late night talking, daydreaming, as it was and love of my life for the Harry Styles ask game!
EEE thank you so so so much for asking!!!!! i absolutely adore these questions and i am the happiest girl in the world when i get to talk about my bucky boy!!!!! 💗
late night talking: it’s 3 am and you and your f/o can’t sleep. what are y’all talking about? write a small dialogue of the conversation.
i get very lovey dovey when it gets late!!! so our 3 am conversations usually look a lot like me telling bucky how much i love him and how handsome i think he is, and so often it always turns into us talking about the future!!! about him retiring one day. what kind of house we want to live in. how many kids we want. what we think they'll be like. i want them to have bucky's smile and resilience. he wants them to have my hair and my optimism.
daydreaming: what’s a daydream about your f/os that you find yourself going back to?
i always think of falling asleep with bucky. i always think of falling into bed with him at the end of the day, when the world is quiet and dark and we have nothing else to do. i think of finding each other under the sheets, where we're safe and we're warm, and i think of him pulling me close. i think of nestling right into the crook of his arm. he kisses me over and over again and he rubs my back and he talks to me real low about everything that comes to mind. and as i start to doze off, he tells me to rest. that he'll keep me safe. there is nothing more comforting.
as it was: think about your longest self ship. has anything changed as time passed? (s/i development, dynamic changes, marriage, etc)
oh gosh, somehow it feels like everything has changed and nothing has changed at the same time!!! bucky and i have been together for almost five years!!! we're married now!!! it feels like this relationship is the most natural thing in the world. we don't have any more questions about where we stand with each other like we did in the very beginning, we don't have any doubts, we don't have any fears. i know he's so in love with me just like he knows i'm so in love with him. sometimes it's hard to know when i end and he begins. and yet!!! despite it all, it still feels like we're still in that honeymoon phase!!! he still makes me blush!!! he still gives me butterflies!!! i feel like i crush on him a little harder each day!!!
love of my life: do you have any former f/os? what happened?
i do!!! the two that come to mind are mick dav.ies from super.natural and derek mor.gan from crim.inal minds. nothing bad happened, we just sort of lost the spark. it wasn't anybody's fault!!! i still hold so much love for them!!! we just weren't meant to be forever and that's okay!!! and it actually worked out perfectly because!!! if i hadn't met derek, i wouldn't have met my boyfriend luke!!!
