#likereallylikeit

fan or not - ohhh yes!

how long i’ve been a fan - Since fall 2015

the first song i heard by them - Voo doo doll

my favourite song as of now - Fantasy

the first mv i saw - Voo doo doll

my favourite mv as of now - Chained up

who my bias is - Hyuk and Hongbin

lol, send as many as you want

8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

raising four kids, i guess? technically speaking, i am more of a parent than the first born in my family; biologically, not so much

my dad was very absent in my home life, which left everything to be done by none other than my mother. if i’m proud of anything, it would definitely have to be helping her that one night when i was about seven, where i refused to go to bed and pretty much forced my mom to rest while i took over watching my newly-born brother and calming him? because that’s what started the chain-reaction of me helping to raise my four younger siblings. at the time, i kind of just wanted to play “big sister” but as i got older it turned into being worried my mom was doing too much on her own. i wanted to help her

so basically, yeah: i’m proud i stepped up to the plate to be a parent but i still hate kids with my very soul #neveragain

11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.

the sweet release of death

i actually don’t know?? i can never remember any of my “good” dreams, only the nightmares :’)

36:Talk about your guilty pleasures.

i don’t really have any pleasures i would consider being “guilty pleasures” but there are some that i just don’t mention because they aren’t relevant like:

the fact i play otome games (i have like five on my phone as we speak)

i like to dip salty chips in applesauce

my applesauce has to have sprinkles

39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.

there are a lot of things i wish i had known earlier - too many to count to the point that it’s sad really, but i’ll keep it to a minimum of two:

when i was growing up, i was very oblivious to a lot of events going on in my life and because of that i hurt someone very close to me for years because of it. and by “years” i mean until the time i was sixteen, which - keep in mind - was only about four years ago so this was relatively recent. but, one day, i found out the truth about some stuff and i’ve felt disgusted with myself ever since. looking back on it now, i just wish i had known way before that point because i could have saved that person a lot of unneeded and unintentional pain

i also wish sexuality had been introduced to me at a much younger age. and, no, i don’t mean i wish i’d know what the birds and bees were and that one day “everyone” gets sexual urges at the age of five but rather….. what sexuality was as a concept and that heterosexuality and homosexuality weren’t the only things that existed and were perfectly normal?? because until i was about seventeen?? i had no idea how fluid and vast sexuality was. i hadn’t known what asexuality meant past how the term is used in high school biology class. i could have saved myself a lot of years of feeling… broken