#last post for tonight..

Gorgeous Uruha 1/2

I'll admit it, tumblr terrifies me. Because I've made so many great friends here. But, it seems like everyone I love and care about...they aren't doing too well. It's always depression, or drinking, or every other possible thing in the world. And it terrifies me. Because I'm scared that if I leave for one day, I'll come back finding out one of them took their own life. And I just can't mentally handle that- it kind of takes up too much space and I can't think about anything until it finally processes. And then I just kind of stop caring about everything else and I don't take care of myself and my grades start slipping and I generally just don't care about anything. But I feel like when I try to help I'm actually just really annoying. I'll continuously talk to people to distract them from this kind of stuff and I feel I get on people's nerves, so I'll eventually stop talking to them. But then I feel that I'm a bad person and that I'm abandoning them.... So how about we stop sending hate, stop making others even consider like suicide is an option, and let their friends and family not have to constantly worry about them.