#lilladyblues

Although I’m completely ill prepared for you, I sincerely apologize for bringing you into the world under these circumstances. You must know now and forever you will be loved! To my little guy Charles, I’m sorry that I’ve forced you to grow up faster, and have to share me at such a young age. To my oldest love, Kaden, I’m sorry that I can’t be the mother you want me to be. I’m sorry you finally got everything you wanted and was taken away from him. One day I hope you two will understand all that mommy had to go through to make a better life for you both. This new heartbeat beats and I can’t stop it. He/she is a blessing. I mean who knows maybe they’ll be the glue to hold us all close together. To my love, my best friend, Malik, I apologize to you for not being completely honest…I appreciate you cus you’re still here. Ik this new heartbeat has nothing to do with you…but I love you for sticking by my side. And always looking out for me. You don’t have to and you do it anyway. However things turn out you sir are and forever will be my MVP 💯❤️😍😘 The 3 Guys of my life that I owe so much to! Hold on! A change is coming.

You don't love me like you say you do.... Some times it's best to just be alone than with people who pretend like they care. Friends are enemies and Family is fake. No one is loyal and no is great. Don't ask me where I'm going cus I will tell you idk. But I'll call you when I get there, you just wait by the phone. Why do you lie when I already know the truth. Oh but you didn't know that cus you to busy doing you. I'm so happy for you, more like finally... Turns into hatred and a bunch of bullshit brewing. Why am I here and you there, why can't I get where their is love everywhere. Don't tell me you love me and don't mean it cus I'll tell you I'm leaving and you won't get it. I'm keeping to my self from this day forward. No I don't want to hear about your day or how much fun you been having. Or how sad and lonely, or miserable and confused. I'm on my way to my next journey. And no ABSOLUTELY NONE OF YOU ARE INVITED. This journey will only need one me and no you. Just me and only me. A trip I must take alone. No problem last as long as the trouble that presents itself. I guess being single leaves no room for heartbreak and heartache! These are the blues of a trapped tired soul with no way to turn. Sad Lil Lady Blues......😢😢😢😢😢😢