#lillinds

Oblivious to my own actions. Taking steps towards moving on but all it takes is one word , one word and 10 steps back i take . 10 steps towards that sunken place where common sense can’t be reached.

I can’t make sense of this power you have over me like voodoo. When I’m with anyone else contentment is temporary, lasting only until that moment where my mind replaces the physical for the desired and I fuck you through her.

Its funny how all i think about is you , i constantly write poems and songs to express myself. Paint my thoughts of you, and immortalize you in art. Then your right next to me and i freeze up. My mind goes so far those right words I’ve written time and time again and my mind goes blank. 

The simple things like telling you how much i appreciate you and why gets jumbled up and my words clash with each other sounding foolish. This is the reaction to thinking a moment in your head for so long and letting the chance slip by every time.

I just struggle to find the right words, the right moment. I may not be your type but your type wouldn’t even imagine how much you mean to me , and you may ask why? Well, simply because your different, your beauty radiates from your pure heart. You’re so chill and that energy you let off i love it. Your creativity , taste in music , and your character matches perfect with some one i can not only enjoy their presence for the rest of my life but build with. Tell me, who else would love you in every way possible while achieving things only power couples achieve.

We only get one first time. I continue to patiently wait for that first time. The first time I feel the lips of she who inspires me, oh the first time shall be perfect, so I wait because ..

You make me feel like the first time I heard my favorite song. That first time I wrote my first rhyme, made that first beat. You make me feel how music makes me feel.

You are that dream I can never give up no matter what. You are that which consumes my thoughts , 4 am thoughts of how would the first time feel.

Everytime you are around me i can’t wait for the day you look into my eyes and ask me why do you love me?

I love the way you make me feel, the energy I pick up when you’re around just relaxes me .. You feel like home, that feeling of comfort and relaxation.

I love you because you’re beautiful. You are sooo beautiful , to me. Everybody will complement you on your physical beauty , yes you are bad … but they don’t see how bad you really are … you are the definition of BEAUTIFUL. You’re beauty goes deep , your heart is full and pure , you’re just such a dope soul and I love how beautiful you are as a person.

I love you’re smile , the way you light the atmosphere up with just you’re smile

I love how big you’re heart is , you’re caring and you’re heart makes you one of a kind.

I love how smart you are , you’re innovative, you’re a creative person that has vision. You’re someone I can build with and grow a company with and not ever have a doubt on your intuition or entrepreneurship… you don’t understand how much I love this about you … the makings of a power couple..

And most of all , I love how much you inspire me , you are my muse. At times I lose all creativity and just with one glance at you and you spark something in me. You make me want to create the best music I have ever created just to explain the story of how I fell in love with you. You inspire me to push harder , to accomplish every single thing I told u I would do , just so I can say , you inspired me to do this , you inspired this body of work . You pushed me to become the best version of myself.

You just got that something about you.. When your sitting in my passenger seat , I look to my side and I feel at peace. Like , you belong there , the one holding the road map , playing the right tunes , enjoying the ride as you roll up the next one. No matter the scenery I just find myself getting lost looking to the side , as you look away not noticing how I admire your beauty.

I admire how perfect you are , no make up on .. you say you look crazy but I must be the one who’s crazy , crazy to just lean over and kiss you , crazy for wanting to please every single inch of your body , relax you with my hands as I massage you from your neck all the way down till I’m giving you booty rubs , relax … Let me explore your divine body with my lips.