#l0stmysanity

i haven't had sex in over a year and a half so im pretty much a reborn virgin i seriously think im going to die. nun lyfe ain't the life for me

lol gotta go to a party friday but my arms not presentable le sighhhhh

maybe im just stoned

i am the worst baked blogger

my heart feels heavy and my soul feels empty

this week last year i tried killing myself and then i was admitted to the adolescent psychiatric unit 3 weeks latrer for 2 months, so much has changed since then and yeah sure im not 100% 'better' but things are a helll of a lot better then they were and honestly im so proud of myself for making it this far and still being here and im just really proud of myself tbh

i just want to graduate high school so i can move to the city, live in a tiny apartment, work, go to school, get alot of tattoos, drink alot of tea and coffee, go to lots of clubs, smoke alot of weed and cigarettes and do alot of yoga.. like thats my dream