Sometimes I think about Bobby crossing paths with Alex's parents when they come to pick up his things and him losing it on them. Telling them not to pretend they cared because Alex knew that they hated him and he was the only person it should have matter knowing they cared. I think about Alex's mom crying and Alex's dad screaming. Telling Bobby he better never see him again. I think of Alex's mom taking it to heart, eventually taking their daughter and leaving his dad. I think about her throwing her life into LGBT organizations to make sure no kid ever felt like Alex did because of her
I think about Alex finding out and crying because she was always capable of that empathy it just took his death for her to realize
I think about Reggies "one fight away from divorce" parents finally getting that divorce and going on to live full lives beyond it but never quite being whole again. Reggies mom having another son and telling him of his big brother he would never meet. Reggies dad remarrying to a woman with 2 daughters he treats as his own and thinking Reggie would have loved you so often he sometimes has to step away because the hole where his son should be won't stop aching.
I think about Reggie learning this and breaking down because his parents loved him. Even when they didn't love each other
I think about Bobby going to Luke's funeral, after Reggies before Alex's, and hiding in the back, unable to handle the anger from the Pattersons. But Mitch sees him before the funeral even starts and pulls him to the front to stand beside them because he was your family too son. I think about that being the thing that pushes Bobby Shaw over the edge. Bobby Shaw who probably had a shaky relationship with his biological family. Bobby Shaw who just lost his brothers. I think about him breaking down and fracturing apart with Mitch and Emily doing the same beside him and none of them able to make it better because they're gone and they're not coming back.
I think about that being what breaks Bobby Shaw the most and becomes the final straw to leave Bobby Shaw behind. I think about a Bobby trying to go to Alex's funeral the next day and getting kicked out by one or his uncles. I think about a record producer finding him shaking on the steps to the funeral home and saying hey aren't you that kid who's band mates all just up and died? I think about Bobby telling him to fuck off and concider driving his fist into his face when he doesn't.
But Bobby isn't a violent person and he's given a deal, a chance, to leave all this behind. To become Trevor Wilson and never have to think about Bobby Shaw or grieve like Bobby Shaw or remember every day Bobby Shaw was the only one who was allowed to live. Trevor Wilson doesn't have to think about any of that and Bobby is really tired of being himself. He doesn't realize how deep the hole he's dug is until the contract is signed and there's no backing out.
