#lifegotbetter

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Have you ever been so lost that you don't know what to do? So lost that you just follow the road blindly? Doing what ever you need to do just to make it to the nest day and tackle it all over again. Its hard. Its extremely hard. And I do not wish this upon anyone. I know we all make mistakes... We all have regrets. I get that, and I also get that everyone... No matter who the fuck you are, we all have our own challenges that need to be overcome. I wish there was an easy way out. I wish that one day we could all wake up and things would be better... How they should be... There is a way out and it all takes time. It also take a lot of willpower to want to make things better... But willpower doesn't change everything, especially if you have ant type of mental illness. Sometimes you need to keep up on countless medications, believe me, I know. I have been on what seems like every antidepressant, anti anxiety and panic medications. None of them have ever worked. Nothing has made it so I can balance my life and panic/anxiety attacks. When I was 17 I first smoked marijuana. My life became so much more balance. My anxiety seemed to go away. I was able to deal with people. I was able to live. I wasn't suffocated. So many people have looked down on me because I smoke. I won't amount to anything because I smoke pot. That's not true. I have a full time job doing what makes me happy and I also have a child. No I'm not a bad parent because I smoke marijuana. My child is never around it nor have I ever put him in danger because of it. Its easy to step outside on the porch if decides to take a nap. Nothing is ever done in my house nor stored where he can find it. If something harmless can make so many things easier... Why is it so frowned upon. I know so many states are making laws that are making life easier for everyone... But there are still so many naysayers. I am no longer lost. No longer blindly going down a road that no one knows where it may lead. I have found the something that makes my life bareable. My challenges all haven't been overcome but I'm finally able to be me... To hold a job and support my family!