#lovestarrie

It should never be okay to hurt someone just to make yourself feel better. That kind of toxic mentality says a lot about your own character development. That bit of momentary satisfaction is enough to eat away at you for the rest of your life. 1) You're taking away a moment of another person's happiness although that's their fundamental right. 2) You've just stunted your own personal growth. Spreading your own venom only comes back around to bite you in the ass later. Some time down the road, you're going to lie awake at night and wonder about why you're still so insecure about yourself and why you can't seem to fill a void in your heart. So instead of letting the venom seep back into your veins, learn to love yourself first. Love every bit of it. Love your crooked teeth. Love your small boobs. Love your inability to step in rythm to a song. Love your freaking love handles. Love yourself and the rest of life follow suit.

In a day short of a year, I have learned a lot more than I could have ever imagined. I think that I am just grateful that I have someone so special that I can wake up next to - someone that I can roll over and whisper good morning to - someone who I am going to spend the three hundredth and sixty-fifth day with.

Feeling emotionally drained. I've given up on pretending to sleep. It's been awhile since I last saw a sunrise. The last time was probably when I was driving back home from our Socal trip. There's something extraordinary about a sunrise; it's different from a sunset. Maybe it's because I'm usually awake to see and acknowledge the fact that the sun is going down. I'm probably taking it for granted. But regardless, a sunrise feels different. The times that I am awake for it, it's like as if it has been waiting for me. Almost as if the sky was expecting me to witness the change in its colors, the start of a new day. It's 6am. I'm sure the walls have heard enough of my muffled cries. Puffy eyed and nearly sleepless, I've lost sight of why I'm still crying. 6am. Emotionally drained.

I've never missed someone who was literally sitting right in front of me. But today I did. I never knew it was possible to miss someone even before they've left. But I guess that's what love does to you.... I suppose so...

So thankful for the gifts that God has allowed me to play with.

I hope you don't mind the goofy smile that I have on my face every time I roll over and see you sleeping next to me. - Every morning is a good morning when I wake up next to you. I hope you don't mind that I am perfectly content with staring at your face for more than a minute at a time. - Every detail I absorb into my memory is another item on the What I Love About You list. These are just two small reasons as to why I fell in love with you - how I fell in love with you. Sappy, yes. But I just hope you don't mind.

is always a good time. Our friendship has also reached a new level. We've been friends since middle school and our bond has only gotten stronger. That's how you know that this is one person that you'll grow white hair together with. We always joke around about being old ladies with white hair and sipping afternoon tea together. And quite honestly, that is exactly how I want our future to be. I want her to be there when I get married, when I have children. I want our children to have play dates together too. It's astonishing, to look back and realized how far we've come together and to look at the future and think about all the good that is to come. I'm pretty stoked about the rest of my life because it's gunna be good. And I know it. Yuppp.

Because of you... Us.