#live4tay

I miss you. My heart is with you in heaven. I love you. I hope you're safe. 💚💛 #nationalsiblingsday #live4tay (Taken with Instagram)

Sometimes its just too much to handle, all of it. The thought of anything without you is enough to put me on my knees. I'm scared Tay--I'm really freakin scared. I don't want to face this world without you, I'd rather just wait for everything to pass me by. We were going to write that book together, but how can I do it with half a story? How can I go on without my sister? So many questions that run through my mind. I just wish I could hear your voice again and it scares me that I can't. I wish I could tell you I love you just one more time. Back to being scared. And then I remember that you never lived in fear, you never let it strike you out. My mind always runs to that conversation we had in bed that night. I will keep every promise I made, even if I cry a little. I miss you so much Tay Tay....so much. I love you sissy. #Live4Tay #Pray4Tay 💚💛 (Taken with Instagram)

Every night I light a candle and I talk to her until it goes out. It's not our usual Skype conversations but it will have to do...I miss you so bad Tay 💚💛 #Pray4Tay #Live4Tay (Taken with Instagram)