or for Katherine to find out, but here they were. She had come to visit her friends, a visit which had (as cruel fate would have it) fallen two days after her release from prison, for “suspected collusion with enemies of the Crown.”
Perhaps it was obvious in her appearance- the shadows under her eyes, the way she jumped a little at the approach of anyone in uniform now, the bruises she had tried (and perhaps failed) to hide with cosmetics, the way she seemed slightly thinner- or perhaps it had been something she’d said, or the way she said it, that tipped the King off. She knew if Bertie had found out from clues, he would perhaps be too kind to ask, but she had wavered first, a reaction to some comment or gesture, and that gave her away.
And now all she felt was the panic she had swallowed these last few days, twisted in her chest, some of it turned to anger at what had happened, at who had caused it. She knew there were some who had been treated worse by the British in her country- Kevin Barry was dead, and MacSwiney too, and her brother had been shot without trial almost five years ago now- and perhaps she ought not to feel this way.
“It won’t be alright,” she managed to say, her voice unsteady, but there was no mistaking the bitterness that she so often held back, even in times like these. “It won’t be.”
She didn’t even think about who she was talking to- now he was her friend first, and not her King- and it wasn’t until a few moments later that she realized her mistake, and seemed to shrink more.
Albert might not have mentioned her state, putting it down to her journey back to them and the stress he thought would come from being released from prison, but his concern for her had only continued to grow the longer they had spent in each other’s company and when the slip presented itself, he could hold politeness no longer and simply had to ask.
Her dismissal of his assurances at least brought him pause as he looked her over carefully, she had been through a lot, that much was obvious, the bitterness took him off guard though and for a moment, he let a silence linger, a little too comfortable in it to really notice that it might have been awkward or at worst intimidating for others. His gaze didn’t move from her either as he looked at her worriedly, especially as she shrank away again.
“Why -do you think that?” Gentle encouragement to speak with him, if she was willing to treat him as a friend and not a King for a matter that merited an unsteady outburst as that, well, he had to pursue it. “The -war is -over now, -peace has a --chance, is that not --something we -should -nurture rather than --reject?”