Exactly how I feel 💅🏼 #repost from @tamarbraxtonher #newyear #leavingyoubehind #fakepeople #newandbetterthings #preach 🙌🏼

I hate you and I miss you. How can I miss you when you hurt me? Well I can't explain. Or maybe I was just dumb. I stayed hoping you would change but deep inside I knew you would never change. And I also knew that I would never ever trust you again. Yet I held on to something that I always knew wouldn't work. I start to think of you and all the good times we had and that makes me miss you and I get sad. then I start to think all the shit you put me through and I get really angry. And well I don't want to feel either way because both of those feelings suck. Feeling either way eats me up inside and I don't want that. I want to just forget about you and we both know that's impossible. You were a big part of my life. No one deserves to be lied to or deal with a drunk. But time. TIME! No one should fear the person that says "i love you" to ever put hands on you. I was your present and you brought your past with you. That's something I couldn't handle. I wanted to be your only present and I was hopeful even your future. Don't ever mix those two up. I also hope your heart changes because you have a very ugly soul. I'm letting you go and everything that we went through. I have no time or space in my tiny heart to resent you.