#lockingin

Digital Workbook Strengths - Intentional Photography, Site Engagement. Weaknesses - Showcasing text content exploration, design exploration W.I.P - Critical Reflections - Started getting better through later designs but still needs to be built on with more specifics.

Explanatory Document Strengths - Critical Insights, Weaknesses - Having the right message for each thing (I got the annotation and positioning statement !), IMAGES AND REFERENCES ( did not put those in, oops)

Poster Design Strengths - Interesting different approach, taking on feedback (I liked the feedback Paul gave me on gridding it really helped me a lot and I took into account and nearly changed the whole thing, looked better) Weaknesses- Exploration in text content, layout and exploration of different type faces - really just exploration

This isn't good anymore. I need to stop fooling myself. I've deluded myself too much thinking I stand a chance but the answer is very clear. If she likes me still, I wouldn't be this confused. And I think I'm also obsessing too much over her and it's unhealthy as fuck.

I am done being consumed by you. You want a boyfriend more than a girlfriend, I see that now. You have an insane case of avoidant issues and I cannot deal with that. We may be a lot similar but I also can't help but feel the gap in our frequencies when I talk to you. Now that you have known me, now that I have bared myself to you when I was wasted, now that you've learned about how much of a fucking insecure and loser I actually am; you don't want me that way anymore. And I have to make peace with that. Your crush that you claimed you had on me was not as massive as the one I do for you. I might just be an eye candy to you. I doubt you were ever sexually attracted to me. Thank you for being nice, at least. And oh, that hang out. I will not follow up like a fucking idiot. I've told you to update me when you're finally free, but I am already making peace with the possibility that you might never bring it up again, because why the fuck would you? Everything you've ever said to me was for niceties. Nothing else. Nothing more. And I am trying to make peace with that. Until then, I'll keep writing about you here. Fucking embarrassing.