#literallyjustluke

Hey guys, I wanted to give a bit of an explanation as to why I keep going silent on here, plus an update about Luke that’s transpiring today.

I lose track of updating this page a lot because there’s a very real chance that he and I could work out, and I feel that deep down if I keep doing live updates of everything that happens between us, it stays in some purgatory realm of just daydreaming and wishful thinking.

In stark contrast to my philosophy I still want to provide some major updates. We’ve been spending a lot of time together (don’t worry, we’re very careful about social distancing right now, especially because we live in a very high density city where nobody else is following the rules). He and I don’t really go anywhere else except to see each other. I’m a bit torn about how this all came to be, whether we’d be further along in our relationship without quarantine or if it’’s the best thing that could have happened to us.

Hi everyone! just wanted to announce I am officially back on my bullshit™

These last few months have been really difficult for me health-wise, plus I went through a bit of a period where I wanted to give Luke some space because he was feeling a bit crummy and I felt like I might have been holding him back from his friends and hobbies, but I think we’re okay now! Also the university has been ass about their website so Luke and I have been talking mostly asynchronously for a few weeks, and we’ve only recently been talking face to face again for a few days: but some things have happened sort of quickly between us and I just had to check in!!!

normally i try not to post overly dramatic things, but i’m pretty bummed i didn’t see Luke today. I was supposed to help him out around the office and preparing for midterms, but I just felt too sick to even show up. Anyone got some advice for what in the hell I should text him? I haven’t yet said why I couldn’t come in today, but I know we need to work together in the next few days and idk guys I just feel bad for flaking on him then asking to meet up in a few days.

Okay so first of all, he replies to me immediately which is a testament in itself. but also??? what?????

So this whole thing all started almost a month ago (sorry for not updating in forever lol) but Luke gave me a very small package and a letter, idk why but he gave it to me after the class I TA for. He slid it to me across his desk like it was a drug deal and had to run off to a meeting, so I didn’t even open it until I got home from class.

I opened the letter first, and it said, “I know it's teacher appreciation week, but I'd rather it be ‘teachers-appreciate-their-students' week. You're not one of mine anymore, but I'm glad you've stuck around. You've helped me tremendously in class and to learn new things every day. I thought you should have these, I have no idea how they work and probably never will, let me know if you can find a better use for them.”

I have literally no clue what he’s talking about at this point but what’s in the little box? Freakin AirPods. He’s such a dumbass and doesn’t know how technology works, let alone bluetooth, and he gave them to me because he knows I can’t use regular headphones because I have a tendency to walk away from my computer and fucking yeet the entire thing across the room by the cord.

Ok fast forward a few days, because this happened on a Thursday and I saw him next on Monday. We had our regular coffee morning, but before we went on our own business I needed to give him a hug (because of more things I might post later) and he asked about how I liked the headphones. When I hugged him I told him “thanks! for more than just the headphones.” and he’s SO CUTE he said “you’re welcome, for more than just the headphones!” and that he’s glad I was in a happy mood (surprise this didn’t last for very long)

Gosh, Luke is just so great to me. I’ve been feeling like actual shit but he’s kept up our normal routine, coffee and texting so he’s been a real constant in my life and it’s kept me from going total destructive mode lol