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😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily?

i cannot even BEGIN to fathom the apocalyptic world ending situation required to make hound actually CRY cry. he doesn't know how to, he's so emotionally numb for years that even learning how to feel concrete, identifiable HAPPINESS is difficult. CRYING? he recognizes grief, with kakashi's help, he can comprehend what that is when he feels it, but to actually CRY? it doesnt happen

he doesn't cry, he might go into shock, or lock up, but he Does Not Cry. kakashi takes care of that for both of them.

💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

oh my god so much of what hound does and has learned is from anbu. his posture is rigid he very rarely if ever relaxes even an inch, his expression is always blank, he does not use vocal inflection properly.

hound is kind of like an echo of what they were as a child, so a lot of hound's interests and habits do eventually go back to things that they would have done as children. his snark is very biting, even mean at times. he prefers old flavors that kakashi doesnt consume as much anymore.

honestly adjusting to hound in general is difficult because, to a lot of people, he is a Different Person in Kakashi's Body. they're expecting KAKASHI even when Hound is fronting and that makes it difficult. for everyone.

hound also doesn't use contractions the amount you would expect in regular conversation, he's very stilted. someone socialize him please.

🌙 MOON - what is your oc's greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it?

im going to blow up the whole world.

for so long hound didn't really want or feel anything that wasn't. what he was created for it wasnt within the cards for him to WANT things but when he can, oh my god when he can.

for awhile maybe he wanted obrin back but that was wrong and for a while maybe he wanted sensei again and for awhile maybe he wanted to be a person but it was all wrong and he wasn't anything until he was again.

he just wants to be a person, he wants to be a person with everything attached to it. he wants to do things he enjoys he wants to have people that love him he wants to be able to love people. he needs so much therapy to get to that point, of knowing it of acknowledging it of working towards it.

he wants to be able to feel things again, he doesnt want to be a human, he wants to be a person, and he's trying so, so hard.

at a point in time he may have considered killing kakashi for it, but he never would have, even if he could have, he never would have.

🌠 SHOOTING STAR - if they could make any wish with no repercussions, what wish would they make?

KIRPY.

oh my fucking god.

i don't know, i don't even think he knows, hound doesn't fucking know. hound isnt the type of person to consider impossibilities, he's never going to consider a true wish upon a star that could change things or provide something. hound is always going to reach for things with his own two hands, and if he cannot reach it, he will stretch until he can.

an obvious wish, for an earlier hound, might be to split, to have his own body and let kakashi have his, twins instead of alters. but, he wouldnt enjoy that wish if it came true. he MIGHT, for awhile, but it would fade, he covets kakashi in a way that obrin do not understand yet, wont for a very long amount of time. kakashi was his, his responsibility his burden his feelings his everything and he has fantasized about being separate when all he was was angry but not anymore, never anymore.

he and kakashi dont want to be separated, either of them, and that is another thing that the people in their lives will have to adjust to.

if he could make a wish, blow out the candles on a birthday cake and wonder, he might wish for peace, but hound was made for war, and such things do not come to him so easily.

☁️ CLOUD - a soft headcanon

hound is made for so much more than war, but it will be years before he realizes this.

hound is a caretaker, thats what he WANTS to be, that is what he is, even at his worst he cared, and that was always why he was so goddamn angry.

he's never going to be soft, or nice, or sweet, he's got terrible bedside manner, but he cares, he's kind.

Hound is matter of fact, hound is dangerous, hound is lethal, these are all truths that are not negative, or positive, they simply are. kakashi knows he is safe with hound, because he knows the lengths that hound will got to love him.

obrin wont be exposed to that for some time, and what they do see they will see through hound tending to kakashi, they will see with hound interacting with naruto.

hound is a bad man, he is a bad human, he has done terrible things and he accepts all of them, but he has done them out of care, and he will do them again for the same reason.

hound's good with people that are hurting, because he knows what it feels like to hurt that badly.

obrin first really see Hound and have their interpretation of him challenged when they happen upon him sitting on his knees in front of naruto while naruto is rambling, obviously wildly upset about something that happened at school, most likely related to sasuke, or his grades.

hound can handle this easily, hound speaks in an even tone, he is capable of distracting and talking emotions down, he does this until naruto is looking at him still teary-eyed but thinking. hound presents a new perspective, hound raises questions that naruto could not ask on his own.

"do you think that is fair?" "...no" "you are correct. it is not fair, not to either of you. there are ways to fix this, but you will have to make an effort. will you do that?"

and naruto nods, redirected and calmed while hound stands to take his hand and guide him home.

obito is better at understanding hound than rin is for a long time, but "better" does not mean he understands hound completely, and even understanding hound's point of anger does not prevent him from being prejudiced against him.

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The door creaks, and Shikamaru is already lightheaded from sitting up so suddenly, but the tension makes his heart pound, makes him freeze as the door slowly swings open to reveal—

Kakashi steps into the hallway, rubbing at his eyes, and Shikamaru processes his appearance in a second. Wishes he hadn’t.

Kakashi’s hair is even more unkempt than usual, sticking out in odd puffs and angles. He’s not wearing his hitai-ate, in fact he’s not wearing his uniform at all, what he is wearing, Shikamaru realizes with a previously unprecedented level of horror, is one of his father’s shirts. 

He knows it, because his father is the only man under sixty in the village to own a ‘I’d rather be playing Shogi’ shirt.

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“Ah.” Kakashi said, hand now firmly held over the lower half of his face. “Excuse me.”