#lbpqs

bc im sick of yall copypasting the netflix lgbt section. these are all movies i watched and can confirm theyre good. some of them have lesbian themes rather than romance but its better than watching like, loving anabelle or sth. my personal faves have an asterisk next to them.

but i’m a cheerleader (a classic)*

miao miao (no romance but SO GOOD. totally worth it) *

alto

imagine me and you

the handmaiden**

the hunger (!!)*

the incredibly true adventure of two girls in love*

joven y alocada*

mosquita y mari

the girl king (period drama!!)

addicted to fresno

la belle saison

liz in september

the summer of sangaile*

carol

life partners

vampyres

contracted*

appropriate behavior*

reaching for the moon*

violetas: tensión sexual

bye bye blondie

les chansons d’amour (half abt a poly w wlw, half abt a mlm relationship)

pariah*

the children’s hour

valerie and her week of wonders (lesbian themes)

therese and isabelle*

circumstance

el niño pez

water lillies

fucking amal

rent

rara

drool* (HONESTLY THIS IS RIGHT UP THERE W BUT IM A cHEERLEADER. A MUST WATcH)

with every heartbeat

A commonly related experience from wlw is that they remember forcing crushes on boys in their youth. While this is totally a valid and common narrative, it has always really stressed me out because it was so far from what I experienced. 

Looking back on my childhood, I had a “crush” on like.......basically every boy. I was totally “boy-crazy.” 

In the last couple of months, I have been realizing that I’m a lesbian. I like girls, want to date girls, and never want to be with non-girls. My whole “boy crazy” past really stressed me out because I felt like I couldn’t *really* be gay if I liked boys that much as a kid. (Note: I know that's just ridiculous and that past doesn't matter in determining your here and now self but hear me out.) 

I started thinking about it though and I think that all those crushes were...not crushes. Like, I grew up Mormon ok so I basically had all the pressure to be straight as a pole, so I looked for the approval of boys and I think i kind of tricked my mind into thinking I liked these guys? 

I know that sounds kinda ridiculous, I’m trying to formulate it but I’m not doing too great. But basically I think what was really going on was that I had no idea what a crush was supposed to feel like so I projected this desire to be accepted and liked by boys onto every boy I knew because that's what my subconscious thought a crush was?

This feels especially right because my crushes on girls... Oh man they are so different, so better and happier and more real feeling then ever. 

Idk if this makes any sense, but if any of this sounded familiar to anyone, let me know! And if I said something that just seemed...wrong? Let me know!