#lovebuf

I want to believe, that you want to call me sometimes... But it's probably just me. It's hard loving someone you know loves you in return yet the relationship can't be, at least not right now. When you called today I was upset for your situation but I was so glad you chose to call me in your time of crisis. It gives me.hope. hope that there will be something later... I've resigned to the fact I won't talk to you as much, and even our texting feels idk forced on your end. I doubt you want to stop communicating with me but it does feel strained like you are not saying something or not acting as you want to. The crazy part of me says there's a reason that's nefarious. my loving and logical side reiterates the facts...she's trying to do something on her own stop holding her back. When she feels ready is when it will happen. I'm just going to be there whenever she needs me for whatever she needs. Just like I've always been since I've known her. She will never know a colder version of me she receives only my love.. wish I could hurry the precess of self healing for her but I can cause then it wouldn't be self...I love you my little fox 🦊