#levismith

I was alone, and that was different from lately, but okay.

It was cloudy out, and that was a let-down, but okay.

It was cold everywhere in my room, and it made me shiver, but okay.

So, I decided to try getting out of bed without wallowing in pity for thirty minutes... something I've become shockingly good at over the course of the last week. So, I got up, put clothes on, and smoked a bowl. Without crying or crumbling or being so upset I had to interrupt my course of action.

Now I'm going to;

Meditate

Exercise

Shower

Get dressed and cute

Wait.

Then, around noon today, Jay's picking me up and we're going to his mom's for lunch, with Kaden. :).

My goals are to;

Smile

Eat appropriately

Be happy

I think it's doable. I love and miss my big brother so much, and I still feel incomplete... but I feel like it's time to try and piece myself back together. Levi would have wanted me to.