#litomare

SOPHIEEEEEEEEEEE, WHY !!!!

fuck: freed ( his original gay awakening )

marry: rufus 

kill: SHREK, DIE.

 ❝    all  of  us  together  !!  rosaria  should  smile  more  though  !!>    ❞     @litomare​

YES HELLO??? LET THEM FIGHT. 😤😳

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send me a ship and i’ll reply with...

vomit / don’t ship / okay / cute / adorable / perfect / beyond flawless / hot damn / screaming and crying / i will ship them in hell

I will be honest, I didn’t expect to dive into it so hard, but here we are. I think it’s beautiful how vastly different Fu Hua and Zarina are as people: one holds up duty high and the other is just continuing the mission because there’s nothing else left to do, close to dropping if not for the one who truly cares. They are the hero and villain dynamic in a very unique, interesting way because they’re just so different and they have different paths that they took, only to meet in certain times. They are always there for each other through out 50.000 years. 

They are the only unchanging constant that will not be erased easily. While Fu Hua is in China, Zarina is in Russia. They are closer to each other than many think, and I believe that them just meeting each other during travels once in a while would be the meeting that they both can look forward to. Though, I can see them sharing their problems and their concerns in their own way, be it through touch, through songs, through silence. They understand, at least, each other’s loneliness and their past - they have memories connected to each other in some capacity. Well, until Fu Hua loses all of her memories and then gets killed off by Otto as well, but imagine them also finding each other again and Fu Hua has a sense that they know each other? It’s just such a beautiful yet sad moment. Zarina clings to memories of the Previous Era, because they were exactly what she was and what she wanted to be - so she has diaries of the most important memories with photos and small notes, where she writes down her meetings with Fu Hua as well and her concerns. 

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deathless.

Silence befalls between old friends, the silence that spoke louder than any prominent word that could explain everything. No, there is no need for it as Fu Hua spoke the truth. How long had it been since this age started? The immortality they suffered was not going to go away until the mission was done or they die. There has to be an end to this endless life, there's no turning back from it as it’ll always follow them. The memories that were being forgotten will not return to her but she had learned to live with that and accept it, she must’ve changed from years ago and she’ll change even more the more she’ll live. The words of Hua next to her only rang bitter truth, but they had each other at this very moment. Even for a bit, it would be their small refuge from the war losses. 

A hand was placed on Fu Hua’s shoulder, the silver-haired woman only gave her an understanding look before sitting down on the stairs that were going down the mountain. They’ll have to say goodbye to each other sooner or later, but for now, they’ll watch the moon and the stars while sharing a drink as others were asleep. There will be nothing left for them to come back to if they will lose who they are. Zarina felt how countless names she took on were changing who she was bit by bit, but how it was for Fu Hua who presented herself as a Celestial? As phoenix? As everything outside of human understanding. 

“Yes... We are not the same people, but that doesn’t mean we have to sacrifice everything we are. After all, we are still here and we are still alive to carry our own weight through centuries,” Sokolova wants to smoke but she doesn’t have anything to use to do that. Old habits die hard, the alcohol they’d drink together would not be stress relief. More like an enhancement to their melancholy. “We are who we are now, Fu Hua. Changed, broken, stubborn. We’re not the same, but stopping at that will never be befitting to either of us. I’ll remember our small encounters and I’ll remind it all to you. And if I forget something... won’t you do the same?”

There’s trust in that small, tired smile of hers. If there was anything inside her golden gaze it was trust. Perhaps, adoration hid well beneath that gaze of hers as well. There were too many things they could talk about but also nothing at all. The silence would be pleasing as well, they could bask in each other’s company and feel like hours would feel like seconds. 

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hand-written letters. 

Dear Fu Hua, 

It’s been a while since I last messages you. We’ve seen each other only on our last meeting with Kevin and Su, it’s been too long since we’ve even seen each other. Well, for us, it’s not as long, isn’t it? We are immortals at this point. We have lived long enough to see the rise of humanity in this world and we have been its progression. You must be exhausted, knowing your stern and serious attitude where you don’t attempt to find pleasure. Then again, maybe it is better than what I have been doing, drowning myself in hedonism after I understood I forgot my home back from before. Do you remember your home, Hua?

I heard you have changed. I wonder if those people simply think that way from my talks about you or you truly changed. I do not see you changing, you are too stubborn to do that. Too righteous, I told you that before. You are even more inflexible than I am, I noticed it before. Do you remember how I kept telling you to relax and you never did? I remember you called me out on that as well. The moment when you glared at me, saying I have no right to talk like that. I remember also replying that I am a hypocrite. You looked very cute when you got frustrated with me. Your reactions were always fun to watch. I won’t lie, I miss them. I miss spending time with you. I know we will meet, but there is a longing to witness how these past decades have changed you. 

My people told me you have become... colder as if you were a stone. I wonder if it is because you forgot that you are still a human. That we are still human. Fighting Honkai is our mission, yes, but do not turn into what we are fighting. After all, there is no one who will save us, Fu Hua. Besides us four so far, there is no one who will understand us or who will reach out to us upon learning the truth. Do not lose yourself, my friend. Or I will have to remind you in as many ways as I can before losing myself to this immortality as well. 

I miss... 

I hope this letter will find you well, Fu Hua. I hope you are still in Shenzhou when I arrive in several months. After all, traveling from here can take time without making it look suspicious. I want to see for myself how you have changed, dear Celestial. Is that how you are called now? The Azure Empyrea? I heard so many names by now, it makes me wish to travel and see you once again. 

Would you greet me like an old friend or will you judge me for my choices once more? 

I wonder, Hua. I wonder if we will meet like we did before. Prepare your best tea for me in several months. I will visit you on the day the new year strikes once more, I heard it will be a full moon as well.  

With longing,

@litomare​ sent their regards  :  🥪 set a plate/tray/bowl of food down for my muse ( beidou to yukine ! )

 ❝    ...    ❞        brilliant  blues  blinked  at  the  meal  that  was  placed  before  her,  almost  as  though  she  couldn’t  understand  why  it  was  there    ...    and  what  to  do  with  it.  it  wasn’t  the  first  time  that  she  went  without  food,  old  habits  that  were  difficult  to  get  rid  of,  but  she  was  the  one  who  normally  found  food  for  herself.  not  have  another  do  that  for  her.  should    ...    she  thank  the  pirate  ??  what  was  the  correct  set  of  motion  she  should  follow  ??        ❝    ...    would  you  like  to  eat  with  me  ??    ❞

@litomare​ sent their regards  :  👗 rosaria fixing ciel’s clothes uwu 👗 Fix/Straighten my muse’s clothes

 ❝    mmmm,  you  done  yet  ??    ❞        electro  chosen  child  did  her  best  not  to  fidget  as  rosaria  tugged  and  straightened  her  jacket,  her  hat,  her  scarf,  every  piece  of  clothing  she  wore.  she  wore  it  right  though  !!  she  double,  tripled,  no,  quadripply  checked  !!  so  why  was  rosaria  still  making  a  fuss  ??  cheeks  puffed  out  into  a  pout,  ciel  already  giving  up  on  staying  still  as  she  started  to  sway.  she’s  even  going  to  ignore  the  look  the  nun  gave  her.  hurry  up  !!