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It came to me once again here it goes

guess... part 2 of this...? [part 1] Same characters Adoptive siblings, Big Brother got a girlfriend to forget about his feelings towards adoptive sister. They knew each other before the adoption. I've been working on this story for 10 years, and finally decided to share parts of it here... This is an angst scene, sfw, but adoptive siblings... English is not my first language, so I am sorry about the mistakes. I'd love to know your thoughts.

[His POV] I am late... I am late... but... I got some snacks for her, it's not that late, right? Besides, it is friday, so she won't have to sleep early, I can be late for practice, I am sure she will be happy about it...

I opened the door, she was sitting on a chair, looking at the window, already in her night gown, holding her legs, bare feet, the reflection on the glass suggests she is sad... I am the worst...

"I am home" even after hearing me, she does not move "Have you decided what we are going to watch? I am not that hungry, but I thought maybe..." still no movement, I came closer. "Hey..." Her face was red, she had been crying, her head rested on the glass, I kneel before her. "hey... I am sorry, I know I am late... but we can still have our movie night... here, I brought your favorites" she finally moved her eyes, meeting mine, but turns back to look outside. "c'mon bee..."

"you... already ate... right? that's why you're not hungry..." she said it coldly, not even looking at me, her voice was low...

"yeah... things came up and we just..." I didn't want to bring her up, but I guess it was pretty obvious to her that I was with my girlfriend. "but we still can have our da.. movie night, we can make some popcorn.. I will even be late to my practice tomorrow so we can spend more time together... and you can tell me all about your d..."

"I don't feel like it..." she was way colder. I stood up, maybe she was right, maybe my sister was a little manipulator...

"So you just curled up like this waiting for me to make me feel bad about myself?"

"No! God! Is that what you think of me?" she finally reacted, she was shocked, and I could tell she was hurt, about to cry again, but she held back "whatever, I am going to bed" I felt so bad, as if I could feel her own heart full of sorrow.

"c'mon bee... I am here, aren't I" she paused.

"no... you are not. You haven't been here for a long time" she turned to me, finally meeting my eyes "and it breaks my heart" tears fell down her rosy cheeks "I wish you were, I wish you were here" a painful expression, finally whiping her heavy tears "I wish you came back home on time, I wish you came back to me"

"bee... " I didn't even know what to say, she never showed me this side of her before, she always held back... was she jealous? was she going through something? She looked like a kid who got lost...

"I am sorry, I am so sorry... please forgive me..." she rushed to my arms, desperately hugging me "I don't want to be like this" she cried, not letting me go, as if begging for fogiveness "I am so sorry... please don't hate me..."

"I am here... it's ok..." I hug her back... lean my head above hers, she looks so tiny in my arms... I stroke her hair... the scent of shampoo, she washed it today... with my favorite one... She is so clingy... how could I ever hate her? how could I think my little sweet sister was manipulating me... how could I ever think she would ever do something bad? She is the kindest and sweetest, she would starve herself before doing anything to hurt other... she is always so sensitive... maybe she had a bad day... "hey.... what's wrong? tell me"

She took a deep breath, still holding me tight. "I've been thinking a lot lately..." buried her face in my chest, her voice was shy "I've always... always... held myself back... for your sake, for mom and dad, for this family's... and I used to say to myself, it was for my sake as well... but I figured it out... I was just being a coward" she held my shirt tightily "and I don't want to be a coward anymore" she looked up at me, her face all red, her wide teary eyes "for the longest time I..."

I immediately cover her mouth, she is surprised, trying to get out. I hold her behind her neck and my hand firmly covers her mouth. Her eyes are wide, tearing up. I feel my face heating up to my ears... She felt it... as much as I did... I lower my face to meet her eyes.

"please, stop" I look deep inside her eyes, struggling to talk, to keep being rational "don't... don't say what you might regret" our expressions... troubled "after you say it... there's no way we can go back..." she fights herself out of my hold, gasping for air.

So... for ten years I've been working on a story... Since I don´t have a notebook with me right now, I thought I'd share a piece of an idea that came to me today. This is an angst scene, sfw, but adoptive siblings... English is not my first language, so I am sorry about the mistakes. I'd love to know your thoughts.

I have been tossing and turning every night since my (adoptive) older brother hugged me that night, I was so hurt that he was dating, but I kept telling myself I was hurt because he didn't tell me... so... I guess I am not the only girl in his life anymore, no more telling me everything, no more teasing or hanging out... just the two of us... so... when mom and dad aren't home... he will invite her over, no more cooking together... or falling asleep on the couch... will he talk to her about me? will he say how I was the only one...? Am I still special? Does he remember telling me we would marry each other when we were kids?

I hold back my tears and get up, it is around 3 a.m., the house is cold and silent. I don't have an apetite, but figure I have to occupy myself so I go to the kitchen to warm some milk.

I put the cup inside the microwave and sit on the chair, hugging my legs, my bare feet are cold and I can feel my eyes watering, but hold myself not to cry about him...

When I hear the *bip* I open my eyes, just to find him standing at the door, looking at me.

"ah, sorry, did I wake you?"

"I thought you were asleep"

"no... just warming some milk... want some?"

"nah, thanks"

"what are you doing up? came for a glass of water?"

he didn't go for the fridge, he went straight to the table and sat in front of me.

"thought you might be awake" I got up to get the cup out "so... are you avoiding me?"

"... what?"

"you are avoiding me" he got behind me "did I do something to upset you?" I look up at him, pouty "besides... not telling you about..."

"we're fine" I say turning my back again, blowing the steam away

"yeah, right" he goes after me "you can't fool me, you know, you won't even look at me"

"I am just... sad that I had to know it from your friend... after you stood me up so many times... I thought of all people, you would never keep anything from me..."

"I am sorry... I didn't want you to find out this way either... I just didn't know how to tell you" I can see his chest up and down, breathing heavily, anxious... "I am sorry, bee" he looked at me with a hurt expression, I could feel my heart melting...

"sorry... I should be happy for you..." the words slippered out of my mouth

"nothing is going to change... bee" he slides my bangs behind my ear. I feel a ray of rage inside my chest, like my face was on fire... "I am still here"

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The distance and the time between us

It'll never change my mind