I still can't believe you're gone babygirl. It's some horrible nightmare I can't seem to wake from. 2 weeks ago today that stupid fucking fentanyl took you from me and everyone else who loved you.. I love you, and I miss you beyond words, but im angry at you. I begged u for months so whatever drug u want but stop with the fentanyl before I have to watch u overdose on video chat 3000 miles away and there's nothing I can do... Usually I enjoy being right as most do but this is the time I wish I was wrong..maybe I jinxed it, maybe one small tiny insignificant thing i could have said, or done would have changed your course. Maybe had I been nicer that day you wouldn't have been upset and resorted to using fent again....you remember? That time on the farm in Langley? We were on video chat..you got fent for the first time? Two tiny hits outta that bowl you overdosed and I watched you turn grey? All.i remember is bawling, begging u not to leave me ...and by some ...I dunno something , u woke up and u pulled thru it without narcan..I'm angry you took the risk again and now you're gone..I'm im so fucking angry but....I miss you and I love you far beyond any amount of anger..I will forgive you. I hope you're peaceful and happy whereever you are ...I know you prolly won't see this ....I'm sure the afterlife doesn't have Tumblr. I love you cori
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