#ltdbb

So, for those of you who know my sister’s fanfic, Fighting Darkness, you probably also know that I have been writing a prequel to it by the name of Let The Dawn Be Broken... Well, I’ve realized something about it....

I’m just not interested in writing it anymore.

When I first started writing this story in August of 2015, I thought I could finish it in a decent amount of time. I figured it would be 10 chapters long and explain how Alana and Nathaniel got together using the plot points that were in Fighting Darkness as a base to further establish Alana’s and Samantha’s stories...

But...

Now, I feel that Alana has changed.... She has grown with me and she is no longer the person she was when I started writing LTDBB.... She’s more mature, her life is a lot more simplistic, and her time in Weathering wasn’t really bad... Especially considering she is essentially me.

My home town, the city that Weathering was based on, isn’t a bad little city. There’s 5 grocery stores, the High School has 2 campuses (9th Grade Center and WHS), you can’t really throw a rock without hitting a church of some kind, and although I don’t agree with most of the political view of most of the townsfolk, people do try to be nice to each other.... To a certain extent.

When it comes to the students of Sweet Amoris, I personally would have been drawn to Alexy, Armin, Kentin, Nathaniel, Violette and Iris... All while thinking Rosalaya and Priya are too popular to wanna hang out with me, being constantly reminded that Castiel is a tame version of my last ex (who was horrible), wanting to pummel the crap out of Amber, her friends, Cappucine, and Melody, being curious towards Lysander, harboring slight feelings for Priya but actively pursuing Nathaniel and Armin, shrugging Dake off as a stalker, not even paying attention to Dajan and Jade, and simply trying to mind my own business unless something was thrown into my lap...

I made Alana a scythe wielding bad ass because that’s what I want to be. I want to own a scythe that is loosely based on Crescent Rose (but not a gun) and be able to use it in a very kick ass manor. The only scythes I own are my necklace, a fold away scythe and a cheap $10 scythe that I modified (its still really flimsy). No, its not realistic. I even got into an argument over that in the forum... But it was my story.... So, I didn’t really care to a certain degree.

I would constantly find excuse after excuse to tell readers why I haven’t updated it in a long time and now I’ve run out. Granted, I could easily state that work, home and the shred of a social life are making it to where I can’t really post... But, I’ve managed to post at least once a week to once every two weeks in the Nathaniel Fanclub, create the Club Photos that I’m required to do, and even update my profile and signature... So, there is no excuse. There is only a reason. That reason being, I’ve grown tired and bored with my own story. My enthusiasm toward Let The Dawn Be Broken has run out. My love for the world I have built has run its course. 

I no longer wish to create a story where my character is a celebrity. I don’t wanna be one, so Alana shouldn’t be one either...