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"Simply Sunshine"

Night of the purple rose.

Do you remember the night we first met? I do.. I had no idea then, but that night was going to change my life forever. I saw you.. Your silhouette in the night, from the dim lighting. I was eminently drawn to you. I do not know how, but I got the strength to start talking to you. And from there... it started. 

Our melody was one I could never have imagined or conjured up myself. I simply enjoyed you, you were so different and strange to me, you made me smile every time I saw you. I still remember sitting in class next to you, thinking how blessed I was. Then you looking over on my notebook and the drawings I doodled... You said; "You're good at art." I was so thrown off by your comment. This is after I walked away from art. I wanted to hide it all! But you got a seek peak, and that freaked me out. I feared you would want me to go back to the dark hole I had fought so hard to get out of. But you said nothing after that, never bugging me or judging me about it. But that seemed to just be your way... You did not judge, and I was so thankful for that. But for once, I felt I could be real around someone. And not be thrown into a pit by their judgments.

I grew to just love being around you so much. You seemed to just want to join me in all my trouble making and I loved that. The songs we shared and running in the cold. For once I did not find winter so unbearable.. I had you. Then that windy night happened, do you remember it? The smell of the dreams we began paging through in that library. My heart was so full that night! I thought it could not get better. But then you surprised me... You held me and gave me a kiss on the cheek, that I still feel to this day. I remember the bright moon. And the purple rose you gave me... No one had ever given me a flower before that day. Not only that, but you knew I loved the color purple. I felt like I was floating on clouds that night among the stars. 

Then my own judgement and fear came in... I do not believe in regrets because they shape our character. But I do regret that night I allowed rules to break what we had. Rules are not meant to do that? They are not meant to break us? But these did... I still remember that sleepless night... and the week of not being able to eat a single thing. I could not stomach that pain. Even now I feel breathless at the thought of it. I thought you'd never want to speak to me again. So I ran and was a coward. But not you, you came at me and demanded we be friends. I could not understand how you could be so brave! So fearless!

After that shaking night I could not sleep. So I walked in the woods, holding that precious purple rose. I asked why so many times. I could not wrap my head around it. And out of the blue your sweet voice changed my life with these simple words: “Your good at animation.” I froze and dropped the last petal on the white snow. I did not even know what animation was and what that word even meant. It freaked me out. But I looked into it and knew without a doubt that was what I was meant to do. 

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Now it has been years... I have battled so much. And I ran away again.. despite your voice calling out. I thought it was too much. I just wanted what was simple and sweet! I just wanted to have what others have in life and love. But your voice keeps calling me. It echoes loudest when I am in doubt or fear. And I could not be more thankful that it is your strong sweet voice during my stormy life that always leads me back. 

But like this song says... Do you know what it is like to sail away from all you know and love? People look at you like your crazy. But you cannot escape the calling of your soul. I am so freaked out. To have your fingers compose something you could not have imagined. It scares me to my core. I fear losing control and being overwhelmed by its beauty. Yet, what control do I have? I have gotten so good at running away from things. But I am not running anymore. The courage you showed guides me. As I know you’re out there living boldy! So I am going to be bold too. 

I have decided to go back to school and get my BFA(Thanks to one simple inception from a WONDERFUL friend of mine gave me), to work on my manga, to allow the furiously beautiful artist out. I am so tired of pretending... I wanted to be simple and just find joy as others do. But I am a dichotomy... And that does not fit into a “simple” life. So I follow the siren’s calling, hoping, praying, longing that that God will make a way. So now I prepare for another sailing away to Long Beach next year, if it is God’s will that is. And I pray it is!

Live Bold Event Cancellation

On Friday 30 October an unfortunate incident happened leading to the cancellation. As EljayTunes we are obliged to report on this, since we were directly involved and partnership with Creativity Parlour in marketing the event.

The turn out on Friday was reasonable but the was that there was no show when people got there; to explain the Live Bold Worship organizing team released the following…