Friends On Internet
The thing about having friends on internet have a good and bad advantage.For me,I don't trust easily to people especially online because I don't know much about them and NEVER saw them in my life.They will use that advantage to trick people and then what? Betray them? Friends means the people who are there WHENEVER or WHATEVER you're going through.They will make you smile even though you don't want to.They will make a time just to talk to you no matter how busy they are.But let's just get straight to the point,are you sure that those FRIENDS of yours will never break their promise? Their promise to comfort you,be there when you want to pour everything out.In my experience,the first time I get to be active online,I have a lot of friends already,of course,my school mates and classmates are exempted because I always see them and really know their personality.And last year,I made friends too,we are 8 or 20 in the group and 1 from an individual (obviously) What I noticed is,as the time goes on,on the group I was in slowly and slowly to ignore me.I don't know why.I didn't do anything wrong because I am BEING HONEST whether in online or not because that is A VERY IMPORTANT VIRTUE FOR A PERSON TO HAVE! With your HONESTY,you can earn their TRUST! THEY CAN TRUST YOU TO ANYTHING SO DON'T YOU DARE TO THINK OF BREAKING IT BECAUSE ONCE YOU BROKE THEIR TRUST ON YOU,THEY WILL START TO DOUBT YOU.Trust is very hard to earn. Now,back to my discussion,as the time goes on,they start to ignore me and all and whenever I message them on a group chat to talk about my problem,they will just seen my messages and then after an hour,a reply.Well,I appreciate that they've seen it and I'm not in a hurry to make them reply ASAP.What I want to pin point is,WHERE IS THE PROMISE THAT THEY VOWED? Where did it go? What happened? And then a lot of questions of popped in my head."Do they care for me?" "Am I bothering them?" "Are they busy enough for them not to reply just when I needed their advice the most?" "AM I STILL THEIR FRIEND?" "Are they really interested?" Because you know what,I don't want to look like an idiot staring at my screen to wait for their reply.And if I get and feel not important anymore,I quickly let them go and see if they care.It's better than to hold on than seeing them go.Common sense,if they don't like me or have me around,just tell me so! At least let me know if my business is done or what! That just makes me feel so useless.It's my enemy! My insecurity and consciousness! I'm wasting my time just to talk to the, and attend to them when they NEED ME.But when I NEED THEM....WHERE ARE THEY? Almost everyday,I don't expect them to answer me ASAP so they would cozy around me.I get angry too,I get upset too,I get sad,I get hurt,and most of all,I cry! I'm a mere human just like you! But why do they have to this to me? We share the same interests and hobbies but why? Why do they have to leave me hanging? I wasn't expecting their full attention,but what I need is their REASON.SIMPLE. For me,having only one friend is already enough for me to live my life.I had this one friend that I met on social media because of Yaoi and KnB.We start talking and then found ourselves having the same mind( like we already know the way we think ) and all and so she is in school,she added me on kik instead and we talk there lots.Because you know,I feel comfortable when I'm around her.She's a good listener and an adviser.I already told her my experiences and my feelings,how I feel especially my insecurities,tell her to end my life,tell her how awful I am to have as a friend,but what she did really make me cry in happiness.In those 8 big circle of friends were outstanded by just a single person! The way she cares,the way she make me feel so important that there is nothing to worry,just makes me cry.Because,this is the first time ever told me "I AM BEAUTIFUL" "I AM AWESOME" "GREAT" "WORTH TALKING FOR" She is like a sister to me already.I just saw her face when we're on kik. Since I don't want people to be plastic with me,I am being honest because I believe,if you don't want others to do it to you,don't do it to them.As easy as that.Karma is on the way and will never be gone because that's just what reality is! I am the type of person who cares for the people around me,thinking of them before myself and a good listener and good adviser ( also a good love adviser for my friend who has a problem with love ).I never let my friends down and treat them equally as possible.I don't easily give up and get angry,and If I want something,I will really get it.I make them feel important to me that's why.I CARE FOR MY FRIENDS.Especially that single person. If I were you,I would be honest to myself.
