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(4) Angry headcanon

Chloe has a temper as hot as her hair and whilst she has a relatively long fuse, when she is mad everyone steers clear of her because Mount Beale is just not something you want to be in the way of when it erupts. Unless she’s the cause of it (which is very unlikely but has been known to happen when Beca closes off and doesn’t communicate and Chloe gets frustrated with her) Beca is usually the one to calm Chloe down again with a dumb joke or by calmly dealing with the thing that’s mad Chloe angry. In more dramatic situations when Chloe’s emotions seem to have gone haywire and she’s truly livid (which Beca has only ever seen once and she never wants to see it again) Beca takes Chloe from the situation completely, back to Chloe’s bedroom where she feels safe again and just holds her until all the anger and the tears have passed. Chloe knows that what calms her down isn’t the fact that the situation has gone, but is rather the feeling of Beca’s fingers lightly scratching at her scalp and her arm around her waist that grounds her again.

Beca has mastered the art of quiet anger. It’s rare that people know she’s angry about something because it’s an emotion she quashes alongside the rest of them, but when she releases it it’s arguably even more terrifying than Chloe’s. She might have a shorter fuse than Chloe but because she shows her emotions far less than her girlfriend, it’s genuinely quite frightening when Beca gets angry (and is the reason Amy calls her Rottweiler). Chloe has had to physically drag Beca away from situations that have made her angry, more often than not as Beca is still screaming obscenities and with her fists clenched. She learned relatively early on that Beca manifests her anger physically rather than emotionally, throwing things or hitting things for a moment of release. It’s why she signed Beca up for kick-boxing classes, and why when Beca was particularly angry at her dad (for reasons that Beca’s still not quite ready to talk about) she took her to the Lodge where Aubrey had set up a private axe-throwing area that Beca got almost scarily into (not to mention that her aim was surprisingly good for someone so clumsy). Beca hates showing emotion, she still sees it as a sign of weakness, but when it comes out in front of Chloe and she wraps her in her arms until Beca doesn’t feel gross and vulnerable anymore it’s not quite as bad.

(5) Fear headcanon

Chloe is afraid of little things, like spiders or rats (which Beca thinks is hilarious). She always screams for Beca to come and rescue her, secretly loving the way that Beca swoops in like a (reluctant) knight in shining armor. However, when there are big things that scare Chloe like graduating and having to figure out who she is outside the Barden Bellas, Chloe gets unusually insular and quiet, it’s how Beca knows there’s something really wrong. Chloe hates admitting that she’s scared, she wants to be the strong one, but when Beca presses her to talk about what’s on her mind it comes rushing out in a torrent that usually leaves Chloe in floods of tears. Beca soothes her until the rush of emotion passes, and once Chloe is ready they sit and make plans to help deal with the things that are scaring her in a practical way. Chloe loves Beca all the more when she bypasses her own reluctance to talk about emotions so that she can look after Chloe.

Beca won’t ever admit it, but there’s a lot of things that scare her. She’s been dealing with anxiety almost her whole life, and although she has a better handle on it now than she used to, there’s still days when the slightest thing sets off a panic attack. Her worst days came when her insecurities and her anxiety are both in full force and Beca can barely breathe for the weight on her chest; the days when she thinks that Chloe’s going to realise any minute that Beca isn’t good enough to be with her and the slightest loud noise makes her chest pound and her palms sweat. In the start of their relationship Chloe would often find Beca in a fetal ball on her bed or trembling on the front porch and it would take a lot of coaxing to get Beca to even let her touch her, nevermind comfort her. But the longer they’re together, the easier Beca finds it to let Chloe help her, and when she can feel herself spiraling again she tells Chloe rather than waiting for it to get really bad and having Chloe find her in distress. Her bad days are fewer in number too because Chloe goes out of her way to make Beca feel loved and makes sure she knows how happy Chloe is to be with her.

(14) Romance headcanon

Chloe is a very physically demonstrative person, she needs very little excuse to be romantic with Beca. She loves to shower her in both gifts and kisses, to do little things like run Beca a hot bath or bring her lunch when she’s at her internship. She’s always liked to show her love in whatever way she can, but with Beca she goes into overdrive because she’s never loved anyone quite like this before and she wants Beca to know it. She knows that Beca often goes along with it begrudgingly, but she also sees the little smiles and the way Beca’s eyes light up when she does something cheesy and romantic, and that makes it all worth it.