#lakesharing

Twilight sparkle is a lesbian to me because I'm a lesbian and I said so

There comes a moment where you can't water it down anymore, you can't joke, make a silly voice, pitch it down, say it in a different language, there will come a moment where you can't keep pretending and separating yourself from your heart, you have to fight it and say it, and feel it raw, let it flow and keep talking even if it feels like you're tearing yourself apart, because it turns out that feeling it alone is like choking, like pushing yourself down, and finally letting yourself speak, even scared even terrified, speaking and pushing through the feeling of dying, letting you express yourself and work yourself out feels like breathing for the very first time after suffocating your whole life

The movie ended and immediately it felt like I needed a new name, a new body, a new haircut a new voice a new face, life isn't supposed to feel like this

I keep telling myself, in like a way to remind myself "I'm not trans!!!" I think it like I'm scared, it's been a thing for a couple of years, but it keeps being so relatable

I keep finding myself realizing I was holding my breath as soon as I start thinking about I saw the TV glow again

Oh I love being a lesbian

Listening to Mitski smoking a cigarette and my I Will interpretation is me and myself as a 5 year old singing it to each other