#lavinian-lamia

THE NAMS QUESTIONS

//pffft i like how your 2 top priorities this morning are Math and Mags. Both begin with M.

It was so nice to interact with you thank you so much for all of it~~

AHH

<3 <3 <3

"No, Namine, it's...it's never JUST been a kiss..."

Sorry I've been on such a flip-floppy schedule for the past couple of months (or an entire year, really). Work nowadays has some crazy and unpredictable hours that I have yet to get used to and it runs into some plans and goals that I have had over the past couple of months, but I'm finally getting into the swing of things. I wasn't sure how to really start this. I felt bad after my birthday because I had essentially ruined it for myself. Lavinian-lamia, Mags, you have shown me so much suppot and I haven't been there as much as I should have. I'm really sorry and I hope you can forgive me. I really am thankful to all of you who wished me a happy birthday, and the immense privilege of having 140 followers. I'm sorry I'm not consistent and I post junk most of the time, but believe me, I'm still Riku's mun for this blog. He is very much my muse and never leaves. It's quite frustrating, actually, but he and I can relate on such a deep level it's just...it's insane how much I look up to a character.

I wanted to apologize to those who wished me a happy birthday and for those who have supported me since you've started following me. I really am sorry for being so selfish. I felt overwhelmed and not sure how to balance everything. Now that I'm twenty, I decided it's a time to start and develop more age-appropriate goals, like being on time with work, doing projects around the house to help, thinking about the future and saving up for college--etc. All at the same time spending time with family, taking care of my little brother, checking up on my friends, taking care of my pets, and reclaiming the hobbies I used to thoroughly enjoy when I was younger.

I really want to do better. I am doing better daily, step by step. I've gotten out a deep pit, and while I still struggle sometimes, it's becoming easier to reason and function when I'm upset or sad. I reacted wrongly to some things, and I hope you all can forgive me.

I've been feeling a lot of guilt for this recently, so I thought I'd write this to all of you.

Thank you again for following me and believing in me. I want you to know I support all of you and wish you all the best and I'm here if you ever need to talk about anything. <3 I want to be friends with you all. I don't care what your gender is, what your sexuality is, what your religion is--I will love you as YOU. I will love you as the person you have become. I will love you as the gender you identify with. I will love you with whatever sexuality you have. I will love you no matter what your religion is.