#lordimlost

I had an amazing time at @fpchurchindy Drive-In Church. Thank you @james_william_jackson for allowing me to minister to your church family. It’s always a blessing to be able to share my music interpreted by my soul. The lyrics that I write are through my vision and I pray that it always blesses other’s souls as well. #LordImLost #DriveInChurch #FerventPrayer #PastPresentFuture https://www.instagram.com/p/CAmRpIJHjo9/?igshid=d840i0eo17kg

I never knew that when I wrote this song several years ago, I would be in a #LordImLost situation. I never knew that I’d be dealing with the amount of anguish that I’ve experienced lately. I never knew that the amount of people that has turned their backs on me would be as astronomical. I never knew that I’d literally be in my bed daily asking God, “what is my next” because I had NO CLUE! I never knew that I’d literally NOT have a solution to just ONE of the many problems that I’ve been facing. I’m usually the problem solver. I never knew that I could have a pain so deep that it would take my breath away. This song was written about a friend of mines situation at the time that he was going through a rough situation. I didn’t know that a near day, I would be in that same space. See the full video on my YouTube page https://youtu.be/jpZG0vcA7RY. Video directed by @1rokstar #SchawaynaRaieMusic #PastPresentFuture (at Eagle Creek Park - Indy Parks and Recreation)

Sometimes the people who are called to do the greatest things are the most tortured. #PrayForThem #LordImLost #PastPresentFuture

As I reflect upon this past year, it was VERY challenging. I’ve had more downs than ups and it placed me in a very vulnerable and dark place. I was so depressed that I began to isolate myself more than I usually am. I cried often without knowing why. I’ve lost relationships. I’ve lost things. I’ve lost myself. There were days that I couldn’t get out of bed because I just didn’t want to face the world. There were times that I thought that I no longer wanted to be in this life. I’ve put on the face that everything was well when inside I was slowly dying. Throughout my life, I’ve given of myself so much more than what had been given to me. It left “me” open to hurt and much pain. Towards the end of 2017, I decided to take my life back. I decided to take self care seriously opposed to it just being a saying that I would spout out. I decided to pour into myself mentally, emotionally, financially and physically. I’ve decided to step away from things that were not positively conducive to my well being and growth. As I go into 2018, I take a promise that I will continue to love on myself and to create an atmosphere where I can receive love. I’m usually transparent BUT, I didn’t want to share this about me because people will judge you. My prayer is that someone sees themselves in this post and that they will begin to do their own work! I’ve shared this years battles with only a few people so that they would keep me in heavy rotation on their prayer list. I BELIEVE in the POWER of prayer! For PRAYER is what got me through this year. Someone interceded for me. Thanks to all that love me! Next year will be a great one! #PastPresentFuture #LordImLost #iWontLetYouGo #NoMoreHiding

New song alert! Go to my YouTube page to see this full video. It will bless your soul! While you’re at it, download the whole album called Past, Present, Future now available on every digital market! #SchawaynaRaie #PastPresentFuture #LordImLost (at Eagle Creek Park - Indy Parks and Recreation)

That time I started losing people (not to death) and I didn't think that I would make it. God made himself my EVERYTHING! El Shaddai is always waiting for you to grab back hold of Him. #LordImLost #NoMoreHiding #iWontLetYouGo #MyEverythingIsHim #TrueProvider #AllSufficientOne #TattedOnMyFingerForReminder