When you want something to happen.When your wanting to create something that you feel will give you purpose. I really dont pay attention to pauses or bringing two things together. I just do it with a period or a dot that lets you know where I stop to think of something else. Every once in a while a comma or semicolon pops in;but not to often whether it is or isnt out of place. It makes sense to me. It feels like it should be there. I dont know why but Ill forget chunks of what im writing or typing then. stress on what I was really trying to say that isnt coming out. the way you want it to. Sometimes things will create a whole life of its own and you go down a different road all together. I want more than anything is for people to feel comfortable. Some of you also might say that this garbage or that this is all nonsense. Sometimes I spend long periods of time worrying about what pencils go in what pouch. What pencil do I feel like today. What part of me will come out whether Im drawing or painting or playing music or writing will it be a timid version of who I am that day will it be a confident person.Sometimes I fantasize about drugs sometimes I get tired for no reason and then I think is this normal do other people feel this. Will things start to make sense. the answer is I dont know . Now maybe you want an answer as to why Im doing this again I do it because it makes me feel good. Thing I never said how doing this makes me feel good. Just letting my thoughts come out of my fingers. This is just the first of a bunch of things that cripple my mind sometimes. In a small attempt in hope that someone will understand where Im coming from that you feel the same way. Will I be accepted in this community. I just do what I do best. I just am the moment that Im creating and being apart of a scene that I hope everyone feels like they belong because they do. Im no better than anyone else. We all know we judge in our head its one of the things as humans we have the right to. We have the right to think an never tell anyone what we are thinking and that its no ones business. We all know to that we want to share it with someone who feels the same who you can relate to. What is experience if its not being shared with someone else . What my attempt to do here is describe the moments in life that give us comfort; that give us a feeling that you done this. The feeling of knowing how beautiful every moment in life is. I will never though say you should put a man or woman and yes whenever I say man i also most certainly if not more so mean woman. So here I begin on this journey I hope you will join me and give me your experience each post totally different than the last