#lanacoded

One evening I wake up to realize ive missed school,I didn’t worry as much as I needed to since I’ve missed more important things then sitting in a classroom filled of fake girls and jocks.

I sit up in bed against the headboard,rubbing my eyes and yawning as the sun shines brightly outside my window. I hear the sound of knocking upon my door,I raise an eyebrow.

“Come in!” I say as the door opens revealing my mom.

“Hey honey wanted to see if you were doing good you missed school today,you okay?”

“Yeah mom I’m good I just didn’t realize”

“Okay…I’ll be downstairs if you need anything” she says before she leaves the room.

After hours of just talking on the phone or writing and playing my music I see that it started raining outside. I set down my guitar and notebook and get up to start getting dressed.

After throwing on a pair of black leather pants,a black band shirt,boots,and a tight leather jacket, I get up and go to brush my teeth and fix my hair slightly.

After getting completely ready I grab my phone and wallet before heading downstairs. I reach the end of the stairs to find my brother standing at the door talking to his friend,I roll my eyes and walk passed them,coming into the cold breeze and scent of rain outside,like I always loved it.

I start walking,not really having a destination or anything but just going wherever seems right. The rain pours down lightly. I start walking to a nearby gas station that I usually go to, the sound of screeching of cars and pouring rain being the only sound.

As I walk into the gas station I’m welcomed by the radio playing music and the greeting of the cashier. I walk up to the cash register and get two packs of cigarettes for the week. I pay and give the cashier a small nod and smile which they return before I start walking back out.

As I walk back out Im flashed by the gleam of a car coming straight at me in the middle of the road, not even going slow, they’re speeding faster and faster by the second, I barely look up when it’s almost hit me. but,before it even touches me im pulled to the side,confused I look up and try to get the flash away from my sight,I slowly look up to find my neighbor, Nikki. My eyes slightly widen but a smirk comes across my lips.

“Hey you okay?” He says softly but concerned, God that voice..

“Yeah,yeah I’m okay thank you..”

He smirks and gives a small nod, his arm still wrapped around my waist as he admires me?

“Hey what’re you doing out right now?” He asks with a raised eyebrow and tilted head

“Oh I…I don’t really know just got bored and decided to go for a walk…you?”

“Kind of the same reason sweetheart” he says with a neutral expression like he didn’t just call me SWEETHEART?

“Oh.”

“Yeah you should be getting home it’s getting later and worse” he says as he brushes my soaked dripping wet hair behind my ear,our body’s pressed against each others.

I nod and look up In his eyes with a small smile,For fucks sake I’ve liked him since i was basically a kid! And now I’m only 16!

His eyes drop down to my lips before he finally releases me with a one last gentle squeeze on my waist.

He starts walking backwards and disappearing into the rain again,I stand frozen in place before realizing what im doing, I shake my head and chuckle before starting to walk back home.

After finally reaching the front door you open the door and walk in, my clothes stuck against my skin as im drenched from the rain,a small smirk on my lips.

My brother appears behind me and pushes me playfully to the side.

“Hey watch it Fucker!” I say with a playful glare.

“Why do you have a stupid smirk on your face?” He asks with a raised eyebrow.

I freeze.

“Dad! I think she has a boyfr-“

Before he can finish his sentence I punch his arm.

“I don’t have a boyfriend.”

“If you do I’ll fucki-“

I roll my eyes and push him before going upstairs,once upstairs again I sit on the bed,my hair sticking to my face and my clothes clinging to me. I sigh and get up to go shower.

I turn on the shower and look in the mirror as I wait for it, I look in the mirror and shake my head.

“What am I thinking…” I say to myself,my mind racing with thoughts about Nikki.

After a few minutes I shake off the thought and get in the shower,after showering I step out with a towel wrapped around me, I go back to my room and dry off and start getting dressed my mind still hasn’t left off thoughts about Nikki and everything he’s done, he saved me from getting hit, the way his hand was around my waist, the way he looked at me, the way he looked at my lips, the way our body’s collided, the way everything went!

I groan and sigh before checking the time. Great. It’s already 10. I turn off the tv and lay awake before drifting off to sleep finally.

A few weeks pass by…

It’s a new day, but today I’m playing a big gig with my band at a place called the Roxy.

