the tree of life | 时光代理人 (Link Click)
“Stop it,” Lu Guang said hoarsely. “You’re just being cruel now. Cheng Xiaoshi is dead.”
“That is what you know,” said the owl. “But what do you understand?”
The day before Cheng Xiaoshi died, he flung himself onto the sofa on which Lu Guang sat reading. His eyes were crinkled with mischief and life.
“Can I tell you a story?” he asked.
Lu Guang, who was deeply entrenched in another, more sophisticated story, grunted.
“Does it have to be now?” he asked.
Cheng Xiaoshi sprung himself onto his knees, his arms folded over the top of the sofa like a dog looking over the window in wait of its owner.
“It’ll be short,” he said. “I promise!”
Cheng Xiaoshi’s stories were never short. He habitually lost track of his own plot midway through a sentence, wandering to whatever shiny thought caught his interest instead, before remembering the point. Lu Guang was in the thick of the novel’s climax, and he could feel an emotional catharsis working its way to the surface in only a matter of pages.
“Save it,” Lu Guang said. He squinted at the page. “I’m busy right now.”
“Tch!” Cheng Xiaoshi poked him hard on the cheek, to which Lu Guang scowled. “Fine, fine, whatever. When will you be done?”
“Never, if you keep talking.”
Lu Guang made a show of turning the page, even though he had absorbed next to nothing of its contents.
Cheng Xiaoshi hummed. He rested his cheek against his folded arms, his eyebrows arching as he craned to look over Lu Guang’s shoulder to the book he was reading. Lu Guang narrowed his eyes in an attempt to narrow his attention, which was difficult when Cheng Xiaoshi’s presence, much like a noontime sun, hung over everything.
“It’s just,” Cheng Xiaoshi piped up. “I was just thinking, about that one time when you were showing me this one book you loved. This is so random, okay, so–I was upstairs looking for one of my hats but I found that book, right? So do you remember when I was sick and–?”
“Cheng Xiaoshi,” Lu Guang said testily.
Cheng Xiaoshi scowled, clearly believing that he could have gotten away with it.
“Okay, okay!” he said. “Just–don’t forget to remind me to tell you, okay?”
“Fine, fine,” Lu Guang said hurriedly. “Just give me an hour or so.”
Cheng Xiaoshi slithered off the sofa and distracted himself with scurrying over to Qiao Ling’s. Now that the photo studio was blessedly quiet, Lu Guang buried his nose into the rest of his novel with veracity.
The climax was all-consuming, and it startled Lu Guang with its metaphors and meaning. He was left in its haze for hours, and outlined the anatomy of its auteurship aloud with intensity during dinner, when Cheng Xiaoshi asked what was so interesting about it. He had not remembered his promise to remind Cheng Xiaoshi to tell him what had been on his mind until late at night, when Cheng Xiaoshi was already mumbling in his sleep in the bunk below.
Tomorrow, Lu Guang thought to himself as he settled into his sleep. I’ll ask him tomorrow what it was he wanted to tell me.