#leap talks

the concept of being human and ‘being’ ‘human.’ learning how to be human and letting yourself be human. allowing urself to be human. surviving vs living.

i think faiz stuck so hard to me bc a lot of the characters struggle with identifying as a human. something happened that made them question if they r allowed to consider themselves human anymore. if you are not, what are you?

its interesting esp knowing blade comes after it. hajime is super cool but he Wants to be human, is human. characters around him affirm his desire, he wants it so bad.

so many characters in faiz arent human, unknowingly or not. and they must continue regardless and wake up and eat and choose to keep being human. they dont want to be human but they want to live. they want to die and want to be human. they want to die and not be human.

its such a fascinating show esp as someone who deals with depersonalization its like yeah. what does it mean. to die and be human-like again. idk its something so weird to me i love faiz.

truthfully i would want kiba to live to face the consequences of his actions and shoulder that guilt. to know his failures personally again.

i also think faiz has something to say about romance and the social pressure of relationships. i lost my train of thought

ok so i havent read the novel what ive heard sounds like it would piss me off so bad ngl so all of this is without that.

yui’s powers of the mirror world and the conception of the monsters stemmed from the innate desires of her and shiro. tulpas in a very broad sense are thoughts made physical and given form. they are literal tulpas from paper into mirror, and yui is herself a weird kind of tulpa, being made alive again by her mirror self because her kid brother in grief wanted it. actually its so sad bc instead of growing into and through the grief he became what he is in the show. idk ive been thinking about this a lot bc of who’s lila (indi video game), the king in yellow (aris torture device short story anthology).

i think its fucked up how shiro took creatures made to protect younger versions of him and yui from their parents and used them as tools of war to make people kill each other to get her life back. like they are made when they are kids bc they were in an abusive neglectful household. genuinely i think the mirror monsters would not attack if mirror yui wasnt pulled out of the mirror world and into the real yui’s body. THEN they are used by shiro’s technology and contracted. i want to know so much more about yui and shiro tbh i love the mirror world so much

ok anyway this all leads to mirror shinji ryuga. a tulpa created by child yui to keep her company and who becomes malicious bc he sees a way out of his own fate (being a tulpa/unreal mirror entity) due to the war and honestly doubly so bc shiro goads him into it. idk he is so doomed to me so sad. he doesn’t really have a choice at all bc from conception as yui’s tulpa, he is fated to be an alternate and never real unless given the chance that shiro and the war provides