#kyoi

when we first started talking three years ago, i honestly didn't know what to expect. we met during a weird time for me, i was struggling with some terrible friendships and honestly only had this account and the pjsk account to escape everything. and then. you came in! and i think we can both agree that times were incredibly incredibly silly with how we were back then, honestly i reread some of the ways i used to be and cringe really hard.. its terrible.

the more and more i talked to you, you very quickly became one of my favorite people on tumblr and later on one of my favorite people in the world! anytime we talked, even if back then it was just about goofy fandom things (and your eventually successful propaganda to get me into milgram), i would always end up smiling really wide. you and the group we had back then all meant the world to me, but anytime you popped up in my inbox or my messages my day was just that much better!

im always nervous to talk to people on platforms outside of tumblr, but it was so easy with you it was genuinely crazy. im like. notoriously bad at texting with people its highly unfortunate. but it was always so fun and easy to talk to you! i still remember the arashi and tori video you made of us.. and i play it sometimes whenever im having a moment hehe.

all of this doesn't even mention the joy i've had creating with you. floristea and token and vic and natsuharu all mean the world to me, and back when i was really locked in with ocs it was always so fun to bring them up to you and just. go silly with it! i will definitely get back to them eventually but. they really do mean the world to me.

and of course. the highlight of this year for me has genuinely been talking about our selfships with you. ive always had a bit of a fear towards talking about my selfships because they feel so sacred to me, but talking with you about them has been so comforting. being able to message you and just go insane about malleus has literally made so many of my days better. and of course getting to cheer on your ships is one of my highlights!! you truly helped me grow more comfortable in something that i used to be ashamed of, and i genuinely can't thank you enough.