• i’m sorry. i can’t do this anymore. - Shu
miscellaneous angst starters. [X] | @lostwithintime
Those words...did it mean they were over? It was so sudden... he should have expected it with his track record, yet, when they came from Shura, they hurt way more than he could have imagined. It felt like time just stopped there for a moment, all sound drowned out, muffled against those words that loudly echoing in his head. A pain in his chest surfaced, a pain which caused even the slow trembling breath he exhaled to ached. His brow lifted ever so slightly, eyes studying, trying to read the others expression. Did he miss heard, ,misunderstand? Nah, he didn’t he was sure of it. His sight lowered, his own thoughts surfacing, the one that gnawed away at his confidence, reminded him that he wasn’t worth shit. That he was lucky enough that Shu tolerated him so far.
“Okay.” Nolan mumbled, teeth scraping over his bottom lip, trying to hold his breath, collect himself.“Thats...thats fine.” He lied, taking a step back, or staggering more like it. Was it cause he got hurt again? Was it cause he followed when Shura ordered him to stay? He was stubborn, he knew that but he was trying to help, but maybe Shu didn’t need help, maybe in his world, the one filled with monsters, Nolan was just a burden. “I..” He wanted to defend himself , fight for them but no words came, instead he removed his hand from his wound, from under his jacket, it was stained red in his own blood. But that hurt, it didn’t matter. It didn’t compare to the pain in his chest, the heartache? “I..” He tried again. The air around him starting to stir, his emotional dip triggering his magic to go haywire again. Maybe this is what Shura meant. He was too much, he would never control this, what was the point. His fist clenched shut, followed by his eyes , his ring lit up and his form flickered out , the air booming and cracking the ground where he had stood , teleporting, but this time not home, to their apartment, to the safety of his couch or his mothers, no, just away, as far as away as he could with no regard of the strain. His wish to stop running had all but dissipated, leaving him at square one, before he met Shura... no, worse.
He reappeared in some forest of sort, in the middle of nowhere. the air so cold his breath was visible, but it didn’t matter, not to him. He sank down, back against a tree, exhausted, hurt, silent tears running down his cheeks but having no will to teleport to shelter, his magic whirled around him, kicking up snow, swaying the trees and cutting branches, like it wished to protect him from harm but unable to protect him from himself.









