#leaking bladder

oh um also I mayyyyy have continued to hold it instead of using the bathroom because it feels sooo good to have a full bladder and I maayyyyy have had a lot of water and iced coffee and i mayyybe possibly am pressing my legs together and squirming and maybeeeee had to emergency grab myself really hard to keep my pee from gushing out while i was standing refilling my water bottle, and it was making a really really water pouring noiseeeeeeee agh 😖