No, but, listen - the inherent tragedy of knowing that someone is dead and in spite of that loving them. For us, the player, in the present (future) we know she's doomed by the narrative. The past (present) though? She's still here, she isn't gone yet.
Lost Records is making me emotional because of all the little bits between befriending her, and learning of the unavoidable tragedy. I originally wanted to go for Autumn, then failed/broke a bunch of her hearts unknowingly tipping the scales towards Kat. And I also, like Swann, just fell in love with her so unexpectedly. Her first impression is this bold, not afraid of anything, not taking any shit, xyz. She stands up for you. The organic progression as well (that I didn't know were signs of her illness) of my choices leading up to those heartbreaks. Like I didn't know her, I only had rapport with Autumn since she's the first main character you meet.
I chose to stay behind when we did the forest walk. I thought all of these things at the cabin were morbid, but cool. I love jabbing at that line between humor and what isn't nesssarily the "right choice" Just to poke fun, but also genuinely share moments. When Kat's tape happens I'm concerned when she says she's needs a moment since she's tired. I comment on it, but we move on in the game.
You get these little things collecting in your bedroom, a few doodles, some cutouts, and notes. You look at all of them and read between the literal lines. It feels genuine.
In the future, Nora and Autumn talk about her in past tense. They keep wanting to move on from it. I kind of find it almost impossible to not look back at the memories I'm experiencing/remembering as them for the first time and label these as not good memories. It felt almost alienating that I cherished those memories and still believed a little in the magic (or no magic supernatural elements), while they tried to bury it.
I'm in denial until it's 100% confirmed in-game. I keep telling myself there has to be a way to save her (there probably isn't). I want to believe that she's not gone. After all she's right here. She admits to Swann she cut her hair before they'd take it all away, then asks if she could help with it. Of course I chose to help, why wouldn't I?
I'm in her bedroom waiting for her to finish a playlist for me.
And everything is alright.