hello everyone,
it’s been a long time since i’ve last shown up here, and a lot has happened in my private life to keep me away.
for starters, my grandmother was hospitalized and unfortunately passed away on the 12th of september. i’m pretty sure i haven’t been the same ever since. she was my closest and probably the relative i loved the most and her absence still hurts seven months later.
then i got busy with university and projects. im a law student and i got to take the bar exam for the first time last november and i didn’t make it because of one single question. i felt terrible, stupid and afraid i’m not gonna have a carrier because i can’t even do that. how bad would i be in the actual field?
then i lost my job for a while there, managed to keep it somehow, but the first three months of this year were mental hell. my anxiety was everywhere and i couldn’t bring myself to do much. i have ideas, plans and half written fanfiction just waiting there that i never go to finish.
and as of right now i have a final thesis to conclude, and i got like a week to do it. 50-60 pages and i’m still stuck in 10. pray for me i guess, lol.
i wanted to write to everyone sooner. i wanted to come back with something for everyone that continues to read and waits on my stories. for that i’m eternally grateful and i’m incredibly sorry i haven’t manage to publish anything in so long. i hope when i’m done with my thesis i can finally put something out.
i wish everyone all the best, and hopefully see you all soon.
with lots of love,
rai x
