#lore dec

how will I ever be normal again after seeing unmatched adoration for the universe on crowley's face after watching him smile so openly speak so passionately with shining hope in his eyes how how

you're happy and you're being silly you're letting him drive your precious car because it's him and you trust him then you're dancing together then he's looking at you like he's gonna say I love you then you tell him you want to run away together for the THIRD time and he says nothing lasts forever and you kiss him you kiss him to show him how much you mean it what he's leaving behind but he says "i forgive you" and he chooses them again in a horribly misguided notion of Doing Good then you're left to return to your car with your plants and there's nothing left anymore really there's nothing

fuck fuck fuck he was waiting he was still waiting outside the bookshop next to his car he was waiting for him, even after all that he didn't leave because he thought maybe. he hoped maybe.