only 66 works in stainmight tag how is that possible is no one else compelled .. come onnnn .. people .. its all there . watching while your idol loses his power and identity and falls from public grace.. but because you are genuinely nuts in the exact same way as him you understand who he is... so his public persona evaporating actually has very little effect on your feelings for him (society at large is freaking out and has no idea what to make of the new toshinori yagi. but you have actually been worshipping the man, as opposed to the symbol, this entire time, unlike everyone else. kind of. and you r still obsessed w him and want him to kill u). all the ways he is perceived within the matrix of celebrity and ableism and power are put into gorgeous contextualization and contrast via your relationship to him (fun for 27yr old fujoshis to read) and THEN you come upon him in his weakest and most vulnerable moment and you say get up i adore you dont throw away your life. get up. you have to kill me . you may not rest as i walk the earth. i made myself terrible so that you could touch me .. whattttttttttfftt