I call my bandmates while I start getting ready. Black tight leather pants, a leather black bustier, Big knee high boots, leather glove on one hand, Big teased hair, glam rock makeup,Chains and silver everywhere.

I start grabbing my guitar and putting it in the case before grabbing a small switchblade and extra lipstick and hairspray before heading downstairs, I go and hug my parents before I leave.

“Bye mom bye dad.”

“Bye be safe okay?” They both say

I nod and smile before walking outside and getting on my motorcycle.

I arrive just on time to the gig place and hop off my motorcycle as I meet up with my bandmates.

We all make sure everything’s tuned and that we have everything we need before going out on stage. After grabbing the set list we walk out under the faded lights and take place. The loud music coming in as we start playing.

As I’m doing a solo I realize something…someone. I realize NIKKI is leaning against a wall, smirk on his face as he just simply watches. I just smirk and continue playing. The night goes on with chaos like usual. Screaming, running, jumping, anything you can imagine, adrenaline rush completely.

After the show me and my bandmates run back,laughing and joking, I have a cigarette between my red lips and my guitar in my other, we start walking out of the place and as we do so I remember Nikki and run to where he was, he was in the same spot, same expression. I walk up to him.

“Hey..” I say with a small smirk

“you were great up there.” He says with a smile

“Thank you” I say with a small chuckle

He smiles and looks me over in awe as we start talking and heading outside.im leaning back against my motorcycle as I talk to him but get a courage I never thought I’d get.

“Nikki..I’m fucking inlove with you.”

“No no…sweetheart…I’m too old for you.”

“I don’t care I…I…I want you. I’ll do anything it takes Nikki.”

“Baby..” he says with a small sigh

Before he can say anything else I kiss him. I fucking kiss him.

He freezes for a second but kisses back shortly after,his hand on my waist and my hand on his chest. After I pull back he looks down at me like I’m crazy but with another look I can’t find..

“Sweetheart listen okay…I feel the same actually” he starts

My eyes widen and a small smile forms on my lips

“But..are you sure you want me? Are you sure you can handle me? I mean..I’m your neighbor plus I’m way older than you.”

I nod immediately

“Yes ill..I’ll do anything”

He nods slightly but sighs and pulls back,releasing me.

“I should get going..” he says as he looks down

“Yeah…”

He nods and smiles slightly before walking away.

I stand still, shocked that I just did that. Oh my fucking God I just confessed I’m so stupid..

I shake my head and get on my motorcycle and drive back home.

A month later surprisingly things have went great between me and Nikki,we were kind of a thing now. I mean we felt the same but it was just like he was more thoughtful about it. But me?, no, I could’ve give a fuck what society thought about it,about us. I wanted something and I was gonna fight for it.

One day..

One day I’m getting ready to go to Nikki’s house since he called and said to. Band shirt, short leather skirt, leather gloves, messy black hair, slight makeup,boots/heels?, and silver accessories.

I arrive to his house and knock on the door,he opens it immediately, pulling me inside and hugging me.

“Mm…Baby I missed you” he says softly and quietly

“I missed you too” I say with a big smile

“Fucking adorable” he says with a smile before pulling me onto his lap as we sit on the couch.

He kisses me gently.i kiss back.

After a few minutes of just watching tv and being close he speaks up.

“Sweetheart…I still don’t know what to do about this whole us thing..it’s completely unsafe and what will people think? “ he says quietly, looking in my eyes with concern but love.

“I don’t care what they think Nikki I fucking love you.Im not going to give up on this,on you. I’ve wanted this for so long I won’t give up now. I’m not letting this not happen..please” I say rather desperately

“You’re right. We both want this don’t we? Yknow what I don’t care what anyone thinks either doll. But if anyone finds out we’re both fucked.”

“No one will find out…I promise” I say with a small smile before kissing him.i knew he’s always been kinda backed away when I had confessed multiple times but he’s finally giving in.

“I love you doll.” He says

“I love you too Nikki” I say with a happy smile

He chuckles and tickles my sides before pulling me more against him,kissing my head.

“No one will love you better than I do.” He says possessively but softly.

“No one…but you” I say with a nod

“Good girl.” He says as his hands slip to my thigh under my leather skirt,he’s always been patient and gentle.