@likehephaestionwhodied saidĀ āIām still really upset and I donāt think Iām ready to talk about any of that just yet, butā¦I shouldnāt have let you leave.ā (from Steve)
Tony didnāt really use the bedroom anyway. Not to sleep. He usually wished Steve goodnight and went down the workshop or else never came up in the first place. They just usually werenāt fighting before he left. This time, the distance felt like distance. And maybe that had been the problem all along--theyād been too busy, spent too much time apart, gotten so caught up in all the world hung on their shoulders, that theyād fallen out of sync. Tony couldnāt remember the last time theyād had a date not interrupted by a near world-ending calamity.
FRIDAY had alerted him of Steve coming long before sheād actually arrived--he could have locked the workshop door, changed Steveās code; he hadnāt. Maybe heād been hoping sheād come. Working was usually a good enough distraction--clear out his mind by tinkering, because failure in the lab was just a part of the process, exciting even. He tried, and failed, and tried again, and science never told him he was out of chances--he wasnāt sure how long he could say the same about Steve.
As she entered, as she started talking, Tony turned, wrench still in hand, and wiped his brow with the back of his wrist. It hadnāt been working tonight--the distraction hadnāt been distracting, the work wasnāt fulfilling, and there was nothing in his head except Steveās voice, except playing back the last few hours on repeat like an equation heād missed a step in. Hadnāt carried over...something, and now the answer was wrong. He set down the wrench.Ā
āSo where does that leave us?ā he asked. Theyād both said things they didnāt mean--at least, things Tony hoped they hadnāt meant--but it was something theyād need to work out sooner or later. But Steve wasnāt wrong; Tony was tired of fighting, and he didnāt think he had it in him to go another round tonight.Ā













