#livedliveswilllive

Then it happened, the stories, the outcries. You had not only cheated on Carrie, I woman I thought you loved but you had sexually abused other women. I had never even for a second thought that Alex Day and Sexual Abuser could be things used in the same sentence, let alone know that Alex Day IS a Sexual Abuser. I remember just getting up from my computer, sitting in the hallway of my house and sobbing. Sobbing for hours and hours. Alone. When the crying finally stopped I got up, took down that poster, cut up that shirt and removed your music from your phone. At school I scribbled out your face in all the photos of you and Carrie, removed the one’s of just you.  But for me, it didn’t end there. It wasn’t as easy as removing any trace of you from my life and being done with it like that. It wasn’t as easy as that because you had been a giant part of my life for so long. I cried a lot, I cried myself to sleep a lot. I even remember breaking down at school when a close friend of mine asked me if I was okay. I also remember telling her that I felt stupid for crying over you.  She told me it wasn’t stupid, because you had been a part of my life, you had felt like a friend for so long and what you had done had betrayed me, had shattered my heart into pieces.  I hear now, after all these years that you are claiming that you were ‘Ghosted’ and that by that happening to you it is emotionally cruel.  Ghosting is when someone stops talking to someone else for no reason. Your friends stopped talking to you because you did something, you did something horrible. This is not ghosting.  The Community dropped you because you did something horrible. This is not ghosting.  What people did is react to an action you performed. Actions have consequence’s, Alex and just because you don’t like the consequence to something that you did does not mean that you get to claim abuse and cruelty in hopes of getting someone to sympathise with you.  If you want to talk about Emotional Cruelty then I would think we would need to talk about what happened to Carrie after you did what you did, we would need to talk about what happened to the girls you abused after you did what you did and maybe we would need to talk about what happened to people like me after you did what you did. 

There is only one positive that has come out of this, Alex and that is that I continued to follow Carrie. I got to see her achieve her dream on the west end, that in turn helped me decide to follow my dream as well. I got to see her fall in love again with Pete, Pete who is loving and caring and nothing like you. Pete who is sweet and supportive. I can now say with certainty that I don’t want a relationship like you and Carrie had. I want a relationship like Pete and Carrie have.