#lostbutneverfound

I'm no doctor, or someone related to medical field. In fact, I'm more on the technical field. But there are times i'm feeling so down, I even diagnose myself depressed. They say depression is more than just feeling sad, it's more of intense and unrelenting feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and worthlessness, with little, if any, relief. Problems come and go, i know. But mine seems to be stuck. I seem to be stuck. I question God for whatever state I'm in now. This wasn't the track i build in my dreams. This wasn't the future i dreamt of. My life seems to be worthless that if i disappear at this insant, no one will even notice. I'm a self-centered, toublemaker. I want someone to talk to. Someone, maybe a friend, but i think i might get them weirded out. Just, someone, help.

She stares at him now from across the room She can only think of the love she would give him And if they were together how the time would zoom What she would give to be with him She'd even go as far as to give her life But he ignores her Which is a worse pain than a hot knife She has come so far and can't give up now In hopes that he'll love her And turn her life around Every moment she sits the sadness goes deeper Like she's climbing a hill But the hills getting steeper She won't give up i know that for sure But I don't know what will come first Love or destruction I'm hoping love because she deserves it But like a pitcher in baseball He just curves it And turns it into another excuse She like a train And he's the caboose She's tried to turn around But it's no use He goes wherever she does It hurts her Even breaks her heart One more sadness and it'll tear her heart apart She's trying to mend it But she needs his hearts help Cause one heart can't fix the damage of another's All she wants is that love The love she always wanted but never got