I've been lying to myself. I told myself to move on, but my mind, body, and soul can't. For the first time in a long time, I felt reality reality of hugs, kisses, and true emotions that I thought were frozen, but I lost the one person God has chosen. The nightmare became vicious and ferocious. Destroying our emotions. We fell and become broken. I still feel the connection. Something my heart can't continue to reject. This is so depressing I lay empty and restless for losing the love that always kept me breathless.

Please, I've left myself behind, crying at night to the light that was once there. I've fallen with no escape from reality shackled. I cry at night while showers waters run ldoen my face like rain from the skies. I'm hurt with old wounds that open up at sunrise. I cry alone in my head deep in my soul physically, my body part ways like a slipt road. My heart screams help as my soul cries at loneliness. Wherever I am, a happy place is nomore in the life of noir. Left in the dark, like useless memories of life. Life that I am finished. It has shown me nothing but pain, suffering, and battered memories of happiness that ends and sadness that multiply. I must decide to multiply or devide my life kissing heavens gate by sunrise. Life is a journey in different eyes. Woe is me, I cry.

I'm empty, soulless, and broken. I don't know anymore, I don't feel anymore, and what's left of me is pain. Hidden pain, I hide behind the smile, yes the smile that only wishes for happiness and peace in my mind. Yet I'm blind. So in the dark, I cry, one day life will be done with me like a common whore on the street. I whither away wishing to see my little brother someday. Who am I? I've forgotten as I grow empty and rotten. This world is not for me, one who is dark, lonely, and empty.

Our Happy Place

It's okay to be scared. it's okay to harbor the pain and shame you've felt. Take my hand and feel comfortable, sanity, and a clear mind of hope of a happy ever after. Feel my warmth and my care. As I whipe the tears that bind you, my dear. My heart is here, for it's no place that shines so clearly. When you fall, I will clear the sky's to catch your embrace, to see the smile on ones face. Stay as the heart bond and the emotions we feel earthquakes. We awake to two spirits clasp, a loving fate. That onced race, life has placed a magnificent face upon connection spiritual surface. Whisper each other emotions in thy ear, as fate cheers. The most glorious fireworks burst in the heart, spirit, and sometimes the hearts fears.

I can't tell you where you will be in the future or what battles you will face. Nor the tears that will crawl down your face with nor what emotions you will feel. Nor the memories you will hold onto, forget or share. What I can tell you is that your smile and genuine generosity will take you places. I can tell you that you're in important piece in someone's life, even when you feel alone. I can tell you that hope will keep the fire burning in your heart when days get dark and cold. You're beautiful, handsome, gorgeous, magnificent, and insperation. I will tell you, you have a journey to fulfill, and on this journey; it's okay to fail and be lost. Just keep moving forward each day, bringing more joy to live.

The grim pain, shares a compassion with the heart, love lusting temptation. A feeling never ending spinning, kissing, touching grinning. Feeling of two souls connecting mending. Emotions burning water flowing with fireworks bursting. Facial expression turning with toes curling. The feeling is heaven worthy, penetration becomes inspiration inspired desired by art itself. Forbidden fruit kissed by in angel melting reality.